I guess I'll show YOU loosing power...

****ing gold!

Depends upon whether she swept all the condom wrappers out before she left.

It's noticeable that the blog has rapidly turned into some kind of delusional ponies, ice cream and rainbows echo chamber. No-one other than MLY is really posting there.

Even Jmakin only managed four posts before deciding 'nope'.

I honestly was just trying to be helpful. I have a lot of the same issues but seem to have way more perspective on them than she does.

Like I said earlier itt, the manic phase can be almost addicting, it feels incredible. But the thing about mania is you're unable to see the possible harm you're doing to yourself and others. I think this is exacerbated with stuff like hypomania, which is even harder to notice.

I can definitely see it though just in the dramatic mood swings and language she uses in her posting. She needs to get on a steady med regimen.

Where else could it have possibly gone when noone is allowed to confront some of that?

In before i'm "projecting"

Jmakin, you keep harping on a steady med routine when you aren't even taking meds for your bipolar. You are just on welbutrin for depression. I'm not in a manic state and actually feel quite normalized.
I'm posting in my log to rewire my brain to automatically think positive instead of always focusing on the bad stuff and the worst possible scenario, and to break a bad habit. It is actually doing good. Having good things in your life and highlighting those isn't a symptom of mania. Yeah, being on a high feels incredible but so does just enjoying all the good things that happen everyday and that's what I'm trying to do.

Code3 and I had a rough weekend, but we got a lot of laughs out of it, some fun memories, and learned a few lessons to help us with the next go around. It wouldn't have done any good to focus on the bad stuff.

Hey chubbins,

I'm seeing three different ****ing doctors at the moment and have been considering all possibilities. And guess what, they know damn well better than you do what I should be on. I'm not going to get into the specifics here of my mental health, but suffice it to say that wellbutrin is a perfectly acceptable medication for me to be taking and has shown a lot of positive success for me so far.

So you can **** right off with your condescending attitude and maybe try to be a decent parent while you're at it and get your mental health in check. Your posting reeks of mania. I observed it and you are unable to acknowledge it. Cool. Now go **** yourself.

Yeah, I'm not totally on board the MLYLT is manic, she's just trying to think good thoughts, its as simple as that. I'm not sure telling a bipolar person, omg you're manic get help, when she's probably getting help and is actively trying to change her thoughts is really great advice from a internet forum poster.

Of course I could be wrong and maybe MLYLT is TOTALLY MANIC OMG SEEK HALP.

It's perfectly fine if no one post there, and is a more of a reflection on the viewers than myself and what I post.
I have a ton of good things in my life, and it's helping me to post about them so that's what matters.

Is attempting to "rewire your brain" by writing romanticized fiction something your therapist recommended, or was that your idea?

Well, since she's completely ruled BPD out on her own, i'm trying to phrase things in terms of something she'd accept. There's a child involved here. I'm a bratty trust fund kid with way too much time on my hands, the consequences of neglecting my mental health for me are minimal. The stakes for her are much higher.

It's not romanticized. I have amazing people and things in my life and I have made some amazing, strong connections with different friends.
I read a study that showed how neuron pathways are formed when you complain and then complaining and being negative gives you a "good" feeling and it just becomes habit. The same thing happens when you focus on good things instead of complaining.

So, not your therapist then. Got it. As always, you know best. Carry on.

Look forward to the code meltdown in two weeks.

I think you meant since 3 PHD Pyschiatrist ruled out BPD.

I appreciate your concern Jmakin and said I'm being skeptical of my emotions, but I'm in complete control of my thoughts right now unlike when I'm manic. I'm completely under control. I'm conciously focusing on positive things in my life.

Maybe due to my past posting history, it's hard for you to accept that I really do have a lot of good stuff going on in life.
I don't think you have had a chance to read anything I post when I'm in a normal state, so you are immediately thinking I'm manic because I'm happy.

You are being bone headed as always. I can see no possible bad outcome from focusing on good things in my life. I don't need a doctor's approval to be happy.

And, you just had an episode a couple of days ago! Go get some meds!

How's work going?

She might be hypomanic, feeling good but without the hypersexuality, yet.

I have meds. What's your excuse, dip****?

You are actually the most clueless, worst person.

Also, that first sentence is a flat out lie.

aint no mania like MLYLT mania cause MLYLT mania don't stop.

When's Code quitting smoking deadline?

Real life is not just good things though. There are good and bad, and you've described lots of bad things about, for example, your relationship with Code that aren't going to magically fix themselves by the power of positive thinking. Focusing only on the positives while ignoring the negatives can lead people to stay in destructive relationships far longer than they should. It can lead to a person having an unrealistic view of what the relationship is, which is something you've had issues with in the past. It's a defense mechanism that allows you to pretend problems don't exist, rather than having to face them head-on (until some traumatic event later forces you to). What if, like several therapists have recommended, separating from Code is the best thing for you? You really don't see how focusing exclusively on the good things about your relationship might lead to a bad outcome?

There's nothing wrong with having a positive attitude if you're being honest with yourself, but your blog reads like a fairy tale version of your life, where the characters and places are the same we've all heard about before, but now everyone loves each other, everything is wonderful, and all the past issues have been magically resolved without explanation. There may be some truth buried in there, but it's the very definition of romanticized.

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My god, I have a designated place to post about good things in my life so that I can bring them to the forefront of my mind instead of placing anything that's going wrong there and focusing on everything negative.
Code3 and I are both working on our relationship, and I don't see how switching to focusing on good things will lead to a bad outcome. If we both start appreciating the things we love about each other we are naturally going to be happier in the relationship and will want to do more to make each other happy.
I never said past issues have been resolved. My blog is actual good things that are in my life and happening; the purpose is to focus on the good and make concious effort to be happy everyday. If you think it's so romanticized, then I must have a better life than I realize.

If you are so in control, only focused on positive things, why are you in here with all this negativity? Beat it.