I'm not answering that question.

I'm not down with being interrogated on this thread.

Had super **** night aside from the $500 I spewed in PH cash game.

I'm out for the day, gotta go make sure I don't have a concussion.

gg

No need to test video poker. No one in the world can beat video poker anywhere on the strip. (Maybe after comps you could beat a 9/6 JoB) You can't play better than your ~96% theoretical return, and that's if you're holding every hand perfectly, which you're not.

Tell us about it...That's why we are here. LVL is interested.

See, I think this is the kind of story that needs to be expanded on. I really hope that you don't have a concussion, at least not one severe enough to forget how you got it and maybe remember some hand history's from PH.

I suppose it's your thread so share what you want, but I'd love to see some more of that writing from your original post in the form of some TR updates

still reading and now subscribed here and twitter I agree that if OP were male this would be a 5 page thread of people saying you will fail etc no luck involved blazin after all we are just all co-creators of the 21st century; similar stories in some aspects not sure if i will share with the board as whole especially since im pretty good at lurking

also there needs to be a 12 step program for starbucks or at least a starbucks addiction thread

Joe

@BlazinAces

btw which room would u prefer for grinding lower nl action in vegas: nl200-nl500 ?

On my drive home from work, I thought to myself, "What the hell am I doing trying to prove something to a 22 year old girl?" So I will sit back and just try to enjoy the trip report for what it is.

Good luck out there.

Pretty much this.

I'm not defending OP, but at the same time she has the right to not incriminate herself and to share what she wants. By no means do you have to be in this thread, and while I agree with your assertations, she will not answer anything she is not comfortable with. In all fairness, admitting to as much as she has is surprising and I give her respect for that

You have to expect that is going to happen. Just Answer what you wish.

You'd feel better about trying to prove yourself to a 22yr old guy?

Of course! Because then they could play "who's is bigger" and rub the victory literally and figuratively in the others face

Epic catfish/troll thread the OP has going here ...

for **** sake.

I don't have any advice...but I will spew some opinions.

1. I don't care if you are male, female or a transvestite....you took the time to attempt to give me something interesting to read and that's cool.

2. All this rhetoric about playing Video Poker or whatever other -EV game is a silly debate to me. Why do people pay $1000 for a table in a bar and a bottle of Vodka they could get for under $50 at a liquor store?...because they are entertained...and they decided it was within their entertainment budget.

3. Someone said gambling makes them sick but poker is not gambling...bull****....70% is not 100%....80% is not 100%....you can play perfect poker and lose your ass to a complete fish....done it many times myself. Now that will cause mention of "the long run" and how you can never lose in "the long run" if you are a winning player....well that's true....only one problem with that...unlike statistics which never get tired or burnt out...poker players do....and I have seen so so many of them either not play enough hours....or end up slacking off their hours....or just never seriously attempt it as a living but are absolutely sure they could make a living wage at it (most couldnt)...bottom line is...the long run is REALLY ****ING LONG and most grinders that play live don't come close to getting a sample size that reaches it...30 hands an hr....40 hrs a week...that's lol worthy from a statistics point of view.

4. For the record....I hate two of the "beatable" games ....Live cash (it bores me to tears) and live BJ (it bores me to tears)....I only play MTTs now for several reasons...I find them exciting ...If your opponent makes a huge mistake and your hand holds up....he is on the rail...he can't reload and try to suck out on you again and again.

Anyway....just have fun and keep writing about your adventures....even if that is covers of The Temptations and Video Poker with a bad paytable.

Preach it brother! Can I get an Amen!

In regards to number 2, people don't claim that they usually "beat" the clubs for table and drink. Nobody gives a **** if she plays bad VP games. I take exception to the claim that she "beats" that game.

OP's plan is outlandish, silly, and kind of insulting to anyone that plays this game for a living. That being said, I run into people every day who try to do the same things, so to act concerned about what she is doing is unfair. OP can do whatever she wants and it's absolutely none of my business.

What I will make fun of is the ridiculous white-knighting in this thread. It's borderline misogynistic. Ask a girl out thread is over in student life which is >>>>>>>>>>>>> thataway

Crack or heroin?

JHair says it very well.

Indeed. That she is massively more likely to end up in either the morgue or the jail than become a successful poker player is really neither here nor there.

Yo gl come from a pretty spotty background but keep your head up(or down) do what you do let people talk and just rake it on in

Spewing @ PH, possibly drugged, knot on head, random room key, hospital visit.....Not a great start, wtf. Regardless, GL OP.

I'll give this a few more days and from here on out, I'm just reading the girl's posts. I'm not sure what is more sad, what OP is doing or how everyone is jumping to get her on the right track without knowing other than reading a few paragraphs online. Everything on the Internet is true, right?

Plus she's 22 years old and based on her history (and present), I'm sure she won't turn her life around based on a post full of advice on a poker forum.

Went to the hospital today from Venetian after my last post.

The reason behind this visit was for the tenderness from an injury to my temple, bruises on my body and not having much recollection of my evening. I was given a full examination in order to determine if I was drugged and assaulted last night. There is substantial evidence that I was, but by whom I do not know..

I was given the option to report it, but since I can't remember anything aside from some very foggy memories, I've chosen to wait because I'm just not capable of handling all that goes along with reporting what I do remember to the police.
I have taken the necessary actions in order to accommodate my health, and that is all I will be doing for today.

I was also given information on a counseling center for victims of sexual abuse in LV that is 24hrs. As a child I had been abused by my step brother for 3 years starting at the age of 7.

When I was 13, I had been drugged and assaulted by a friend of my cousins, at 15 the brother of my dads friend got me drunk and took advantage of me after I passed out. Of course I didn't expect for any of that to change my life, I have never fully been able to comprehend how disastrous such a thing can be for someone when the shame goes unaddressed, but this is substantially at fault for many behaviors I've developed as I've grown. The only attempt I made at confronting the big pink elephant in the room left me with nightmares and more guilt than I had ever known, and I chose to stop the trauma therapy because I was just not ready to deal.

I have 4 younger sisters, all whom I love dearly and have been making a point to reconnect with. I take into consideration how my behavior will effect their futur, because I want to save them from hurting about the same things that cause pain in my own heart. I wish for, if anything was to become of this thread, to show them that they are not just another statistic.

For anyone who has been through something significant, it greatly alters your perception of the world around you. I'm no where near perfect, I'm no where near grown up either, yet I fully believe we are all products of our environment, it's part of our evolutionary cycle.

Who I am though, is a survivor. We all are. Our pasts, present and future are all very fragile subjects that are all interwoven in one way or another.

The struggle we face in a world that is cold and lonely to many, is the one thing that we all share. While despondency is bred in a judgmental environment, empathy is bred by understanding. This understanding comes when you realize life shouldn't be a "Me against the world" thing, it should be a "Me with the world" thing.

Opinions expressed by those vexed by the "same ****, different day" are what cause these occurrences to propagate.

There is no way of knowing what will happen tomorrow, and no way of changing what has already happened. I am responsible for my actions, but I am not responsible for the actions of others for I can not control them. I can learn to adapt, make necessary changes, and to grow from every experience.

I had a talk with Trooper over coffee about life the first day I met him, and it was about having a root cause behind self destruction and chaos.

He shared with me that he had come to find that when we participate in self depreciating habits, it's generally not the habit itself that is what induces the repeated mishaps, there is instead a subconscious need for causing oneself pain. Be this through self sabotage, illicit drugs, sexual promiscuity, gambling, self harm, or even an unhealthy addiction to caffeine, whatever your "Vice" is, there is a real reason as to why it's there.

Don't feel important? Attractive? Smart? Funny?

Do you feel like you're "just not enough"?

Do you feel like you don't deserve what it is you're seeking?

Have you allowed yourself to be your biggest enemy letting it creep up on you ever so quietly until it has eaten away at any semblance of remaining happiness you truly believed you had?

My point, is that after last night I feel as though I have figured out what is my root cause of self destruction, I've found where my subconscious guilt of not being enough comes from. Now I have the choice to face those demons that I've been running from, I can finally change it.

You're last post makes me sad. Regardless of what's happened in the past when you wake up in the morning smile!