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Originally Posted by ARCANGEL0
''I would need someone to keep my money physically away from me, and to accept I can't ask never that person for the money back without his supervision on where I will spend it, without any degenerate excuses''
> Do it. I have read some articles about problem gambling and this is part of the therapy. It is just a temporal solution though.
I suggest you start exercising your will power muscle. Is just like that. You are mentally weak right now but you can get stronger.
The muscle is in your mind so there is no danger on spraining it or something.
1. Admit you have a problem
2. Read about the problem as much as you can (know your enemy)
3. Do something. Surrender your finances to someone you really trust.
''I would need to have goals in the long term, and not loose hope and strength in achieving them, that strength I think could only be achieved if I lived daily with someone that reminded me of the goals, and made me want to pursue them.''
> This is possible bro! But you will be living with them virtually (cybernetically).
Join a support group online there will be people there for you 24/7
Start a thread there!
Expect relapses they are not failures just part of the healing process
glgl
Thank you for your words, and leavesofliberty also.
I really had to make myself aware of not being able to have access to my own money in the worst way, being broke, completely, with disregard to my well-being.
The relapses are constant, monthly, I get my money, I spend a couple of days happy and hopeful, and then there's a day/night where I go full degenerate, and then it keeps going for as much days it takes, no sleep, no food, no nothing, just zombie gamble mod... To 0.
Thinking about the prizes, and thinking in my financial situation, is like a magnet to me...
I also keep believing in the need to read, but then I never do, and I go straight into well and throw myself without access to get back out...
I can only imagine spending the amount of years you spent loosing and what you've been thru, and I can only ask, desperately, I get rid of this, I dunno anymore if I continue trying or not, if I keep having hope or not, but right now it's really bad for me the amount of years and money I've put into this just isn't right to keep insisting. You quit 3 years, ever since I started, I only quit some months, but for the most part I quit for 3 almost 4 weeks, because I get broke by the beginning of the month, every month.
But it's something to think, that I can quit when I'm forced to because of my mistakes, so it should also be easy to quit when I'm not being forced.
I could have spent all my life without being broke once. And I put myself, and only me, in this situation, and it's so bad to think about my actions it's hard to describe.
Let's see where the future will lead, as I said before, my only hope is in the future.
I really have to start reading and stop playing, and this is no joke, it's really desperate to keep doing what I do to my life.