Its November 2013, and I have around 3000$ on my PS account, after doing several 500€ pay-outs to party and buy things I really needed, since I have no job, and go from intership to intership. I had a bad day at my PLO-MTT's and Stud8 cash, but intended to go to party and drop some acid, so I decided to chase losses for good mood and lots of Jägermeister, or puss out like a blatant candy-ass.
I fire up 4 nlhe-turbos from 16,50$-54$ KO. It's early evening, all games would be finished well in time to still go out, and the average stack-sizes in turbos reduce my negative EV in nlhe-mtt's enough to give me a good shot.
I manage to final-table a 44$ turbo, and call my friend, with whom I wanted to go party, as soon as I knew I'd make a profit for the day.
I run good and make second for 2.9K and am up about 2.5K for the day. Party!!!
My friend railed it, and way nearly as pumped as I was, since he knew we'd drink enough Jägermeister to get ****faced enough in the club to even overcome the fine acid we had...
Next week, I managed to buy a share of two guys in the NLO8 FTOPS, who made first and third place, which earned me another ~2.5K, putting me slightly above a 8K roll, combined with some minor non-degen winnings in my regular games.
Now things started to get ugly. I pleased the guy who won the NLO8 FTOPS to reserve me a share for further events, 10% of all his 215$ events, and said that I am always good for that share. Though, he sold out for the PLO8 FTOPS without sending me a pm or booking me in, and he went to win that event, too, while I was rialing that one for the last 3 hours, putting me on major fuxking tilt. At this point, I subconciously knew that very bad things would happen very soon.
I spammed his marketplace-thread with at least a dozen posts, ending with a pic of Jhonny Cash's middlefinger, and also cancelled my shares of the other Omaha8-guy, who made third in the NLO8 FTOPS (had a big share of his daily-MTT's one-month-BAP, too).
I still had about 8800$, but my mind was ****ed, due to missing out on another stupid 1.5K in profit, that I deserved to have, getting me so close to ****ing 10k for the first time in my life, allowing me to take shots at 20/40 limit-cash.
I vaguely remember the time in December, but my sharkscope tells my I played a few dozen HU hypers of 115$ NL 2-7 TD, where I actually am profitable, and a whole lot of 200$-600$ NLO8 and NLHE HU hypers, where I didn't do well at all.
At christmas, I still had 2800$, and calmed down a bit, since I still had enough to grind my regular games (2/4-5/10 limit Stud8 and Omaha8).
Though, I made the fatal decision to stop smoking weed after christmas (still not smoking weed since that point, though), and decided to play 5/10 and 10/20 PLO shallow on FullTilt with my ~4K roll.
My first stack of 600$ at 10/20 went up to 3.6K, and since the germanzzz never surrender, I ran that down to zero with some standard lost flips with AAxx and some dry turns that I bluffed big. Ofc, I didn't stop after that stack, and managed to bust my roll at more 10/20, 600$ hyper HU's, 350$ Hu's and so on...
Next day, I woke up and decided to not join the madhouse, but deposit 100€ on FullTilt to chase like a ****** with the IQ of a salad bowl. I ran it up to slightly above 1000$ with HU hypers from 35$-115$ and actually stopped for the day. No feeling of any kind of rush at any point, but a tad of being glad in the back of my mind.
I grinded my regular limit-games and PLO-MTT's and made it to +1.6K within a week, before suffering from a disconnection with 6 MTT's running, which I used as an excuse to play 115$-200$ NLO8 hypers on FT. I lost 5 games in a row, all lost by flipping pre with the better hand. Then I took my last 189$ to a 1/2$ PLO HU game on FT, playing against a stupid no-name online-pro without an avatar.
Third hand we played, I raised AAxx on the button, and he 3bet pot, I 4-bet pot and we see a flop of AJ6 rainbow. He checks and I decided to take the risk of seeing a broadway-turn and just bet half pot. Stupid red-pro raises my bet and I ship it, praying to not see a T, Q or K, crying out loud "pair the board, PAIR THE ****ING BOARD!!!".
Turn was a brick, and river was a Jack. I felt less happy then I thought I should be, and I was right, he had JJxx and made quads, letting me go broke on a one-outer, ****ing 5% chance on the flop... My first thought was "stylistically correct..."
I don't tend to break things or so anymore, but decided to stay seated in my armchair, being paralyzed, for 3 solid hours. I didn't even take a zip of water, and since I stopped smoking weed a few (w)eeks ago, there was nothing I could do, anyway.
Now comes the actually funny part:
I managed to get a staking deal for Stud8 cash 2/4 and 3/6, giving me 60/40 of profits and all FPP's, but after getting the PM saying that I got the last offer (as just mentioned), I decided to ask for 5% more, or 1K bigger starting roll and 5/10 included yet when I answered the mail, just having finished a bottle of pretty cheap wine. Well, that offended my potentional staker, who just backed out of the deal I basically already had locked up. (lost a 3 fgure roll at shots, due to thinking I get this 2 days ago, too...) This was 1 hour ago now..
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Though, I neither start to smoke weed again, nor did I go ballistic at all.
I am a winner now!
Going to start a OG&C thread in an hour, with this as the initial post, using tiltbreaker with blocking all games ecept Stud8 for the rest of the year, and will come out stronger than ever before, before 2015 starts