Originally Posted by AKQJ10
Even supposing that this mild tilt drops me from a $20/hr winner to $15/hr, it's still better to play than to not play, right?
And I really think I'm being conservative in overestimating its effect.
^Thats an awesome statement/question.
For me, its that exact question that really hits home. I'm struggling to "answer" that myself. Although I kinda think I already know the answer, but just don't like it so I'm having a hard time accpeting it.
FWIW, I had this thought that if I played a lot of hours and my hourly rate deminished a little bit it wouldn't be a big deal because I could overcome the slightly less per hour, by playing more hours. At the end of the "long hours" (1 1/2 months) I'd make more money, and my "net" income would be more....so I was willing to put in the hours to end up making more money. Guess what? It didn't work for me either.
I played 243 hours in the first three weeks of June, just prior I had played 171 hours during 3 weeks of May, and took one week off at the end of May before playing everyday again in June. Thats a LOT of hours by any standard in such a short time frame.
You're reporting about a 20% loss in hourly, $20 to $15. My expercine was the longer and the more hours I played it only got worse. It started as a 10-15% loss in my hourly, and then by the time I choose to take a "break" I was down to about 60% of my historic hourly. As a small stakes player when you're faced with a 40% drop in earnings, to me anyway, this sets off red-flags that something is really wrong and needs fixed right away. Couple this with wanting to make money and have some type of enjoyment playing poker, but faced w/ reality of making less than minimum wage, or worse losing money, and all of a sudden playing poker doesn't seem like so much "fun".
I thought maybe its just some bad varience that I've never experienced before, but lookign through my records this didn't make since because I rarley have losing months, in fact only 3 in two years, and have NEVER had losing or greatly reduced income months back-to-back. So I kept asking myself, whats wrong? What am I doing different? Are the players better all of sudden and I missed the boat somehwere? Am I really playing that bad all of sudden? Am I taking more chances, more risk, willing to gamble more, now than previously?
After answering no to myself on most of the tuff questions, I did have a yes to one of them...I was playing more hours and thought I'd could make more $ in the long run...even if my hourly slipped a little.
When I wasn't making as much as I *thought* I should be and this only compounded matters and next I found myself w/ a bad attitude, and grumpy, and maybe a little entitlement mentatily in that I somehow "deserved" to make more....all wrapped into one form of tilt or another, a losing proposition regardless how its viewed.
Then came the day when I just made up my mind that I was taking some time off. I was sitting at the table, on auto-pilot, when I had this revelation, and menetioned it to one of the chip runner that I'm pretty good freinds with. This guy is always happy and has great people skills and just a joy to be around, never has anything bad to say about anyone, ect..just truly a nice guy. Anyway, he looked at me, called my by name and said "its funny you say that, because I've noticed a difference in you...you' don't seem to be as happy and freindly". WOW...I was floored! That was exactly what I needed to hear. Within 30 minuntes my chips were in the rack and I was walking out the door, and haven't been back since, LOL
Things in life have a way of working out. Sometimes when you press to hard, and want it to much, whatever you want doesn't happen. I'm not advocating being lazy, or not being focused, or taking your game seriously, or being a good student of the game...I'm just saying some time off seems to work wonders.
OP...best wishes in school this fall! I'm prolly close a generation older than you and have 2 sons, one of which has already graduated college and is a fine young man...and one hell of a poker player! My other son is in highschool and BEGS me to "get him in" a Casino to play poker....of course he's not old enough yet.