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02-25-2017 , 02:55 PM
Hey Guys and Gals,

For those that are not familiar with me (which i assume is most of you) I am a life long poker player, playing 'professionally' for the last 4 years or so.

I have contributed significant and substantial threads to 2p2 before; See:

http://forumserver.twoplustwo.com/17...t-reg-1416098/

http://forumserver.twoplustwo.com/17...glory-1515114/

The purpose of this thread is to help bring some more awareness to how rampant alcohol is in our lives. It affects literally every single aspect of our life in some way, yet its brushed off as a normal part of our worldwide culture.

I understand that alcohol, like any other substance, affects everyone differently and isn't necessarily hindering progress for some people. But I believe its a hard argument to make, that overall, it doesn't affects us negatively, and ultimately stagnates our progress.

I have Suffered intensely because of alcohol. I would consider myself an alcoholic since the age of 21. I'm 28 now. And its something i live with every day.

Somehow I've been able to be very successful in my life. Over-achieving in everything i put my mind to. Yet i feel that alcohol has always held me back from being 'better'.

I will share some specific ****ed up stories in my follow up posts and i encourage anyone who reads this to chime in with their own opinion and stories on this topic. I think its very important we have a global conversation on this and find a solution. It doesn't make much sense to allow something that has an overarching negative effect on society and not have an in depth conversation about it.
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02-25-2017 , 03:02 PM
Define alcoholic, by this I mean are you some 28 year old american that gets drunk 3x/week and therefore classify yourself as an alcho, or do you need alcohol daily, get withdrawal when off it, etc.

What is your drink of choice?
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02-25-2017 , 04:44 PM
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Originally Posted by purrretrog
Define alcoholic, by this I mean are you some 28 year old american that gets drunk 3x/week and therefore classify yourself as an alcho, or do you need alcohol daily, get withdrawal when off it, etc.

What is your drink of choice?
Regardless of whether I continue to drink or not, I am an Alcoholic. I have a difficult time controlling an urge to drink. Usually the best solution is abstinence, and it's deff the best long term solution. I haven't been able to get there yet, but that's the goal.

At my peaks I'm drinking minimum a bottle of wine a day. My drink of choice for a while was gin. Then I ended up in the hospital for a week because my pancreas couldn't handle the stress any longer.

Last edited by Agentduque; 02-25-2017 at 04:51 PM.
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02-25-2017 , 09:01 PM
There's a very good, non-judgemental and supportive thread on alcohol in OOT here http://forumserver.twoplustwo.com/34..****ohol-642366/

I don't see that you've posted in it yet. FWIW I would recommend checking it out if you haven't already.
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02-26-2017 , 01:18 AM
A bottle of win lmfao that barely brings a buzz. And I rarely drink. Obviously this is another look at me thread. Waiting for the 6 figure income post blah blah blah.
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02-26-2017 , 01:25 AM
you should consider quitting
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02-26-2017 , 02:46 AM
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Originally Posted by Briro2017
A bottle of wine lmfao that barely brings a buzz And I rarely drink. Obviously this is another look at me thread. Waiting for the 6 figure income post blah blah blah.
Just because it barely gives you a buzz doesn't mean it isn't unhealthy for you.
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02-26-2017 , 03:02 AM
Someone who drinks a bottle of wine a day is not a functioning alcoholic. Lol.
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02-26-2017 , 03:11 AM
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Originally Posted by plowannabebeast
Someone who drinks a bottle of wine a day is not a functioning alcoholic. Lol.
Sounds like an underachiever to me
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02-26-2017 , 10:57 AM
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Originally Posted by ITT666
Just because it barely gives you a buzz doesn't mean it isn't unhealthy for you.
Who said it is? Garbage thread about what a great alchy he is lol
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02-26-2017 , 11:10 AM
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Originally Posted by Briro2017
Who said it is? Garbage thread about what a great alchy he is lol
Missing the point of OP completely. But it's OK, so is just about every other poster here starting with Purretrog in reply post 1.
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02-26-2017 , 11:51 AM
No I get the point and I already stated it. LOOK AT ME.
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02-26-2017 , 11:54 AM
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Originally Posted by suitedjustice
There's a very good, non-judgemental and supportive thread on alcohol in OOT here http://forumserver.twoplustwo.com/34..****ohol-642366/


I don't see that you've posted in it yet. FWIW I would recommend checking it out if you haven't already.
This looks interesting and similar to what i want to achieve with this thread. Will deff check it out, Thanks.


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Originally Posted by Briro2017
A bottle of win lmfao that barely brings a buzz. And I rarely drink. Obviously this is another look at me thread. Waiting for the 6 figure income post blah blah blah.
Thanks for your input Briro.

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Originally Posted by ITT666
Just because it barely gives you a buzz doesn't mean it isn't unhealthy for you.
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Originally Posted by plowannabebeast
Someone who drinks a bottle of wine a day is not a functioning alcoholic. Lol.

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Originally Posted by magking1
Sounds like an underachiever to me
TBH its not about how much one drinks, its about how it affects all the other aspects of your life. For arguments sake, when i say minimum a bottle of wine a day, that means that every single day without fail for xxx amount of time (see: binge) i'm drinking minimum a bottle of wine a day, and more likely a **** ton more. Id say its more likely a binge starts with a lot of hard alcohol (Gin or Whisky) and then i have to drop down to something my body can handle better like wine.

Regardless of how sick i get after a few days of this behavior, i continue. Even if i wake up extremely hungover and spend half that day vomiting, ill continue to drink throughout and continue to poison my body. This can continue for weeks at a time where i am sick most days, yet continue to abuse my body.

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Originally Posted by Briro2017
Who said it is? Garbage thread about what a great alchy he is lol
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Originally Posted by ITT666
Missing the point of OP completely. But it's OK, so is just about every other poster here starting with Purretrog in reply post 1.
I find it strange that theres already so much negative feedback, when obv this is something thats a very serious and personal issue for me. Im trying to create a positive and healthy discussion about this topic and hopefully others who suffer with the same issues share their stories and advice so we can all improve.

I havent yet shared any real life examples of how it has affected me because frankly i dont know where to start. 3 DUI's. Multiple hopsital stays. Endless nights making a fool of myself. Most relationships failing due to the added stress my alcoholism adds. A really ****ty underlying negative view on myself. Not being able to control this thing is very depressing. Im already prone to depression and the downer that is alcohol makes it exponentially worse.

Last edited by Agentduque; 02-26-2017 at 12:02 PM.
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02-26-2017 , 11:57 AM
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Originally Posted by sirswish6
you should consider quitting
Agreed.
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02-26-2017 , 12:16 PM
Yes, unfortunately so far it seems most of the replies you have in this thread are from the 'drinking is cool, and you're not a real man unless you drink a lot and drink often.' crowd. After all, 'who needs a liver, right?

Perhaps you'll get more mature, serious and helpful replies in that other thread mentioned.
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02-26-2017 , 02:39 PM
How many days did you used to drink weekly? over or under about 3,5 days?

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or exactly 3,5 days?
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02-26-2017 , 04:32 PM
my sister drinks a bottle of wine every night
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02-26-2017 , 07:50 PM
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Originally Posted by DangerNoodle
my sister drinks a bottle of wine every night
a/s/l?
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02-27-2017 , 03:44 AM
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Originally Posted by orb_dam_u
How many days did you used to drink weekly? over or under about 3,5 days?

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or exactly 3,5 days?
If I'm binge mode then its everyday, all day. From the moment i wake up to the moment i crash. That can usually last 2 weeks- months. As i get older, though, ive realized my body can not handle the same amount of stress so now its closer to couple weeks with a week or so break in between.

My most recent spurt of 'abstinence' lasted for 3 months. Best 3 months I've had in a very long time, and in general my life is a lot better off from the progress i was able to make in that time. Having to worry about possibly ending up in the hospital again has put things in perspective. For now at least.
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02-27-2017 , 09:26 AM
I'm 30 now, but from the age of 23-28 I drank a liter of Jack 6 nights a week and blew at least a gram or 2 of blow up my nose everyone of those nights too. Drank maybe 5 times the last 2 years, LOL wine.

Weed bro, weed. Alcohol is the devil, Bobby!!
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02-27-2017 , 09:34 AM
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Originally Posted by purrretrog
Define alcoholic, by this I mean are you some 28 year old american that gets drunk 3x/week and therefore classify yourself as an alcho, or do you need alcohol daily, get withdrawal when off it, etc.

What is your drink of choice?
For me a definition of an alcoholic is when alcohol creates a negative impact in your life yet you continue to drink.
Could be as small as drinking too much the night before and being late for a meeting in the morning. If that happens to a "normal" person they will refrain from drinking the night before an important meeting next time. Someone with a drinking problem will yolo it and continue the pattern and alcohol will continue to have a negative impact on their life.
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02-27-2017 , 11:26 AM
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Originally Posted by Agentduque
I havent yet shared any real life examples of how it has affected me because frankly i dont know where to start. 3 DUI's. Multiple hopsital stays. Endless nights making a fool of myself. Most relationships failing due to the added stress my alcoholism adds. A really ****ty underlying negative view on myself. Not being able to control this thing is very depressing. Im already prone to depression and the downer that is alcohol makes it exponentially worse.
It's like looking into a forum-mirror, OP. I'm 27, went through all of these events from 16-20 (only 1 DUI @ 19, not 3) and have been sober since 21.

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My most recent spurt of 'abstinence' lasted for 3 months. Best 3 months I've had in a very long time, and in general my life is a lot better off from the progress i was able to make in that time. Having to worry about possibly ending up in the hospital again has put things in perspective. For now at least.
Does this mean just alcohol, or all drugs, mind/mood altering substances?

What did you do differently in that 3 months?

How are your familial relationships?

When's the last time you went to a doctor for liver panel, bloodwork?

Duration of worst binge, and was it followed by the longest period of repercussion?

Have you sought outside help?

Do you like tequila?
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02-27-2017 , 01:11 PM
More importantly, how bad is your hangover RIGHT NOW
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02-27-2017 , 01:35 PM
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Originally Posted by Gustafson26
I'm 30 now, but from the age of 23-28 I drank a liter of Jack 6 nights a week and blew at least a gram or 2 of blow up my nose everyone of those nights too. Drank maybe 5 times the last 2 years, LOL wine.

Weed bro, weed. Alcohol is the devil, Bobby!!
Wine was just a unit of measurement. I could have used any other example. Dont get caught up on that detail because its irrelevant anyway.

I agree, weed has saved my life the last 6 months. I dont smoke it because im really sensitive to it. Instead i take edibles. Just the comfort of knowing i have these edibles available helps so much. Whenever i get an urge to drink and i find myself about to walk out the door to get some, ill remind myself i have these edibles and can take them instead. They make everything a lot more interesting and I can work creatively more effectively.r

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Originally Posted by 5 south
For me a definition of an alcoholic is when alcohol creates a negative impact in your life yet you continue to drink.
Could be as small as drinking too much the night before and being late for a meeting in the morning. If that happens to a "normal" person they will refrain from drinking the night before an important meeting next time. Someone with a drinking problem will yolo it and continue the pattern and alcohol will continue to have a negative impact on their life.
Yup.

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Originally Posted by AlwaysFolding
It's like looking into a forum-mirror, OP. I'm 27, went through all of these events from 16-20 (only 1 DUI @ 19, not 3) and have been sober since 21.

My last DUI was when i was 22. Got pretty unlucky to get 3 from age 18-22. But the last one got me 'jail' time. 5 weekends in Jail. It was a joke, but enough of a glimpse to realize i needed to make a significant change in my life.

Does this mean just alcohol, or all drugs, mind/mood altering substances?

Ive tried most drugs and have at some point had a regular routine of using. In general tho, I have zero addiction to anything except alcohol when it comes to substances. I have fun with them but dont ever feel like i need them and dont binge on them.

What did you do differently in that 3 months?

I went to the hospital for the second time in 2 months. Had a week long stay. Pancreas problems. Turns out its a lot more likely to **** up your pancreas than your liver if you abuse alcohol intensely at a young age. I had no choice but to stay sober because it was literally killing me. After i broke i felt really ****ty about it and stayed sober again for a bit. Now im drinking again on the weekends or on dates, but it hasnt gotten back to drinking everyday all day. Also, during the winter months im very busy with real life work projects. I have to deal with people daily and have a strict schedule i set for myself so i tend to stay mostly sober during this time period anyway.

How are your familial relationships?

Family relationships are better than ever right now. Theres a lot of reasons for that, mostly just 'Growing up' but being mostly clean from alcohol deff doesnt hurt.

When's the last time you went to a doctor for liver panel, bloodwork?

August. I dont really go to the doctor ever.

Duration of worst binge, and was it followed by the longest period of repercussion?

Id say duration of my worst binge was like 3 years. Even though i had time in between where i wasn't abusing, i mostly was. The only things that kept me from abusing was real life work projects and poker. But the thing is that about 4 years ago i made a big change in my life and committed to spending most of the year grinding poker. With this change comes a TON of freedom. I Lived wherever i wanted and did whatever i wanted. That freedom was a lot of responsibility and i think i handled it well overall, besides the abuse of alcohol. The alcoholism was too strong and started to slowly take over my life. The last year specifically was pretty bad for me. My relationship had failed (alcohol obv had something to do with it) and i was starting to become less happy that my main goal in life was to crush people and take their $$. I drank most days, ate garbage non stop. Thats the other thing, if your drinking AND eating garbage food all the time, youre putting your pancreas under huge stress, and thats what ultimately ****ed me up.

Have you sought outside help?

Ive been part of different programs because of my DUIs. Besides that ive seen several therapists who specialize in substance abuse and each person i saw changed my life drastically for the better. Its a really difficult thing to do, to go to a random person and share with them all the things that you feel are ****ing you up mentally and for them to challenge you on things you didnt even think were ****ing you up. Last time i saw anyone was 2 years ago, but i deff think i should be seeing someone currently.

Do you like tequila?

Ill drink anything. Tequila isnt my favorite, but ill put it in the mix every once in a while. Especially when visiting mexico


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Originally Posted by AlwaysFolding
More importantly, how bad is your hangover RIGHT NOW
Its Not too bad. Had an oscars get together last night at my place and drank 'socially'.

Last edited by Agentduque; 02-27-2017 at 01:42 PM.
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02-27-2017 , 01:47 PM
How much do you think talking with other people about your problems with alcohol helps you?

Do you think that maybe you're not fulfilled and that leads you to boredom and drinking, therefore making you a binge/heavy drinker and maybe not a full-blown alcoholic?

Do you think that your experience is significantly different from others that have gone through the same types of alcohol-related misfortune?

Have you ever lost a job/been unable to complete obligations due to your drinking?
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