Really, really sorry, goofball. MrsWookie has now gone through two consecutive miscarriages as we try for our first, but I can only imagine how much more magnified emotions like that would be after going through birth and only then finding out. What is your daughter's name?
I'm also going to leave here what is my favorite thread on 2+2 for you to look at at your discretion if you happened to not see it before, because it also comes with a big and non-ironic trigger warning. Poincaraux describes in both beautiful and heartbreaking detail what he went through with the stillbirth of his first child, and he continues to follow up with how he continues to cope with that amidst the joy of his later kids. It might be a bit much to take right now (or ever), but there is definitely someone here who knows exactly how you feel, and who knows that you can keep going and that it does get better.
http://forumserver.twoplustwo.com/34...tillbirth-381/