M,


It was a totally reasonable consequence for breaking containment, but given the nature of your post (charity), I thought he should give you a break and the temp-ban was a good compromise.

If the mods had a vaindetta against you, you wouldn't still be posting here.

I'm trying to reconcile the "punched him one time" with "pitter-pattered his chest," because I was imagining like 10 punches from that previous description.

MLYLT,

Is this why your daughter has "seen you depressed" the last week or so?

This is actually a decision about your treatment that I support. I had doubts from the start that your current therapist could assess the need for that treatment during your first session with him.

Beyond that, you do seem to try to be in a monogamous relationship with Code. The other sexual encounters that you have posted about in OOT clearly appear to have been attempts to anger Code or get attention from him--if they were even factual reports. That is not normal, but it is undoubtedly more an issue stemming from your mental health problems rather than a sex addiction.

#PostsFromLastNight

M,

You're not in control if your mind is out of control and you simply hide it in some ways while releasing it in other ways.

You'll likely never get better while you try to hold on to code and your fantasy idea of being with him. He will never love or care for you the way you want him to, and he's made that perfectly clear to you time and time again. That's always going to stand in the way of you making real progress, because you keep that at the forefront of your priorities.

You keep asking and wishing to get better, but you refuse to follow the advice every professional and non-professional has given you.

Is it really any surprise things are staying the same?

What is so bazaar about her having APD? I think you guys don't properly understand what the disorder is, but baaa let's move on.

Never change!

There were a certain number of questions in that tests that related to borderline traits. On those questions you scored 73%; the average test-taker scored 45%.

But the average test taker would be someone who is concerned they have a personality disorder and has already experienced distress, not just a normal person.

Good job circling those in different colors and insinuating that I'm a moron.

Paranoid |||||||||||||| 60% 50%
Schizoid |||||||||||||| 59% 40%
Schizotypal |||||||||||||| 58% 56%
Antisocial |||||||||||| 55% 46%
Borderline ||||||||||||| 51% 45%
Histrionic |||||| 30% 52%
Narcissistic |||||||||||| 44% 40%
Avoidant |||||||||||||||| 62% 48%
Dependent |||||||||| 39% 44%
Obsessive-Compulsive |||||||||||||||||| 77% 45%

I completely agree with this assessment. And I am totally surprised that with few such simple questions they were able to catch my main traits. I am often obsessive and have problems to let it go. And I do have weird combo of wanting to be connected to other people with fear of rejection. That reflects in paranoid and avoidant. Where obsessive-compulsive comes for me not in being overly orderly. With that I am sadly the opposite. But just if I get an idea in my mind it makes itself comfortable there for a looooooong time.

I repeated the test three times. A bunch of things varied for about +-5%, but two biggest and two smallest traits remained the same.

Solid rebuttal M!

MLYLT,

lol

Lapka, what are you so paranoid about?
Government conspiracy, aliens?

Why are you so concerned with what this test says. You're paying a professional money. LISTEN TO THEM IF YOU WANT TO IMPROVE YOUR LIFE. You know best though, amiright!?

people without self awareness prying into her personal life, perhaps

It is more like

"Paranoid Personality Disorder - individual generally tends to interpret the actions of others as threatening; preoccupied with suspiciousness/paranoia. They are stuck between their need for others and their mistrust of others."

I generally don't trust people. For example although I feel here most of the time pretty good, I still haven't posted any pictures of me, exactly because of this trait.

lol, like when you thought I was coming on to you and Rexx?

I do ballroom dance btw.

Guys! I found the pie thread! In case anybody needed it here's the link.

Anyone else get confused by MLYLT's and Tuma's avatars? Of course when you look at them they are different, but when just scrolling through reading I sometimes think Tuma is MLYLT. Only sometimes do his posts tip me off that I'm wrong. Anyone?

JFC, for an engineer and poker player, you're terrible at interpreting numerical information.

If the average person who took the test scored 45%, and you're assuming that the people who take this test have concerns about their mental health, would you expect factoring in people not concerned about their mental health to raise or lower the average? There's your answer.

How would you know?

Could you maybe give us two examples of things that went wrong in your life recently which were, in your opinion, 100% your fault MLYLT?

Ok. Yes, here I have attention whored......a lot. To be honest, I have never ever really had any type of attention irl and I liked having attention for the first time even though it was negative. Having attention was something I've really never felt before.
But irl I'm not theatrical, or dress for attention, or dramatic.
I have a quiet, calm demenor.
I don't think I have this because my sister does and we are total opposite socially. Any family event, birthdays, Holliday's, baby showers, she comes in and everything instantly has to be all about her. She's loud and obnoxious and won't let the attention be on anyone else. She turns all conversations about her (not how I repeatedly talk about my problems here). If someone is talking about their pregnancy, she cuts them off and starts talking about when she was pregnant. She's always trying to video everyone as well. If anyone tries to say anything to her, she gets mad and acts like that person is so mean and hurt her fealings so bad and she storms out. Like she literally takes over everything. I've tried to talk to her about it before, I'll calm tell her "This is Amy's baby shower, she's excited, let her open her presents and talk" or "Sara planned this party and you hurt her feelings coming in and dictating what we were going to do and changing the decorations, I know you are trying to help, but you are taking away the enjoyment of her doing it"

you sound jelly af ^

Didace,

old and obvious joke is new to you? lol

I play poker and I go and sit quietly for hours and days at a table with nine other people and in a crowded room, and I am never looking to have any attention on myself. I couldn't imagine my sister ever doing this. She would be talking loud and over everyone and would probably stand up and yell to get the rooms attention and all hell would break loose if someone told her to pipe down....this is histrionic personality disorder.