wats your fav sammich

lol tell me how u made 160k in 2 years starting at 2nl.

lol thats crazy, invest in a punch bag maybe

meh everyone breaks ****... I don't know anyone who doesn't do this at least in some capacity. I don't really spew money though, this is a rare thing so I wouldn't consider myself to have a big tilt problem. Usually I just take instantly close the laptop and take it out on other areas of my life. Electronics, friends, relationships (when i was fortunate enough to have them), and now on my self.

Superb, you sicko!!

I just realized I ****ed up a 170 dollar pair of hugo boss jeans too I didn't even think about the ramifications of that until now.

Funny thing is the jeans were more expensive than the ER trip (100 copay) plus the carpet cleaning service (50 bucks and I tipped him a nug of purple kush)

this is a good example of why pokers not for everyone. good or bad.

What kept you from stabbing the rest of your body?

Yessssssssssssssss!!! I hope so so much that it is

I posted the bloody knife and within a few hrs when room mate gets back from DMV i will have pics of me laid up jeans drenched in blood etc.

The one thing i regret was not saving that quiznos bag. On another note, I also regret stabbing myself in the leg.

What kind of mouse dents a wall and does not break?

I actually was first considering my hand earlier but when the time came it was just instantly the leg. I can't explain it to someone who doesn't have this sort of masochistic instinct but it literally felt like the most natural thing in the world, and i've never done this before (once I slashed my hand in the process of cutting up my desk at home but nothing this intentional or DEEP)

pretty good bbv thread.*
look and learn kids.




*assuming pics are forthcoming

im gonna go buy a blunt and smoke dro and watch this thread develop. questions welcome.

normally this is the time that i'd be grinding but i figure I shouldn't do that for at least a week, maybe more.

story about how u moved up to HS in a year pls.

Holy **** dude, glad your ok, maybe buy a punching bag or something, some place to let it out if you need to.

And quizno's bag is lol

Sick life.

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I've actually heard (i think from penn and teller lol) that this sort of "venting" is a negative reinforcement. It makes it so you "go there" every time you get upset.

Actually despite this little snag ( and about one other every 3-4 mo) I have a reasonably good emotional control regimen. I take walks, I definitely close my laptop when its 'that time', and I even practice meditation 20 min at least twice a week.

Thats part of the reason this is so shameful was because I was doing relatively well and in one instant all of that discipline can go away. sucks to be human.

Lol I actually laughed when reading this story, guess I also need therapy

Im not sure if I believe this, hospital record? You can blank out the name

this thread has massive potential

I used to play poker since I was 17 years old. this past year I decided to stop breaking even and learn NL. I made about 10k and then eventually with the help of alot of videos moved up very fast. I put in the proper volume I was just a poker machine.

incidentally it was around this time that my GF of 1.5 years left me (two timed me also btw, probably had something to do with my utter social, emotinoal and sexual neglect[from constant poker of course] as well as the fact that i pretty much treated her like the worst **** ever and also cheated on her at the beginning of our relationship). So with that slut ripping my heart out, even though the relationship was terrible, her dumping me like that really really got me down. I suffered a reasonably serious episode of depression after that. you know when u wake up and you are just like soooo pissed that you have to live another day? it was one of those.

So with that huge blow to my self esteem I basically just started grinding constantly, doing hand reviews w/ people on aim, teamviewer **** etc. Alot of people rebound or go do wholesome things but I pretty much holed up in a cave, didn't go out or do anything social during my 4th year of college and just learned how to become a great poker player. when I say 60 hours a week im really not joking.

BR hit 50k stopped looking back. honestly a pretty basic HS story save my motivation being depression. im all ****ed up you guys dont eve know.

lel

i used to get myself worked up like you (minus the stabbing) a lot in the past over large pots, etc and i played a lot lower than you did. then, i finally reached the point where i said to myself, **** it - it's just money. now of course i get pissed immediately when a beat happens, but within 30 seconds i'm cooled down, just telling myself that it doesn't matter and that i won't let it affect my play.