You can self ban with security likely. Good luck

I have a true story that would be the most degen out of everyone here. The problem is i dont want to post it using this account because some people i know, know i use this account. Should i make a new account to post the story?

yes.

Doesn't matter now because everyone will know the most epic story to grace the thread with be ChrisStunner

Pocket Rockets has it really been 6 months since your last degen? I am ageing too fast.

Went to Vegas.... Broke even at 1-3, 2-5, 5-10 nl... Lost 7k playing blackjack... Have yet to learn my lesson... This lesson is getting really expensive.

Definition of insanity-doing the same thing over and over expecting a different outcome.

2 yrs ago had alot more money and would play poker for hours and book a couple K and lose 10x that in the pits.
Red hitting 17 times was where i hit rock bottom on roulette.(-57k) GG Foxwoods.

Yeah haven't been to a casino since last year. Doesn't any easier tho, still have the itch every day.

Whats stoppinf you from going?

Over past month I built up a 40k roll playing 2/5 and 5/10 no limit games. Past 48hrs I am down 30k playing 2k/hand baccarat. I am planning on playing more today.

Sounds like a solid plan.
gotta lose that money as they say.

I stopped going bc I was a huge degen and loosing money I shouldn't on a weekly basis.

Not big deal lookatme.. It only took u a month to make 40k a 5/10 NL so just move up to 10/20 where u can do it in 2 weeks.

Update: just lost 3k more

Solid advice bro

So here's my story... It's a bit long but I'm definitely a ****ing moron. Sorry for the length of this.

I was about 16 when I first started playing poker. We were just a few buddies who would get together and play for like 5 bucks, it was nothing. But I loved it! I discovered Stars and FTP shortly afterward and I would sit up for hours playing those freerolls. I never won more than 3 bucks but I would get so excited. I would even take my laptop with me to the US on family vacation and sit up to like 4 AM playing these! (in addition to wanking off of course - a week without porn? **** no!)

Anyway poker didn't do me any damage until I was 17, and I received my bank card on which I had around $5K (birthday money etc). I quickly deposited $100 bucks to both sites (Stars and FTP). I was obviously **** at poker so I lost. Another $100. More. More. More. "%#&/(%&(/%&)(/ me! I know what I'll do! I'll deposit $500 and I'll play micro stakes, and grind. Brilliant idea, right? I did fine at first winning like $300 but then I lost a little (maybe 50 bucks) and I went completely degenerate ape**** **** me up the bum you filthy whore **** YOU dip****-ANGRY and proceeded to lose it all. Within a couple months my card only had 2K on it. :/

After this I was able to slow down, focus on my studies and did very well. But then I turned 18, and the $45K that my parents had put in a bank account in my name was now at my disposal (lottery winnings). Surely I'll be responsible with this money and save it, and use it on my first apartment or something..?

LOLNO. GAMBOOL GAMBOOL, bitch! I withdrew about 2K at a time from this money onto entropay, and 500 of that would I put on Stars/FTP. Well, after losing a further 1.5K or thereabouts, I went on a heater up to $3K. Obviously felt like God, "you can't beat me fish!!!!". Whoopsie, I'm the fish. Plummet to 1K. !"%#%. I immediately full stack 3/6. Get it in with bottom two (this is PLO, I was piss poor) on 9 6 2ss I think, fill up on turn, and hold threeway strangely. Didn't last though, gone in a couple of days.

A while later I go on a MTT heater on FTP, finishing 2nd for ca $3900 and first for around $5000. Now the real gambling monster in me comes out. I start playing 30/60 razz, 25/50 NL 5-card draw, 25/50 PLO 6-max, 25/50 CAP HU PLO (I ran sick good here). At first it goes really well. I reach a high point of $20K. I am satisfied. I want to cashout. But entropay won't let me do this until I go through some verification crap with my bank account. Jesus Christ monkeyballs!!!! "Fine", I say to myself, "I'll just gamble a little bit in the meantime and it'll be okay." Yeah, of course it will. BOOM!! DOOMSWITCH!! I am down to 5K. I decide to deposit another 2K because then, I said, I will have in total deposited 20K which is better than 18K because it's a more even number... Then black friday hits! (Yes, I deposited a couple ****ing weeks before black friday, I am a goddam ******"). I essentially thought I had lost 7K.

I become obsessed with this number. I've lost $20 000. 20. 20. 20. I write it down. I have to win this back.

High school is now over, and I graduated with excellent marks even though I cocked up a bit in the last semester. I relax in the summer. Can't remember that I even thought about poker.

In the fall I took a year off at a "school" where we would just be social, travel and have fun basically. Kind of like college but with much worse parties and less attractive people. Anyway, my insecure/antisocial behovior started kicking in, and I would spend a lot afternoons and evenings in my room on my laptop. Naturally, the degenerate within wanted to gamble. I downloaded partypoker, and would grind for hours on end. I didn't do too well, and regularly deposited 2K onto entropay, until eventually hitting a streak and reaching at most 16K. Downswing comes and I'm unable to handle it. I sit at 25/50 NLHE, and play HU. I won 2K the very first time. But eventually that turned out to be a losing play as well, and when I was down to 10K, I inexplicably put 6K on like 16 different tennis matches on some kind of weird sports bet, and I wind up losing about 3.2K on it (I don't know what the hell it was, it was on partybets). Now I'm furious with myself, and start putting big amount on various sports, knowing very little to nothing about the games I was putting money on. It was gone by Christmas times.

The number that is now stuck in my head is 46. $46 000 I've ****ing lost! I'm just sad. Hate myself. Isolate myself further. I just wanna be alone.

The rest of the school year passes and I feel refreshed. I decide to make another stab. One last. I open up Stars, and start grinding the PLO tables. Within days I reach $6000, and despite playing some 30/60 FL 2-7 v Seb86, and 50/100 NLHE CAP, I reach 19K. Now I have to deposit! But I encounter more verification stuff. Then I lose. Only 2K. But then I lose another 1K. "what the hell?" I think to myself. "I'm only playing 2/4." In a very nervous state I open up a 50/100 CAP NLHE table. I get it in preflop with my kings against 1010. River 10. I stare blankly at my screen. The feeling of 'it's gonna happen again' fills me up. Somehow I'm able to not gamble anymore that day, get some sleep and then I'm back at it the next morning. Losing continues. I would lose a further 5K, and go on massive tilt. After dropping another BI at 50/100 NLHE CAP, I put my entire roll on a MIXED game table which at this stage was a meager 3.6K. Well, 4 hands in and I'm dealt KKq10 ds in the PLO round. I open BTN. SB POTS. I flat. Flop KJ8 rainbow. SB POTS. I can't believe my luck. It goes all in. Turn A. River J. Villain flips over raggy aces. I'm in shock. What's wrong with me? I start punching air, swearing, in general just acting like I just lost 15K in a few hours. My mom storms up screaming "WHAT'S GOING ON!!???" I assure her everything is fine. Up until this point they know nothing of my online gambling antics. I don't wanna break it to them.

But I do have 2K left...

CLIFFS:

- started playing poker at 16
- lost $20K by black friday, age 18.
- Lost a further $28K by the time I was 19.
- Down to my last 2K from intial 50K bankroll.

BRAG:

- Got up to $15K+ on multiple occasions, on multiple sites.

BEATS:

- Lost it all.
- Isolated myself.
- Felt horrible about myself.
- Addicted to poker, all I thought about, all I wanted to do.

Guess how my story finishes.

Yikes.. Adds other true degen to the list. Gl man just stop gambling now that's my only word of advice

wow that's pretty degen man, what you doing now

You didn't guess how it ended.

Only 2 ways I can think of.

1. You degened your whole BR and are mooching off your lottery winning parents.

2. You took that 2k and ran it up to 1 Million and your rubbing the money on your tits as we speak.

Full Tilt's reopening gave me back $7K, and somehow, through the course of 2013, I was able to win back all my previous losses grinding omaha hi/lo like crazy (200K VPPs on Stars). To prevent myself from playing too high I would make frequent withdrawals of $2K, and jot down how much I was losing overall. I got incredibly excited at how the number would steadily decrease. By the time it was down to 20K, I had to redeposit and hit a downswing but it was only 5-6 BI at 0.5/1 because now I was playing properly.

By november 2013 I reached 200K VPPs, and that VIP reward clinched my comeback. Now I can focus on getting my life back, and figuring out what I want to do with my life. Poker will undoubtedly be no more than a hobby. Grinding for 1 and a half years is enough. Poker should be fun.

As I'm writing this, I've won a further 15K. It should have been more but a recent tilt-session at FTP cost me 3.2K (because I had to win back 600 lost at 3/6 NLO8 HU v a reg). I have learned though, and transferred the remainder of my roll, $1800, to Stars where I am banned from playing 3/6 or higher.

Yeah this prob never happened

Making a little more than 40K in a year and a half including rakeback. Hardly impressive.

Impressive for someone who goes on life tilt and has huge degen habits.

Kudos if you have beat your inner demons, I'm working on that and know it's not easy.

wow, nice story WINNINGSTEK

why do 99% of your posts reference you being a degen? try hard much? think this makes you special?

Pretty sick story. I'm happy for you if you've now got your life back on track. Congrats! Share some graphs if you have any