Hey BBV
EDIT: just realized this is damn long post, sorry about that. wanted to get it off my chest
I'm kinda new here, I'm a normal nit who plays rather low stakes and grinds some money quietly.
So I'm 24 years old and I've been playing poker semi-professionally for ~2 years now. I dont have a tendency to blow my roll in one sitting, and that is what makes this night so strange in my mind. I dont act like this, never before.. Hopefully never will anymore. Anyway Poker has been the only income for me for the last 2 years.
So I am drinking with my buddies and I had a very good month in poker. I have a habit of withdrawing some money in the beginning of every month depending on how much I have won.. So I have $10,400 on my poker accounts (on 3 different rooms), and I havent withdrawn anything yet. I decide to play some and also bet on some sports just to have the sweat. I bet some random soccer in some random league, I dont even remember which anymore and I dont bother to check. So I bet 50 and after 5 mins my bet is screwed since the wrong team scored. Ok, no problem, they have live betting (betfair) and I can take my money back easily. I bet 100€ now and at about 80 minutes my second bet is screwed as well. So I just decide to take my money back and bet 300€ that no goals are scored anymore.. What do you know, at 90 minutes the home team scores and im down 450€, and a bit tilted as well.
We decide to hit the local casino before going to a bar. I take 300 euros with me and sit at a poker table.. I'm feeling anxious and I realize there is no way I can sit at a live poker table and play well. some alcohol in me and slight tilt from betting makes sure I will just try to find a place to shove my chips in and see what happens. I play about 20 mins and leave, with profit of 40€ or whatever. I hit the slots (I almost never play slots) and in 10 mins I'm down like 150€. I still have about 200 left and decide to take it to the blackjack table. I start bettinig 10e and win some, I'm at 350 or so.. then I lose like 7 in a row and tilt, I bet everything I have in 4 different spots. The dealer had J and I have 19,15,16,10. I take one on the 10 and get a 9 so now it's 19 (I dont double since I dont have money left) and dealer hits 20 obviously. total down somewhere around 750€ for the night.
I'm feeling kinda down and my friend is kind enough to buy me 2 drinks to cheer me up and give me words of consolation. I do feel kinda better, It's only money right.. So we go to a bar and drink some more, I'm getting drunk and I am not that interested to try to hit a girl tonight, kinda down and I dont feel like going through the trouble. Just want to get wasted. At some point of the night a decently pretty girl comes to me and starts chatting to me. She says she saw I am down and asks whats wrong. I'm like no problem, I just lost some money today and feel kinda crappy. We get into talking and I end up with my friends and her friends to some afterparty. There is like 15 people total, and I know the girl I was chatting up with and my friends. There is soem dude (I think the owner of the place) playing small stakes poker on his laptop, totally wasted. My friend is like yeah we play poker as well, this dude here is quite a highroller. He is like want to play? I can let you play if you want. So of course I sit in there and open up an account I have about $5000 in and start play NL600 No-limit heads-up.. My normal game is NL100 six max or PLo100 six max. I lose like 4 buy-ins in probabyl less than 15 mins, I cannot tell for sure how long it took. The girl I was chatting up with is somewhere with her friends and I figure I'll find her later, no time now since Im down a lot and super tilted. I jump into NL1k Heads-up and lose it all.. The only hand I can remember is the last hand when I shove it all-in with nut flushdraw on flop against villains 2 pair. I dont hit and I go busto on my account.
I am super tilted but the girl who I was chatting up with comes in there like 5 mins after I lost it all. I've been sitting there with my hand in my head just trying to realize what I just did. She gives me a glass of wine and asks if I want to go somewhere and talk. I'm like whatever yeah lets go. She starts kissing me and I know where this is leading to, but I couldnt care less.. I'm super drunk, and super tilted for losing craploads of money. So the biggest failure of the night is that I cannot get it up, and I storm out of the house embarassed. I call my friends I tell them I'm going home you guys have fun. I go home and open the other account with ~$2000 in there. I play Nl400 PLO and fittingly, lose it all. The next day I wake up the feeling is surreal.. I cannot believe what I have just done, I blew almost $10,000 in one night, which is like 50% of my net worth. And it all started from 50€ bet on soccer for fun. I realize that I have to take a break from poker and get my head together. I do exactly that and take a week off. Now I'm back in the grind with one really sick, stupid, and embarrasing night to remember. I hope I learned something, I dont want to feel the way I did when I woke up ever again. Just awful :S
Beat: Lost 50% of my networth in one night.
Brag: Didnt even try to get a girl, but still got one.
Huge Beat: Cant get it up :S
Brag: still able to play NL100 (yeah, I am a nit)
Last edited by PonderPedro; 01-31-2010 at 09:42 PM.