Anyway it goes something like this: "Love: Intense feeling of the human being, who, on the basis of its own insufficiency, craves and searches the union with another being"
And I thought, wtf? the mere definition of love implies that one just needs another person to overcome its own insufficiency? What if i dont feel any "insufficieny", that means I can't love? I found it a very weird definition to be the #1 in the official dictionary.
On the other hand, isn't it a bit harsh to give up completely on love being so young? I don't know if you are (physically) male or female, but you have lived (roughly) 33% of your life, still have 67% left, I think its too early for giving up on something. Not actively seeking might be another story, and if you are a man and are not actively seeking, then yeah, it might be very likely to never experience a romantic relationship.
(about the poker regulation, I'm posting on the other thread. Oh and happy new year!)
The authors of that dictionary are definitely unfamiliar with the theory of aromanticism and romantic orientation. The insufficiency theory is total bs.
I've experienced 'sticky aesthetic attraction' many times (with hormonal changes), and it felt awful. I guess romantic love is a sum of this and existential dependency on the object, so it would be even more terrible to me.
But I'm puzzled that one of them (whom idk personally) denies being a girl and says that her own avatar depicts not herself but 'his' wife? (But a bit of internet search has convinced me that it's herself.)
How to support her when she doesn't even want to come out as a girl to her new environment? (Why did she make that image public then?) Does she have too many mental issues to be dealt with?
(Those who know who I'm talking about, please don't disclose personal details.)
Stop waiting: this is never going to happen voluntarily, unless you mean getting cuddled with some kind of both top and bottom wear on.
So you have no any sexual drive? No people you can imagine to have sex with?
Or it is only usual gay denial to accept your sexuality (I can imagine in russian macho culture and even law it is good reason)?
There's a difference between desiring to do something with a particular person and being OK with doing it (as a compromise) potentially.
As I said somewhere, I did try sticking cucumbers into my mouth to test myself and it doesn't feel pleasant, though I've caught myself sucking a metallic trinket compulsively right as I'm writing this.
I totally don't like and don't understand masculinity, so I've never considered myself gay. Instead, I'm strongly attracted aesthetically to feminine people.
The reason I worship ladyboys, as a subset of girls, so much is that they're good at being even girlier (beautifying more) than natural girls. I view them not as manly girls but as flamboyant ones.
They're not so pretty when they're not in public and not on a date, but I appreciate those times when they do 'pass' as girly girls. And I want to thank them somehow for being beautiful.
But I really fail to understand why most of them want genital reassignment (see my attitude to genitals below). That's why I'll never be able to have relationships with them - their desire to complete the transition is almost always non-negotiable.
Myself, I'd hate being screwed even more passionately than being the screw. But they somehow find delight in that, perhaps because they like possessing a part of a man literally (i.e. capturing it and feeling the pulse etc).
Returning to my attitude to sex, as seen on MakeLoveNotPorn, it feels neutral and slightly boring at best. (The rude possessive activities that you watch in traditional porn are just gross, why do you like seeing girls abused?) There are more exciting things to do together, even blitz chess is merrier.
When you see a pussy, you probably get crazily attracted to it and stop thinking about anything else at all. When I see any kind of genitals, I think how hairy and ugly they are (a pussy looks more like an open septic wound to me).
I'd rather people not take their pants / bras off at all in my presence if possible, even after they become my partners in some sense.
When Cortana's role greatly expanded in Halo 3, Fairfax New Zealand noted that the character "has inexplicably had a sexy makeover." According to Cinema Blend, the "love story" between Master Chief and Cortana in this game provides "a focus to the game that an epic war between species can not accomplish. As Chief, the player needs something to anchor them into the story, and that happens to be Cortana."
Part of Cortana's appeal has lain in her good looks. In 2007, the character was ranked as ninth on the list of top "Xbox babes" by Team Xbox, featured by GameDaily 's "Babe of the Week", and listed as the sixth most "disturbingly sexual game character" by Games.net. In 2008, GameDaily ranked her as the 38th "hottest game babe." In 2009, 1UP.com ranked the character as the fifth best video game computer, noting that as Cortana's sanity waned in the video games, her clothing appeared to decrease as well. In 2010, GameTrailers included her on their countdown of the top 10 "babes who are out of your league" at number two. In 2011, UGO.com included her on the list of the 50 "video game hotties", calling her "a certified hottie" in spite of being "just...a big pile of ones and zeroes." In the "battle of the beauties" feature, Complex chose her over GLaDOS for her more human-like voice. In 2012, MSN included her among the 20 "hottest women in video game history" while Revision3 ranked her the third sexiest "video game girl." Thanh Niên ranked her as the fourth most sexy female video game character in 2015.
Aside from appearance, the media found other aspects to praise. In 2007, Cortana was named one of the 50 greatest female characters by Tom's Hardware for the character's determination and fearlessness, which meshed perfectly with the game's protagonist. In 2010, Cracked.com ranked her as first on the list of the supporting characters in video games. In 2011, UGO.com ranked her as the second best video game companion, while Maximum PC included her in the list of the 25 of gaming's greatest sidekicks.
The last but not the least, I'm admittedly fond of blue, purple and turquoise hair.
(alas that's the most exotic hair that PKR's 3D avatar editor has)
I'm not sure if you read lapka's (or Miss_lonely_hearts's) blog, but if not, here's the most helpful gem I've found there so far - a guide on stopping being afraid of making dramatic changes to one's life:
Check it out, especially the dwindling cash experiment that is described starting at 13:17. It's designed to help remove the fear of going broke, which those who decide to change their occupation and follow their true destination often experience.
Very inspirational, bookmarked it so I can watch it a second time
When asking his above question, Mr Bender meant the money needed for self-sustenance (he and his partners were concerned only with their pleasure, not the public wellbeing... there's no wonder that Ostap's enterprise ended really bad for him).
In his second (maybe first too?) book, Jared Tendler recommends to have two goals - minimum and maximum (read more about this method here (advertisement not intended) if you're unfamiliar with it).
The minimum monetary goal is self-sustenance. Anything you earn that is above that minimum, and often even more money, can be directed towards actually helping others.
Think about an activity / business that you could engage in that would improve the overall happiness of mankind, but you yet have no money for. Being able to do it (without being afraid of dying of hunger or cold before your effort starts giving fruit) can be your maximum goal.
I think I'm actually too cautious when I claim that the goal of self-sustenance should be achieved first... it's just that I personally can't yet think of a way I can be useful to other beings, so I occupate myself by earning money first But I won't aim for an astronomical amount before I figure out how to use it efficiently.
And I really care about being +EV to my opponents in terms of pleasure... which means that I have to be surrounded primarily by recreational opponents - grinding thin edges out of pros makes either them or me unhappy. (By recs and pros, I mean basically risk-seeking and risk-averse players, respectively.) That's why I don't like to move up.
With regard to being useful to a certain narrow circle of people (the family, an intimate partner)... I think they're a drop in the ocean of mankind, so I don't really want to devote my life to so few specific and randomly chosen (or not even chosen) people. But YMMV.
100k is also my goal for retirement. I've come to conclusion that luxury is not a necessity for me. Of course I like luxury and comfort, but I realized that my life expectations were too high. For me to be happy as a rich guy, the level of wealth I'd have to accumulate in my situation is impossible. I've tought of many scenarios and it most likely will never happen.
So if you can't be rich what's left? The poor and the middle class. I like to call the middle class the get rich or die trying group. In my opinion, out of the three social class, middle class is the most -EV one. They get fcked by the rich and by the poor.
I can't be rich, I don't want to be middle class. That's left me with the option of being poor, which is actually not that bad. You'll find real happiness in small thing, so with only little extra money after the survival fee are covered it's possible to be happy. But the main argument why I favour poor class over middle working class is the free time factor.
Anyways. After I saved up 100k I'll be able to retire, which that by itself make me pretty happy
I do like the attires of some of the girls whose pics you post, though I'd still prefer them to be European or Latin.
Sorry for not telling about myself, I'm in a bad spot right now, perhaps in the worst of the moods that I've had in the last 2 years. I need to suffer it through on my own, psychoanalysis is the best medicine for me.
I'm burnt out and don't have enough energy to pursue big goals, you see. I'll be satisfied if I'm just able to maintain myself.
I'm increasingly secretive about my non-poker life, plus, I'm not feeling well mentally ATM. Thanks for the interest, though.
A good news is that I'm going to finally own some real estate in 2017; a bad news is that my credit card debt is slightly exceeding my bankroll (fortunately, the minimum monthly payment is as low as 5% of the debt) so I need to turn up the sleeves a bit (i.e. grind for 100 or so hours in total ) in the following months unless I strike a deal with my relatives fast enough.
I'm curious, what kind of real estate and in which country?
Thanks for piercing the bubble of my sense of self-worth
It's an urban flat, kind of near Moscow, I wouldn't throw my money away on anything else. Don't get me started on its price. And no, it wasn't earned by playing poker Rather, it's a vain attempt to make use of the remainder of my wealth that wouldn't work well as a poker bankroll as I'll never beat the midstakes (for more $/hour than the low stakes) anyway.