Glad to hear you are doing well.

more info about this? link?

my shrink is an assh0le. He doesn't prescribe Zanax, adderal, etc, just shltty anti-d's that don't work. So I read this post and thought adderal might help, and I decided that I'd try again. So I saw him today and as soon as i said "adderal saved my life", he rolled his eyes. I told him all about the post and he just dug in, crossing his arms in a defensive posture, saying he'd never presribe that to me. I told him even if it ruined me, it wouldn't matter, because I'm already going down - atleast adderal might help, perhaps bust me out of the years long slump i've been in.

So I feel mad and depressed today, frustrated, even more than usual, and I just want to vent and say that I feel fed up with life, and I am considering killing myself. I fantasized about leaving a messaghe on his machine to notify the authorities of a body in an apartment, and that I don't think he earned his paycheck last week and that he should donate it to charity. I also fantasized about posting his phone and having ppl harrass him.

Anyway I asked him what good he is to me, and he said maybe he can't help, so i told him instead of seeing him every three weeks make it six. He seemed a touch upset because usually we've gotten along ok and talk about poker and stocks and bonds.

i also been fantasizing about attacking a cop with a hatchet of mine and making them shoot me, like what happened to my brother.

I honestly have grown cynical and don't think preventing suicides is a big deal. If someone wants to die, let em die. people die all the time, all over the place, every day, for stupid reasons, so what does it matter.

I am stating right now that I am not threatening to commit suicde so don't nobody get there panties in a bunch, I'm just at the fantasizing stage because I'm terribly frustrated and pained. Speaking of pain, when i rode my bike home from the shrink (ywes, bike, I ama 38 yr old loser and i don't think i'll make it to 40) i ahd tears in my eyes and I thought about what brings me the mostpain? What are my most painful issues? I already know some of them, probbably all of them, and I'll jsut contemplate that for the rest of the day.

P.S. Honestly, I've been fighting the idea of suicide for a long time, but it seems like i sub-consciously want to die. There is a pain within me that just won't be soothed. Any steps to make my life better are stopped by me time and time aghain, and i've fought it and fought it and fought it and fought it, to no avail. I've read some about the sub-conscious mind and mines a mess. I just think that perhaps a long time ago, due to very painful experiences, that I wanted to die by suicide and that i didn't want to be happy because I was so upset/hurt.

Sorry, i jsut needed to vent.

Find a new psych who actually listens and cares about possibly trying a different route of treatment and experimenting different meds.
He IS a licensed psychiatrist after all,correct? Why is he so afraid of writing a script for a controlled substance? That's what he's THERE for! And what he is licensed to DO! I think your psych doc is just lazy IMO, find a new one!

/ end rant


PS: Vyvanse saved my life. Time for new thread. lol

Well it's possible that the doc just doesn't think those meds are warranted for you. Without knowing your diagnoses, I can't say for certain.

Regardless, it doesn't matter if your psychiatrist is great or terrible, you clearly don't trust him and it isn't helping you to see him. You need to find someone else. And soon, because those suicidal thoughts aren't as benign as you seem to be trying to convince us.

i don't remember the exact site I found out about it but this should be close:
http://www.drugs-forum.com/forum/sho...d.php?t=168992

FWIW, I take all my vitamins in the AM with my stimulant, except maybe for the magnesium (makes me sleepy sometimes). This way all my meds are taken for the day and I don't give myself a chance to forget this or that...etc.

Im not on adderall (ritalin IR) but I have heard that some of these vitamins and herbs really help minimize side effects and make the drugs work better for you. Hope this helps

+1 vyvanse for me was the nuts, too bad my insurance stopped paying for it. The come-up is strong, lasted all day long, and the come-down is minimal imo.

Agreed, the come down isn't bad at all compared to adderall! If I take it everyday non stop I may find myself tossing and turning in bed. I also do take vitamins and fish oil caps

I've never taken any sort of meds and I don't completely frown upon them; hell I'd take em if I ever had the chance.


I've found a multi-vitamin along with some omegas and a lot of water (green tea extract , st john's wart too) really do wonders for one's mindset. I assume adderal is probably on a whole other level, but ya... my 2 cents.

cliffs: cheap otc supplements can work wonders.

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You are correct, but I'd have to agree on the "whole different level" part. Super focus from vyvanse is pretty crazy sometimes, I have been up in bed reading either articles or books till 5am and not realize how late it was and having to be up at 8-9am.

I take multi vitamins in the morning combined with omegas on top of my dosage and feel it helps it overall

So, what does someone do if they do not have access to these stimulants?

See a psych doc?

trust me, its on a whole other level.

OP, any updates on your situation?

Hi, i'm wondering how i can get/buy Adderall and i'm from Canada. Is it safe to buy it online? If yes what sites are safe? Thanks!