Non-zero chance, I like your style.

Love is a really hard topic. Specially for us, the socially awkwards. Do you already speak Spanish? if so, look at the #1 official definition of love here: http://lema.rae.es/drae/srv/search?i...MrvDXX2O3CuErw

Anyway it goes something like this: "Love: Intense feeling of the human being, who, on the basis of its own insufficiency, craves and searches the union with another being"

And I thought, wtf? the mere definition of love implies that one just needs another person to overcome its own insufficiency? What if i dont feel any "insufficieny", that means I can't love? I found it a very weird definition to be the #1 in the official dictionary.

On the other hand, isn't it a bit harsh to give up completely on love being so young? I don't know if you are (physically) male or female, but you have lived (roughly) 33% of your life, still have 67% left, I think its too early for giving up on something. Not actively seeking might be another story, and if you are a man and are not actively seeking, then yeah, it might be very likely to never experience a romantic relationship.


(about the poker regulation, I'm posting on the other thread. Oh and happy new year!)

The authors of that dictionary are definitely unfamiliar with the theory of aromanticism and romantic orientation. The insufficiency theory is total bs.

I've experienced 'sticky aesthetic attraction' many times (with hormonal changes), and it felt awful. I guess romantic love is a sum of this and existential dependency on the object, so it would be even more terrible to me.

Thanks for the reply to the regulation thread!

Did you read Modern Romance by Aziz Ansari? It isn't that deep but I found it fascinating.
However do you have any advice for other love related books?

At first glance, if there's anything of value in Ansari's book, it's buried somewhere deep in the flow humour.

I have no advice for you on love-related books, sorry, I'm not interested in them.

Happy New Year !!

Thanks, may all your good dreams come true, brother!

Sorry for being silent for so long - I had nothing spectacular to write...

As some of you might know, I have a bit more than respect for transgirls.

But I'm puzzled that one of them (whom idk personally) denies being a girl and says that her own avatar depicts not herself but 'his' wife? (But a bit of internet search has convinced me that it's herself.)

How to support her when she doesn't even want to come out as a girl to her new environment? (Why did she make that image public then?) Does she have too many mental issues to be dealt with?

(Those who know who I'm talking about, please don't disclose personal details.)

So you have no any sexual drive? No people you can imagine to have sex with?
Or it is only usual gay denial to accept your sexuality (I can imagine in russian macho culture and even law it is good reason)?

There's a difference between desiring to do something with a particular person and being OK with doing it (as a compromise) potentially.

As I said somewhere, I did try sticking cucumbers into my mouth to test myself and it doesn't feel pleasant, though I've caught myself sucking a metallic trinket compulsively right as I'm writing this.

I totally don't like and don't understand masculinity, so I've never considered myself gay. Instead, I'm strongly attracted aesthetically to feminine people.

The reason I worship ladyboys, as a subset of girls, so much is that they're good at being even girlier (beautifying more) than natural girls. I view them not as manly girls but as flamboyant ones.

They're not so pretty when they're not in public and not on a date, but I appreciate those times when they do 'pass' as girly girls. And I want to thank them somehow for being beautiful.

But I really fail to understand why most of them want genital reassignment (see my attitude to genitals below). That's why I'll never be able to have relationships with them - their desire to complete the transition is almost always non-negotiable.

Myself, I'd hate being screwed even more passionately than being the screw. But they somehow find delight in that, perhaps because they like possessing a part of a man literally (i.e. capturing it and feeling the pulse etc).

Returning to my attitude to sex, as seen on MakeLoveNotPorn, it feels neutral and slightly boring at best. (The rude possessive activities that you watch in traditional porn are just gross, why do you like seeing girls abused?) There are more exciting things to do together, even blitz chess is merrier.

When you see a pussy, you probably get crazily attracted to it and stop thinking about anything else at all. When I see any kind of genitals, I think how hairy and ugly they are (a pussy looks more like an open septic wound to me).

I'd rather people not take their pants / bras off at all in my presence if possible, even after they become my partners in some sense.

I am old, hairy vagina is vagina, shaved one looks like frozen chicken. Maybe not desiring contact is consequence of not having contact long time? Only testing my worn out social miniskills.

Again, I don't care what the reason is for something that makes my life better.

PlsHarlequin has just told that Cortana (the inspiration for Microsoft's digital assistant) looks like a boy, jajaja. Well, since 2007 (Halo 3), she's had such big breasts that no healthy boy has.

Wikipedia lists her rankings in various gaming beauty pageants:

The last but not the least, I'm admittedly fond of blue, purple and turquoise hair.

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(alas that's the most exotic hair that PKR's 3D avatar editor has)

Hi c00n, how you doing lately?

I'd like it very much please. I know how it feels, but I'd like to read it from another person point of view.

Very inspirational, bookmarked it so I can watch it a second time

100k is also my goal for retirement. I've come to conclusion that luxury is not a necessity for me. Of course I like luxury and comfort, but I realized that my life expectations were too high. For me to be happy as a rich guy, the level of wealth I'd have to accumulate in my situation is impossible. I've tought of many scenarios and it most likely will never happen.

So if you can't be rich what's left? The poor and the middle class. I like to call the middle class the get rich or die trying group. In my opinion, out of the three social class, middle class is the most -EV one. They get fcked by the rich and by the poor.

I can't be rich, I don't want to be middle class. That's left me with the option of being poor, which is actually not that bad. You'll find real happiness in small thing, so with only little extra money after the survival fee are covered it's possible to be happy. But the main argument why I favour poor class over middle working class is the free time factor.

Anyways. After I saved up 100k I'll be able to retire, which that by itself make me pretty happy

I also have this kind of fetish where I prefer girls wearing clothes than being naked. Sometimes it's really to explain to someone.

That's why most of the Korean girl I post are wearing clothes and I don't post much swimsuit

I do like the attires of some of the girls whose pics you post, though I'd still prefer them to be European or Latin.

Sorry for not telling about myself, I'm in a bad spot right now, perhaps in the worst of the moods that I've had in the last 2 years. I need to suffer it through on my own, psychoanalysis is the best medicine for me.

I'm burnt out and don't have enough energy to pursue big goals, you see. I'll be satisfied if I'm just able to maintain myself.

That pretty much explain why you'd rather move to South America than south east Asia.

Why would you need energy to pursue big goal since you agreed that you didn't wanted any? If you want to talk about it let me know my friend

Cheer up c00n

IM Tania Sachdev is at another high point of her careers as both a chess commentator (having sat next to the legendary GM Yasser Seirawan for 4 days in a row commenting on a tourney of 4 top-15 GMs) and a chess player (she's back into the female top 50).

Please stop trying to guess what my fetishes are, though

I'm just trying to get you to post more, you've been really quiet lately.

Hi ****, hope all is well, pretty interesting blog you've got why not more updates?

I'm increasingly secretive about my non-poker life, plus, I'm not feeling well mentally ATM. Thanks for the interest, though.

A good news is that I'm going to finally own some real estate in 2017; a bad news is that my credit card debt is slightly exceeding my bankroll (fortunately, the minimum monthly payment is as low as 5% of the debt) so I need to turn up the sleeves a bit (i.e. grind for 100 or so hours in total ) in the following months unless I strike a deal with my relatives fast enough.

I'm curious, what kind of real estate and in which country?

Thanks for piercing the bubble of my sense of self-worth

It's an urban flat, kind of near Moscow, I wouldn't throw my money away on anything else. Don't get me started on its price. And no, it wasn't earned by playing poker Rather, it's a vain attempt to make use of the remainder of my wealth that wouldn't work well as a poker bankroll as I'll never beat the midstakes (for more $/hour than the low stakes) anyway.