You're unbearable. I can't imagine what a nightmare it must be for code. He deserves a medal imo.

Just fyi, this is a crazy story. The last part is even crazier then the first part imo. Tell your therapist what bothers you wrt the therapy and what you talk about there.

It's almost as if he doesn't care about your feelings.

Yes, he absolutely didn't care about my feelings. And told me, "your feelings don't matter" There's no question or ambiguity regarding him and caring about my feelings, he just doesn't.

The problem I want to solve is why I acted like I did and went completely crazy. A normal person would have just packed up and left as soon as their SO said their feelings don't matter. I went crazy trying to make him see how I do matter and should have mattered to him and tortured him and my self for years now.
I have to figure out why it bothered me so bad, why I didn't leave, why I acted the way I did, why it still bothers me and I can't let it go, why I'm terrified he will do it again.

Sure he did

It's literally a mind crippling constant fear that he will do it again. I know this isn't sane or normal to be so scared of being rejected. I want this to go away and I want to understand why I'm like this.

Well on the plus side cigarettes and morbid obesity reduce fertility.

Mmm.... can't you just taste that rich, refreshing smoke trickling down your gullet? Welcome to flavour country! It'd probably go well with a hamburger hamburger hamburger.

Also, I hear they're doing wonderful things with orphanages these days. Hint. Hint. I'm sure Gregorio would be happy to link you to the forms!

Lol at suggesting that an NBA team is most likely to have a home game on a random day.

Even Seinfeld's George Costanza could figure this out: He can never abandon you again if you leave him first.

Problem solved.

God, as someone with a lot of experience around a woman with BPD this thread and MLYLT's continuation of it is just way too real. If anyone ends up close to someone like this whether it be a relationship, family member, or close friend just run. As fast as humanly possible. Force yourself to stop caring about their emotions and cut all contact. There is no other solution. It never gets better

Another MLY thread. Wonderful.

Unpossible. The American Board of Psychiatry and Neurology voted that she doesn't have BPD.

yea this is like, completely out of control now. are all OOT threads like this? just because the OP here is deceased doesn't mean that you sad neckbeards have carte blanche to just start taking this thread over and turning it into another re-litigation of all MLY's ridiculousness. there's like 5 of you who seem to care so deeply about this, following her around everywhere like she's the 2nd coming of babs, and i assure you nobody else gives the slightest ****. it's not even the slightest bit interesting! you're all acting like pathetic losers, shut the **** up itt about this mly/code bull**** and stop bumping this thread in my subscriptions

like seriously you guys suck so much and you wonder all the time why you dont have any good threads in OOT anymore

"The 2nd coming of babs" made me smile.

There must be some way for you to unsubscribe from threads.

Man let's make this happen.

How comes that this thread is in your subscription? Is your GF like MLYLT? Are you code's gimmick?

michaelscarn was a notoriously awful poster before his gf killed him, and this thread was kind of entertaining, even as we "joked" about him being murdered after his disappearance. like, the bump was pretty funny and made me chuckle (as i'm sure it did the rest of those who posted advice itt)

now that MLY has dropped in to overshare and the same handful of neckbeards has come in, tagging along biting at her ankles, it's legit unreadable.

i'm not unsubscribing from this thread just because a bunch of complete ******s want to hijack it and make it awful

and no, my gf is def not BPD. our relationship is wonderfully fulfilling for the both of us.

the fact that neil s isn't viciously ridiculed every single time he posts says a lot about OOT regs

rep - I would be interested in finding out how you became so cool. Was it innate talent or was it something you had to work to achieve? Regardless, I would be interested in hearing more about your coolness.

rep has vagina envy

hmm, i could probably sum this up with some cliffs:

-attend christian school from grades 1-8
-reject christianity by age 9
-disdain for authority
-lots of skateboarding, weed, and psychedelics as a teen/young adult
-own jack/parson russell terriers
-quit college to play poker
-play poker and **** off throughout 20s, don't have kids
-grow weed legally in colorado
-live in mexico for a brief stint
-lots of saltwater fishing
-meet doctor in training in a diff state on tinder in early 30s, woo her
-move in, buy a new cat
-berate people online for sucking, with quasi-proficiency
-keep it 100, never sell out your integrity for some bull****
-vote democrat

i mean idk, i guess that's about it.

I think you left out "be an ass to posters in the steak thread".

that's covered in "berate people online for sucking"