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Originally Posted by Dr. Meh
I'm sorry but can we not turn this into your own personal bad beat / run bad thread? Seems like an odd place for it, imo.
XOXOX
As I was saying, the universe is redressing my addiction because I did the homework and am open to it. The quanta knows this, knows my exact position. So this isn’t about beats or running bad, but thanks for the weak attempt. Now …
More from The Year of Gambling Disastrously (and it's important fallout for the subject of this thread)
Woke up in a haze with only 90 minutes sleep this AM (Sunday). I look at the schedule of games. I call looking for GBay – 6 ½. He puts me on hold for several minutes. I’m groggy. I’m looking them over talking to someone else, talking him out of New Orleans teaser wheel. Somehow I have the wrong game number in my head when he comes back on. I say, “What is 359-60?” He says 6 ½. I say give me minus the 6 ½. He reads it back to me but I’m not paying enough attention, listening for the number, not the team. I pull for the game, chalk it up a winner in my head. But 359-60 is New Orleans, not Green Bay. I’ve bet the wrong team minus 6 ½. Just guess what happened in the two games? Mistaken bet N.O. doesn’t cover, intended GBay bet does cover. Never done that in 1/3 century of ball.
When that realization came to me what I did, something went through me like, “The hell with all these trials and the hell with the results. I don’t care anymore. I’ve been addicted to both the process and the winning for decades … and suddenly, with this Year of Gambling Disastrously 2016, where nearly everything imaginable rolls the wrong way … I said it: I DON’T GIVE A BLANK.” There are much more important things than this (but I sure don’t live like there is if I’m honest about it).
I suspect many of you are in a similar place. An addiction is an alternate reality used to transport oneself out of their actual existential experience, which means, into an alternate mood and emotional landscape while ignoring the actual deep truths of their being (and their concomitant feelings, often very unpleasant … so it’s like, “Lets’ do something that gets us high”).
I’m addicted to the playing, to the winning … adamantly not the gambling. Run almost a year without those jolts of winning, 70% wins to 10% in poker, all kinds of never-before weirdness in ball … the winning jolts are totally MIA … and one's real landscape, the non-“watch-me-thrill myself with these games” landscape, comes front and center.
A poker addiction, if it means anything, means the addicted party is escaping his actual life issues via the game (its thrills, its diversionary value, the wins, the losses … take your pick).
The flop is a quantum wave just like everything else is, and the universe delivers it via its ingenious quantum machinery. In this way, precisely when you question your status as to addiction, it gives you supposedly billion-to-one results that in fact enhance the redressing of the addiction. It does this because of the non-random, in fact teleological nature of the universe. If you are hip to it, you’re dealt in accordingly. If not you can live on a calculator and get the shortcut version of it all.