Galen's
brag about his ideal partner (I adore lawyers too) in the family thread has torn my wound open, and I don't wanna derail that thread, but still wanna vent, so please bear with me here...
I should stop going mad for anyone who puts a ton of ****ing paint on the body. Being romantic or a body aesthete is downright -EV for a poker player, especially a fish; and it doesn't fit with my personality, it's a disease. (I don't like to **** anyone as you might remember, so ideally I mustn't have such problems at all.)
I've lost hope because it's never easy even with trans-girls (hetero/bi cis-girls are a no-no because the demand for them is too big and I surely can't - and don't want to - withstand the competition, I wanna be myself, not whom they want, and not to bleed money; and alas I don't know - more precisely, couldn't care less about seeking - any asexual girl who's OK with poker).
For a couple of days, it seemed as though there's a unicorn out there - a cute pre-surgery ladyboy raking 5 figures a month and even listening to the right music
But you know... it's so bad in the long run that she's so unbelievably whiny, maybe that's because of hormonal therapy, idk. She thinks her William Hill account is as rigged as all the previous iPoker accounts but one (the one with terrible rewards), and hence considers switching back to Stars. All that is because of running 50 BIs below EV in NL100 (and 100 BIs last year), which is standard with that insane kind of volume that has allowed her to earn 150 BIs in cashback within 2 months, i.e. still print money...
Well, she lives with a cis-girl (who is as melancholic as me, which causes problems for them), still wants to have a surgery to create a ****ing wet pussy down there
, but it wouldn't be easier if she did neither...
I think it's easier for practical purposes to accept that no ideal partner exists. MEH.
P.S. Oh, and I forgot to mention that I've turned 10K days today. Happy bloody jubilee, dear ****. /vent /post5333
Last edited by coon74; 10-25-2014 at 01:40 PM.