Originally Posted by Timewilltell2
Goodness, def not a beg... Ill even delete that part... haha, you guys are something else.... LOL all I can do is laugh.... yea because I was at wit's end until I found this thread, even contemplating suicide for a moment but obviously Im far from that, ESPECIALLY after reading this thread, and I sat up all night reading through all 300 pages of it. Its the best therapy in weeks. It made me feel so much better to hear some of the utmost pathetic stores. At least Im still in good health, mentally stable and dont live in my own filth.
I am so happy I found this thread because it shows me I dont even have it half bad....
I thought that the thread some people might offer some advice, but ultimately these past 24 hours have been the most uplifting 24 hours of my life and I think I will actually work up the courage to tell her so I can get this crap behind me, and the way I am going to break it to her is by letting her read this thread first, then Im just going to drop the bomb, and tell her to take me or leave me... LOL I know her well enough that after she reads some of the **** on this thread, she will only laugh about out $50K loss but expect me to work a real job to earn it back, which is the most logical way to do it anyways. God, she and I will have laughs for life about this thread, I think you really could make a book like that guy said about all the stories....
Thanks guys for the thoughts... and yes, get really upset because I asked for a free btc? LOl,****ing hilarious.. if you can get so upset that I asked for a BTC, you obviously have mental instability problems. ****ing odd, but ill def delete that part since it makes you guys so upset....
Oh and what the **** is that post that says post a pic of my gf's tti? You mean her tits? Or you mean her? Either way Im def not desperate enough to post public pics of her... I have way more respect than that
Goodness, it wont let me delete the part where I said you can send me btc ... its all pretty funny, when you think about it....
Because I went on such life tilt due to playing online poker... Totaled a car, gambled away a $50K investment that should have turned into $150K+ (And im not saying I should have won on the tables, Im talking about if I had just saved all the bitcoins, the 1000s of bitcoins would be worth so much... but I donked them off def a lesson of a lifetime but couldnt really pull my self out of the hell hole of depression and fear until I read this thread.... it allowed me to step back and compare my reality to other's and see how bad gambling can be for those who dont have mental stability
Its funny because I have learned from my lesson, as I was on track for an amazing investment in my life, which could have made me a young millionaire... oh BTC hasnt risen $0.10 to $75 over the past year or anything... and I totaled my car, and my girlfriend thinks I have all those bitcoins... def degen but not much longer... And honestly after reading this thread I doubt ill play NLTexasHoldem again.
I just got caught up in the old hysteria of the online poker boom, and thought that I could sit down 5 years later and pick up where I left off, obviously that didnt happen and obviously I dont know how to play poker or manage my bankroll and at least Im stable enough to give it up and realize I dont know what the **** I am doing when it comes to playing poker but that I do know what I am doing when it comes to investing, because had I just held my bitcoins and not got back into online poker, I would be living the dream with a bank roll I could travel the world with, transferring money through borders and around customs with out any notice... but I blew that so now I get to spend the next 5 years of my life working like a slave, digging myself out of the hole and proving to the people I love that I am strong enough to overcome it. But def a true degen story, as I literally gambled my life away because I just wasnt stable enough to control myself when in the live hands... I had the world but couldnt see the forst from the trees, now I have nothing but peasant clothes, a broken car, a maxed out electric bill and no idea how I will pay rent in 10 days, but obviously it will get paid... heh