The Ramblings of a Zen Student
Join Date: Jul 2012
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The phrase my job is driving me nuts, thinking of quitting doesn't fully express the feeling I'm having. I have pierced the veil beyond the world of illusions you probably don't know what I'm talking about and may think I've gone crazy...this isn't far from the truth.
Lets start the thread by describing and trying to define what life burnout is. Life burnout is not exhaustion I'm fully awake and aware of my surroundings I have got the much needed sleep to perform my duties at work and at home. I have the energy to take car of myself.
One aspect is lack of motivation but that term doesn't do it justice for it is far beyond lack of motivation but a feeling that I have been here before and I have done this time and time again. That is to say how does one get motivated to do the same thing which has been done for the last 30 years? It is like painting the wall over and over again for the last 30 years if you call not wanting to do this a lack of motivation then fine. It even gets worse because even if you carry out life/job there is a feeling that nothing much matters if when you complete it to a high standard. I can safely say it doesn't matter if I do "well" simply put the payoff isn't worth a dam.
Frustrated because there is sudden realisation that I can neither do something about my situation and take positive action (i.e. do something) or even if I did nothing.
Cognitive problems start to happen, I become forgetful and have a harder time remembering things and with the fact I have a hard time concentrating. Simply put I just stop caring. When I no longer enjoy the things and hobbies I once had. And the only thing that is good in my life is sleeping which when taken to its extreme is a living non-existence because the phrase sick of living, unwilling to die is better.
The problem for me is communicating this across to others for no one sees what I see when it comes to the problem of life and what the hell are you meant to do with it. No one cares, I'm not entitled to anything.
There was a moment in my life when I realised I was a total waste of space as you might say a loser and it is so true. And I can't put it into words because words fail me you might say I have nothing to offer, or that I don't have anything going for me.
You guys don't understand, you do not see what I see, because you live in a world of maya.
