LMAO!! Makes 85k but Still lives at home. Stopped reading there obviously.

Practice zen, not just the meditation thing but you gotta truly dig out what this the "truth" mean in life, reading your story just like looking at mine. I been through all these and now I am return to innocent life. Zen saved me and I think It can save you as well, only if you want to be saved. I used to chase high roller life style too, but think back I was stupid, and try to use gamble as a tool was even more stupid.



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man this part hits home so much for me

everytime i think like this i go sober live normally save up some money
but i always go back into degen mode and shoot my shot sometimes it goes in sometimes it doesnt but i get back up and take another shot

feeling like big sean hustle to make some money -> go on sick heater -> get some bad beats lose everything -> repeat

What is Zen? Is it like ting and yang?

Sounds weird is it like a cult or.something?

You asked it out and you hit the jackpot.

I make 60k plus commish which ranges from 20-40k. So I actually make more than that..if you read the rest of it you would understand that losing 10-15k a month gambling cannot be covered by my salary - let alone live somewhere else.

I've had many opportunities to move out but have busted before that even happened. Sad.

I appreciate this and hope one day I can say the same thing with all this being in the past. It's nice to know I'm not the first one nor will I be the last but man my advice to anyone trying to chase a measly $500 loss..just write it off and move on. Unless you're a winning poker player, or sports bettor with elite discipline this life can get out of hand. Doesn't help that I'm willing to risk money I never have. It's one thing to lose what you have - a whole new ball game when you start busting credit and loans from people.

But I don't want to turn this into a SOB story. Tomorrow is a new day and a new parlay. SHIP IT!!!!

I have 3 weeks to pay my bills or I'm toast. I will keep you guys updated how the runup goes. Literally collecting change around the house at this time. But $50 can turn into $1k real fast!

You have no idea how lucky you are to have a job pay decent. I am a poker grinder at AC(to all if you don't know AC, you ask Pocket rocket, he lost all his money at borgata which is at AC, one of the best casino in town), I had a black label there not because I played a lot of poker, but lost a lot on roulette or other stupid pit. Well if you stay in AC long enough like me you will understand all these ****. Yesterday one of my long time poker friend told me he just lost 70k at borgata, in "two ***** night", he pull out all the money he saved in the casino safe box plus max out his CC, he was lucky he didn't touch his bank acc because he need those money to support his family. I ask him how the **** he lost all those money, no way on the poker table, I know this guy, he told me he lost the money on high limit baccarat table, betting range 1k-3k a hand, the high point when he lost his mind to chase lost, he bet the max of the table which is 10k a hand. I ask him why the fk he played those game, he said he been on a hot streak and won almost 40k at baccarat the last couple month, some nigh he just sit down couple hours and won 3-5k easy, every thing goes his way, but not last two day he lost everything back. I heard so many these type of story around me, and I start realize if I don't stop I will become the one some day to tell the story. It just doesn't matter how much you won in the past, you will just give it all back, all it takes is to chase a small lost and keep the losing streak long enough and you will go to crazy monkey tilt and start betting crazy.
Zen save me because it helps me inside, helps me understand deeply that I don't actually own anything in this world. All I own just for temporary, when I died I will give it all back, so if in this world I don't actually own anything, that can apply to relationships, you don't own your wife. It can apply to gambling. You don't own the money you won in the past. The idea can be apply to almost anything in real life. That's why the monk is the most peaceful human in the world, nothing can bother them, all the big trouble that will crush the normal people, they will handle it just like nothing happen, because they are truly understanding the "truth" in life. Which is the most important thing actually. Not the money, not the luxury life


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fixed that^ for ya!!!

Busted like $500 that I had on my account. Then made a few more deposits, around $500 total. Went on a heater. Now have 2k in my account from poker and slot play.
I should stop with this slot business now.

Man, I really think that making 85k a year allows you to have steak dinners, or you are doing something HORRIBLY wrong.

Drink some juice you might get it then.

The Zen is vs what we all know, but poor people use it to make them feel better

I had no money or nice things its all good cos am a bit Zen.

keep gambling u will get rich, I done that, you can do it too, good luck to become millionaire


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Not really bro. Also I don't think people get it. Yes I make good coin but when have I ever been NOT chasing? It's not like I started earning and started budgeting/saving. That never happened. It's a good income I can live a good life off it yes but when you have and have had a gambling problem much larger than what you make per month it makes no difference.

There have been a couple opportunities as I stated where I won big, had a ton of dough in my account + my job. But that lasted a few months only to end up in a ditch. If I started the job a few years ago, saved a chunk out of my paycheque and managed my money correctly, I could have steak dinners here and there. That never happened though so yes I am doing and have done everything terribly wrong.

No he gets it. He is saying you are doing things HORRIBLY wrong. He would like you to go to GA and get control of you **** so that you are no longer the riches near homeless person you know

does GA work?

Do you want to stop gambling?

no

Then **** no it doesn't work, keep doing your thing and we look forward to reading it. And I don't mean the bolded part in a mean or harsh way, but the program only works if you're bottomed out.

is there any place I can go where I can continue gambling but instead of doing 4-5-6 gamers they'll teach me the zen to do singles?

I had a shrink about 13 years ago tell me I'm a ****ing idiot if I think that could happen.

Yea this. We aren't saying stop, just that guy disapproves greatly of your choices, saving you trouble of having to continue to repeat yourself

Repent then repeat