So anyone in for a true degen story?
My roll was at 3.6k at peak. I got bored of PLO 6max and jumped into PLO50 HU Zoom (again). Ran into some huge coolers and suckouts, got tilted so hard and blew away 500 in total. Ragequitted (sadly not for good) and jumped into 4 Tables PLO 50 Zoom (i usually do two for max concentration). Played like a complete idiot, potted flops, called sh*t hands pre vs 3bet 4bets, the usual idiot donkey mode.
Lost another 1k in record breaking 3 hours or something like that. Went to my job almost in complete mental delirium (like the guy in Lock, Stock & Two Smoking Barrels after he lost his whole role
).
Like a true degen i played small session on my smartphone during break times. Surprisingly didnt lose that much there
After I came home i jumped once again into 4 Tables PLO 50 6max + some ZOOM HU session in between. Of course i still had the huge tilt in me how I am so dumb, how I cant stop at the right moment, how I play games (HU) i just shouldnt. Probably everyone knows that mode. When your only thought is the money you have lost, you want to win it back every pot. The result is always the same. Dropped from 2k to 1,2k in record time again.
Some sort of consciousness kicked in looking at my bankroll and I banned myself for PLO 50 and above. Went back to my home game (PLO 25). Got something back but blew it again after building huge stacks, losing another 300. Bankroll at 900 at this point. Decided im going to remove all my restrictions on playing higher limits and jump into PLO 100/200 the next days for an all or nothing play. While i settled with that idea in my mind, i decided to play a bounty builder donkament.
the poker gods showed some mercy on my poor punished degen soul and i finished top 5 for 3,2k
. Canceled my plans on playing 100/200. Kept my restriction on for PLO 50 and above. Gonna concentrate on PLO 25 til i Reach 5k (4,1k currently). Never ever going to play PLO HU Zoom again without preparation. Decided im gonna punch myself as hard as I can in my degen face the next time i fail to approach a 10 Buy in stop/quit concept. A degen only learns through true pain.
Bottom line is, I really need to work on my mental game, which in my opinion is probably the most important skill to become a consistent winning player. You just have to know when to quit, take breaks, regather, dont tilt on coolers, keep playing your game at the max level possible. It is just so important.
Btw what happened to the tiltbreaker Addon in Hm2? Is it gone? How can I get it? That sh*t would probably be worth a million to me. Just a simple reminder like "hey idiot you just lost 10 buy ins, take a break" would help so much.
Once I reach 5k, i will take a break and sign up for 1 month elite access on run it once and watch all the Pro Videos and take notes. Gonna play on low volume during that period. Once i finish the month of studying, I will once again take a hopefully solid and prepared shot at PLO 50.
So long.
Last edited by zoja; 03-29-2017 at 07:32 AM.