Also, feel free to PM.

And, if you need to turn your brain off, watch something you've seen a hundred times before, like The Matrix, lol.

Thank you very much for your support leavesofliberty, really.

Today's one of those days i'm more depressed than usual, I haven't been active at all, and I've been alone and haven't talked to anybody, this also puts the urge much more higher.

Because I've been able to keep myself distracted and enjoying myself with other stuff all the past days, but today I really haven't done anything or speak with anybody, speaking and laughing with someone is something that helps a great deal, when passing on to doing other stuff I will be more happy and will feel much more easily satisfied.

I have a lot of stuff to do I'd love to do and that I can pass 24 hours doing, distracted, I have 20 seasons of south park to watch for example, the 10 seasons of x-files also, other tv-shows, a loooot of video-games, I can go and try to speak with someone on the FB and laugh a little, speak a little, I have really a lot of stuff to do.

But it's insane men, because it's like someone is grabbing me and not letting go, and I want to go do anything I can do, and i'm stuck, I can't go, because I am like glued and I can't move, and it actually creates the illusion I feel better than doing any of those other stuff because "it's all BS", "everything else sucks", I can be gambling right now, why the f.u. would I go watch anything else or do anything else???? It's been like an hour i'm like stop in time because I don't want to do anything else (but I do...I look like a crazy person to myself -.-) because I want to gamble.

But it's fine, I will do what you're telling me, it's the only option I got really, i'm going to watch something, some movie, and I will go on the FB try to talk with someone for a little...