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Originally Posted by Olaff
OK.
1. First of all, read this whole thing so you understand what's happening to you and are not as freaked out by it:
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Posttr...tress_disorder
2. If left untreated PTSD can go on for a long time and may substantially worsen. You know all these stories about Iraq/Afghanistan war vets going completely bonkers? A lot of them had PTSD. You don't want to end up like that. I know the treatment option I suggested is a bit unconventional and controversial but you don't have to go that route. You can go for a more conventional treatment option such as therapy. Look for a reputable psychologist in your area with successful experience of treating PTSD. Do not put this away. Don't try to "wing it on your own". Take all steps necessary to start your treatment TODAY.
3. Don't be afraid to share with your wife/family/friends. That's what they're there for. To help you in times of greatest need. Sharing with your wife does not make you weak. It will help you and make you stronger which will make her feel better as well. You will also likely discover she's much stronger than you think she is.
You are a strong man but a strong man does what's sensible.
I made a long post in response to this, but deleted it because I was afraid I came off as a nutjob (and it probably rightly would of been interpreted that way). I'm now going to force myself to respond because even when I come off crazy, it's helped in the past.
Also please note I posted several times today, and I'm not coming off well, and that's because I'm not well. Today is the worst day because of the incident, that I've had since the night of the incident. I have no idea why, but 3 days ago I was fine, today I'm messed up/stressed.
Olaff, I read most of the wiki. And I noticed a couple more things that happened to me that are mimicking what they said could happen.
Today I took my dog for a walk. I noticed a guy in a puffy coat about 2 blocks behind me when my dog stopped to use the bathroom. When my dog was done and I picked up the mess, I started walking again. And I noticed the guy kept following the path I was taking.
I decided to make a left hand turn instead of follow the "normal" walking path that people take (we have a designated walking path in our community) and the guy made the same turn as me. This stressed me out. So when walking down the block, we got to an area where a new house was being built (a vacant lot) I took my dog, and we walked into the vacant lot, and waited for the guy to pass. I just couldn't handle him being behind me with that puffy coat.
Now this is why I know I'm not being "vigilant" but something is wrong with me. Because the "guy" was 70 years old. He was just some retired old guy going for a walk. I mean, it's one thing if I was walking and maybe crossed the street because a group of gang bangers were hanging out on a street corner, but it's absolutely over reacting when you get stressed out over a 70 year old guy with a limp walking 2 blocks behind you.
3 days ago, NO WAY would I of even cared. But today it stressed the heck out of me. I think it might be because of the dream I had last night.
I also noticed I'm incredibly easy to irritate today. The NASCAR race is on today and I LOVE NASCAR. My wife took our daughter to a kid's birthday party, and decided to get us take out for lunch (while I watched the race). This INFURIATED me because I was pissed she was wasting money. We have plenty of money, and it was like $20 worth of take out. She did it for me to be nice, and I was just pissed the hell off about it. (the take out she got was from my favorite place too, not the place she likes)
I mean, normal me would of thanked her and been happy. My wife is a frugal lady and we eat out 2-3 times a month at most. And money isn't something we ever fight about, and we have plenty of. But man I was pissed. And it wasn't until I read that article about being easily irritable that it makes sense.
Today has been a bad day for sure.