Okay well this happened at the start of June...I've finally partially gotten over it to the point of posting it on here but here is my degen story...a pretty sad and pathetic one to say the least. Def could be a TL/DR, but read it anyway.
"The Vulture"
The title comes from fantasy football...if anyone has ever played they know what a "vulture" is. If not it's when your starting running back runs most of the plays and then a 2nd running back comes in to steal the TD.
So in this case I did all the work, but someone else got it in the end.
I had just graduated with my Bachelor's degree and the commencement ceremony was the Saturday before. My family threw me a little party, nothing too big that night and I got about $1k. I have had a small job at a warehouse for about 3 years now until I can hopefully get something equal to my degree soon, so I had some money saved up but I had just spent most of it getting a '08 Challenger that was used. My old car wasn't going to pass inspection and it would of cost more to fix it then it was actually worth so I sold it for $1,200 ('02 Grand Prix) and got the Challenger for around $10k. So while I wasn't hurting or anything, I had only like a couple grand saved in the bank after getting the car.
Fast forward to the Friday after and I had another friend who was having his commencement the next day. So he goes to me, we should get everyone together and go to Turning Stone, which is in NY, for the weekend. So while he's preparing for his graduation tomorrow, I'm giving everyone a call to join us. I get a few guys to come along so we have 6 of us, call for a reservation and lie to the lady saying it's just 2 of us (probably wouldn't of gotten a room if I didn't cause it was almost booked) and we were on our way.
Now I went to the same high school with everyone but 1 kid, whom I met at college a couple years ago. He used to go to my district until he moved in 6th grade, but he still had friends at my school and when I met him, expressed hatred for the same kid that I didn't like...instant respect points.
Sorry to bore you with back-stories but they are important.
So we get to TS about 7pm, go to the restaurant and grab a bite, and then I decide to hit the 1/2 NL tables. I had brought about $700 of my grad money with me so I figured why not? After about 1.5 hrs. I was up over +250 after starting with $150 and decided to cash out. It's about 10 now and I find a couple of my friends playing on slots and we all decide to join the others who have hit up Lava, the casino nightclub.
So us three are having a few, scoping out the area and also looking for the rest of our crew when we spot what looks like a hot girl that we went to high school with. So I take it upon myself to go out and dance my way over to the area and what do you know...
A group of 8 girls, including the 1st one, that we graduated high school with is in the nightclub.
Now these girls were all friends, in the top clique, and the envy of every guy. We are talking about all 8's or higher, except for the one chubby chick. The group also consisted of my high school crush, Courtney.
This girl was everything I wanted. Beautiful, friendly, athletic, Italian like me...but I never had the cajones to ask.
I wasn't the most popular kid in my high school but everyone generally liked me. I was a star on my varsity baseball team and I got along with mostly everyone, so I enjoyed high school. The one thing I wasn't good at was girls though. I was super shy and I never had a girlfriend and I only went to ball because I got lucky asking one of my closer friends, who still didn't have a date in late-April.
And no one was hotter than Courtney...honestly guys we are talking about a blonde-haired, brown-eyed beauty. She was so smokin' that she was courted by like the "Brad Pitt" of the senior class when she was just a sophomore, and she almost ended up marrying that guy.
I definitely talked to her on many occasions but never tried to get her number, even when I knew she was single. For god's sake, she played softball and sometimes our away games would be at the same opponent and we would ride the bus together since both teams were going to the same place.
I mean I had chances and I never took them. I'm 21 and I'm still a virgin, mostly because I have always focused on school/athletics because I didn't want to deal with failure, etc... I mean I have fooled around a bit, most notably getting head and tittyf'in my friend's older cousin a couple years back. That was because her fiancée had gone into the service and she had payed my friend, helping him with college, to find guys to "please" her during his time away cause she was a nympho. But the one condition was no traditional sex, in fear of pregnancy, so I still haven't reached the motherland. I'm not too worried or ashamed for that matter, esp since his cousin was like an 8 anyway so it met my needs for the time.
So back to the club scene and when I noticed the girls, I went back to find my guys and discuss that we could probably get lucky tonight. Now at the time, it was only 5 of us, and the guy who wasn't in Lava with us was Dan, the kid I had met at college.
Now Dan was kind of a loose cannon. He used to chill with the scumbag-bully types that were popular in our school but were complete jackasses. When he moved to another school, he had a falling through with that common enemy decided to steer away from that. He still can be ridiculous every once in a while but I found common ground in a common enemy and he told me a bunch of stories of failures at parties of that common enemy that makes me laugh when I run into him.
So at this point I had smashed a few down to give myself confidence and me and the others eventually made our way over to the group. I ran into a couple of them together and we exchanged pleasantries until they motioned for the rest to come over.
It was shaping out to be the best night of my life. Me and my other 4 friends dancing with a few of the hottest girls from our HS, a few years later. After catching up with a couple of the girls, I set my sights on Courtney. We danced for a good 20 minutes before I asked if I could buy her a drink, and she agreed.
At this point I had lost track of where everyone else was as I caught up with Courtney. We talked for a good bit before she spilled the beans on not be engaged to the aforementioned guy anymore. She was definitely flirting with me and all signs hinted at me to make a move.
So I pull out this line: "Oh that's too bad (about the fiancee)...Who are you with now?"
She then said no one, and I teased with her saying no way. Then when I saw she was serious, I mentioned that I was stunned that no one would want to be with a extremely gorgeous girl. That basically won her over and then I confessed to her that she was my HS crush and that I had always wanted to ask but was too nervous. She said "now that I think of it I totally remember." I go to her "let's get outta here," and we were off to my room.
Ironically enough she mentioned how she was staying for the weekend as well and was on the same level as me but a couple hallways down. She said she wanted to clean up a bit because of being sweaty dancing, and quite frankly I kind of did too so I showed her which room was mine and she said she would be back in a little bit and gave me a seductive look as she walked away.
BIGGEST MISTAKE OF MY LIFE...
If I could have just 1 mulligan in my life, I would of used it here. Instead of agreeing I should of said like "You know we could shower together and save water."
Something...anything other than agreeing to it because what that led to ruined it. It didn't help that her room was on the same level as well...that unfortunate coincidence contributed to it because I'm sure she wouldn't of went back to her room if it was a couple levels away.
So I go in, take a shower, and get ready for the ride of my life. I was dreaming in the shower of how it was gonna go down. I was telling myself how lucky I was on this night and how much I was gonna rub it in to my one friend who has always had super luck in everything.
Well I guess that thought of gloating was enough karma to screw me over.
I figured it was gonna take her like a half an hour and a half an hour went by and nothing...I was worried but I said "eh...high maintenance, I'll give her another 15 minutes."
15 minutes later...nothing.
So at this point I panicked and decided to try and find her room so I left my room and started to walk aimlessly in the direction I had just watched her walk away from my room around an hour ago.
Right away I saw Dan heading towards me and I was like wtf? where have you been tonight.
Well what came next was the "vulture" part I was talking about if you have made it this far.
Now remember, he wasn't in the club with us when we saw the girls and he goes:
"Do you remember Courtney (Lastname)"
and I was like yeah why...
"Well I was just GETTIN' IT IN!!!" (a reference to that common enemy who said that and we mocked it)
So I screamed at him and mentioned how I was just getting ready to f*** her brains out and that he stole her. He laughed at me and said I was full of **** before mentioning that he already ****ed her when they were in 9th grade at a party and said "Was my best lay ever and I bet the feelings mutual."
At this point I had lost it and I started swinging at him. I was sort of drunk so I landed a few punches but got my ass handed to me...probably not the smartest thing to do.
So a few minutes later I wake up on the floor of my hotel room (we both went back in b4 he told me) and I was probably in the worst state I had ever been in.
I tried to track down Dan or at least find the others but I couldn't so what did I do...I started to play. I went to the $1 machines and started hitting $5 for each spin. I had lost about $500, a little over half of my money, in about 15 mins. Then I had about $400 left and I went to play $15 blackjack...mind you I barely play so I lost about another half, before going to roulette and putting it all on red.
I did it once and won...I did it again and won again...I switched it to black and won for the 3rd straight time.
I was up to over $1,500 and was crazy enough to do it once again, switching it to red...yep wrong choice.
Then I went to the ATM...took out another thousand and lost half of it before realizing I was crazy, mostly because I wasn't drunk anymore and I was tired because it was like 3am.
So I go back to the room and no one is even there...I start chucking **** and hysterically crying because I had just lost about half of the money I had to my name. I couldn't sleep at all and then one of my other friends came in around 5. He asked if I was alright since I was sleeping and I then asked where him and everyone else had been...
He ended up sleeping with another one of the girls in the group and he said the rest of the guys are still hanging with the girls...at this point I went completely silent. My friend asked what was wrong and if I needed to go to the hospital because I guess he said I was super pale.
So I told him what happened and he said it's tough **** but your gonna have to get over it. Dan obviously didn't know that I was closing in on her but it just hurt way too much.
At around 10 just me and the friend who checked up on me got breakfast. We came in 2 cars so he told the rest of the gang that he was gonna bring me home since he drove one of the cars down.
The worst part is now Dan and Courtney are dating, and I just can't bear to watch. I know I probably sound like a whining little **** but I didn't deserve to be screwed that bad.
The hits just keep on coming...I had horrible luck with girls at college the last couple years as in the 2 girls I really wanted both ended up being engaged. At f'in 22. I knew both from day 1 of my junior year when we all transferred for our Bachelor's and they had the same major and I met them in orientation. I became really good friends with them both before finding out that 1 had a long-time boyfriend and got engaged. The other I had the best conversation with one day and found out that same day that she was engaged over the weekend.
It's just so ****ty...my luck that is sometimes. I don't know how worse you can spend a night that you were supposed to have fun.
I had attracted the hottest girl and was ready for her to ride me and lost it at the last minute, I got my ass kicked, I lost half of the money I have in my name, I cried like a little bitch and I'm surprised I didn't try to kill myself or someone with the rage I was feeling, hell I even threw up a couple times. All my other friends assumably shagged the hottest girls, and now I can't even imagine what will happen between the two "lovebirds"...makes me sick.
Wow I'm pathetic, you can rag on me cause maybe I do deserve it but try not to be so harsh.
So yeah that's my degen story and as you can see the wound is still fresh.
I need part IV
