I rest my case.

if nothing interests you, nothing gets you going, sounds like you are depressed or something. it could be a serious condition, btw. you may want to see a doctor

plus, seems like you are alone

if you don't want to have a relationship with a woman at this point, then maybe get a dog or some other pet or something, at least it's somebody to care for and something alive that greets you at the door and gives you positive emotion and needs you

I don't know how to train a gold fish to greet me at door!

Well MrMcfold, if you are a touch depressed at least you still have your sense of humor! Regarding the greeting at the door, you could always track down one of those Chinese walking fish.


Redant!

Its a strange feeling wanting nothing its got to the point where I just feel calm whatever is happening.

For the first time in my life Im over drawn and I don't care. Its like that numb feeling you get when go to the dentist I am imperious to pain.

Now that Im working two jobs I dont have much time to be depressed.

I spent all night cleaning my house from top to bottom and dumped any unwanted items like a lamp coffee maker old clothes, photos old bank statements, my house is like a shell. Empty.

I really don't know why am typing this I said I wouldn't. I promise to you guys I won't post anymore negativity because I think Im coming to the end of me posting here because I don't care I don't want anything.

Im only dragging you guys down who needs someone like me who constantly complains and moans like an EMO.

In fact I will probably do something to get myself banned so watch out for that should be a laugh. Start locking my threads, out of sight out of mind.

Mr. Muck, sorry for being mean to you, I honestly thought that it was the best strategy for getting through to you. Being hard on someone I know personally seems to change their behaviour a bit, and there have been times when I wish there was someone there to be hard on me and force me to change. Good luck.

Also, I see a lot of myself in you. (Maybe that's why I was so hard on you) I also have been going through the process of getting rid of possessions that I've been holding on to so that my apt is basically very simple and organized. I thought maybe I'd feel lighter and clearer. But it's hard to get rid of stuff that used to mean so much, because a family member bought it for me as a gift a long time ago. Sometimes it's so friggin hard to let go.

If you be mean and hard on me, I just end up agreeing with whatever you are trying to say.

okayokayit'snotok: " your scum Muck"
Me: "Yeah I know"

okayokayit'snotok: "Your a waste of space Muck"
Me: "Yeah I know"

etc..

I was thinking about this before you said it, that people are not here to help me, in fact I dont expect anyone to help me. I think that was the problem, people say they are good etc..but I dont think they are good, which in turn I try my best to avoid people at all cost. So I agree with you when you say that others are not here to help me.

Thanks for the 1170 page PDF book I wil try my best to read it and get back to you within the year.

Since you're working 2 jobs, have a goal and plan for the future. I know the daily grind is tough.

Try to save as much money as possible so maybe in a year or 2, you can invest that money somewhere and then you won't have to work so hard and have more time for fulfilling stuff.

OP please take a vacation. Somewhere down south with chicks booze and lots of socializing.

I don't think he's ready for that, as much as its the correct play.

It's like a druggie needs to motivated on his own to stop. if he doesn't want that, then it's not gonna happen.

I think maybe we should let OP focus on his money goal first. Once he gets it, then it'll help him "see the light" and then he can move on to other things.

I see youre banned nowdays..

aww man why did this guy get banned i had some awesome suggestions stormin up as i was reading this thread...

He doesn't need to be logged in to look at your answers though