So, I decided to quit my **** job (I was making minimum wage waking up at 4AM anyway so not a big loss) for playing poker full time instead, after winning 1800€ on december and 3800€ on january rb included I finally decided to do it

Today is the last day of the month and here is my graph:



Almost -5bb/100 here and I did 1,60bb/100 last month on 130k hands. I don't know if I was running good last month, running bad this month, or both. But I'm really questionning my level right know and doubting about myself. Losing 300€ this month with rb

I have difficulties learning things in general and poker isn't an exception, I never really studied the game and I made my way up to NL50 just by playing and sometimes watching videos

But now that I try to study my game a little bit more I realize that I don't know where to start, I don't know what to do, I don't know how to do etc
I bought GTO wizard but don't really know how to use it effectively
I try to watch more theoretical videos but remember nothing about it/can't apply it in real game
I try to review my sessions/hands but come back with nothing more
Etc

So I'm kind of stuck here in not the greatest moment, I don't know what can I do so I'm searching for help

Congrats, you definitely came to the right place. Lots of solid advice to be found in these forums.

The best poker advice I ever got was by a guy called Kenny. He said to me: "Son, you've got to know when to hold 'em, know when to fold 'em."

hth

good choice on quitting your day job.. you seem like a solid player, try moving up in stakes

With Real Time Assistance getting cheaper and better every month, there's no future online. Sites that say they can catch people using it are full of ****, not when the correct decision on a given hand can be to raise 60% of the time, fold 30% and call 10%, and there are 2 or 3 raise sizes to be used a proportion of the time. If the cheaters are randomizing properly, then how is anyone going to catch that sort of thing within a few thousand hands?

Play live if you're going to play.

It’s not a big deal that you quit your day job as it seems likely you can get another for min wage and bad hours. But maybe you can find something a little better than what you had

No idea how good you are but okay live as someone suggested if that is a possibility

I’d look for another day job though that might be better. Then move poker back in as a hobby.

If you have learning difficulties, poker might not be the best option for your source of income and better to treat it as a fun hobby while continuing to work. If you want, try posting some hands in the strat forum for feedback.

On the evidence of your results in December and January, there is no doubt that you are a winning player. Take it from someone who has been playing online poker since the early 70's, the best way to beat these maths nerds is through PURE AGGRESSION, both on the felt and off it. If your bankroll is running low, consider what you could pawn, it doesn't even have to be something you own, do you have people around you who trust you and own some valuable items? Otherwise, consider a loan shark, there's a thread on this forum on how to find them.

Just remember, life is like a game of poker, you have to shuffle up before you can deal. So shuffle well, son, shuffle well.

trust everyone, but cut the deck

Pure evil. ROFL!

You won 5g-6g, not bad. I watch videos, chat with pros and do some basic study that is going to lead me to make a lucky bink and with some discipline a few grand a year if I am lucky.

Did you sunrun to begin with and now are falling to variance. Is the the stress getting to you? Be honest with yourself and your goals and how bad you want it. What are you willing to do to get it? I do think that if you need the money a job would probably not be a bad idea. Though if you can afford to camp in someone's bedroom and be a poker player, 'you do you,' you don't need anyone telling you how to live your life.

I do know these days guys study their butts off. I watch them break their hands down in GTOWizard and analyze their hands with professionals on their personal Discord Channels or Poker Sites. Every level of poker is unique as well. Every player pool is different. Even playing at a certain time of day can effect WR.

All the factors that go in there is on the way to calculate your situation and education as well as your probability to be a winning poker player. You'd probably whoop me and I admire you! Though without schooling in Poker that fits you(as not all education can be absorbed) we all learn in different ways.. Got no way to tell you anything other than think hard and long about what you want! Maybe this is a sideline or maybe you already decided yourself deep down what you want.

I do have a small level of education psychology so I can tell you that part. Follow your heart <3 GL mate

yes, online poker is going to die.

no one wins-out in a month by month rate that I have ever heard of, I am reading a book now " The Poker Mind Set" in it the writer is proporting that thinking in a non long run way will actually hurt you and cause loseing. So if you need to win a certain amount by a certain time EV gambing is not for you. As for the learning problem perhaps you will do better if you slow down learn one thing at a time and start with the basics; the many videos and gto rangers are just selling you and out for their own living. They have had gto for many years but due to computer modeling it has become popular because you can sell it, like kung fu forms; which do nothing in a real fight. Two plus Two once had a publishing company and they have all the best on gambling, the simple book called " the eight mistakes in poker" is all gto could ever be, and is much easier to comprehend, get that ,it is all you really need to win. a mistake is simply calling when you should fold or folding when you should raise .That simple.

I don't fully get GTO, but I do understand it better than you seem to. It isn't based on calling when you should fold. It's how much equity you have, based on the pot size and the range of hands your opponents likely have. Thus, calling is sometimes required, even though a fold is called for.

Make sure the site you're playing on uses a full deck. Sometimes cards get lost and they might not even know. Also, a good wash every 5 hands or so should be standard for any reputable site. English only and no showing cards is sensible. Good luck.

Should post December/January graphs but I'm assuming the 1800 euro month was break even or slightly losing pre rakeback. And then you had a 1.6 bb month and decided to go pro. What did you think was gonna happen? Impressive volume last month though I'll give you that.

Oh OP how could you

Where can I find loan shark? If u can help please

Ever watch Casino when they deal with the cheaters?

Car title loans.

But how much did you rakeback?

You should quit more jobs

Hey people stop being so mean! This guy is pursuing a dream, "If he dies, he dies." ~Ivan Drago

Now that you need a job, it would be very educational to become a poker dealer.