I actually don't smoke pot. I have before but its not something I do on the regular.

I've been catching flak in the oot lc thread for ten years. I know why but cant explain it right now very well. I def want to write about it though. basically they've said it themselves that im either a liar or an idiot. they want me to be a naive person or they just think im a total troll.

I should just pretend to be a troll and they would like me a lot better. If I posted stuff like:
I am such a naive god fearing christian kansas boy and I try to spread my values into space. tommorrow I have a flight to Uranus.

Or if I put a ton of effort into my post and googled everything before responding

either way they would like me there better

Following and subbed

How come you own thousands of books?

I have never read any of those books, but i just ordered Fahrenheit 451

Book ownership was a sign of stairs

In the 1300's

by thousands i mean like between 1-2k not like a massive personal library. Also became I buy lots of stuff.

Are you an Amazon Prime member, Bryceman? It's a good value imo.

no but I have thought about being an amazon prime member

oh, you're a sly one.

This story is called literally the worst the feeling in the world

Literally The Worst Feeling In The World

If you are only able to have a normal conversation half the time then you are never actually capable of having a normal conversation because people do not forget half the times they've spoken to you just because your being normal now. they remember that you're something. And that something is never nice: psychopath, mentally disturbed, scary, insane, weird, unreliable, the list goes on and on. Anything you say when you're feeling normal and capable of being normal is now skewed by the prejudice built against you; if a mental patient and the president are saying the same story on the same day the mental patients story is another little brushstroke on their painting of insanity while the presidents story is interesting and delightful- the whole story in the ears listening to the mental patient blabbing is insane, insane, insane insanitysane im insane ladeedah no matter the quality. Even vincent van gogh couldnt sell his ****ing paintings


So you wake up and you're feeling good, refreshed and normal. and you sit down at the same table next to someone who means the world to you. And then you suddenly realize no matter what you say to him no matter the tone, linguistics or quality of what you say
all he will hear is insane, insane, insane insanitysane im insane ladeedah

you become irrevocably broken when this happens and nothing can fix it ever.

should I kill myself or eat this french toast?

French toast imo

I think I would go with the French toast too.

Gah, so relatable. It sucks. I think the word bi-polar sucks pretty bad too and needs to be updated sort of like how soda companies make a new name for the fake sugars they put in. Nutrisweet, sucralose, splenda. SPLENDA! And yet bi-polar is a social death sentence even though it's barely defineable and the only time you hear about it is when someone blows up a building or is Amanda Bynes. But then everyone knows you have it and you're held to a higher standard of living, sorta like someone who takes drugs if they make a mistake they're punished more than someone not on drugs making the same mistake. So everyone knows you're bi-polar and no one talks about it, cuz you bring it up and say "hey, i got diagnosed with the double poles" and they give you kind of a blank stare and say "that's cool" and they mean it but they're simultaneously thinking about Columbine, and I don't know if it should be talked about! Because who wants to hear about how you sit around playing with the stars in your mind while contemplating death and wondering if the DNA you have is 4th dimensionally connected to the DNA of ancestors of long ago trying to help you. No one wants to relate to the normal sad times because you're bi-polar, and when you're down everyone fears for the worse, and when you're in a great mood they wait for you to make a big mistake. Chances are the people in your community won't want to have you babysit and who would want to reproduce with someone bi-polar too.

But I'm no better because I have even crazier friends than me and I sit around and gossip about it all too and probably make mean jokes. It could be different because I only do it with people I consider family but I know stuff about them gets brought up to people outside of the family because people tell stories about how the guy isolated himself on spring break and stayed in the hotel and I was taking ketchup shots at the table because I was drunk but he was texting another friend saying "one shot, two shots, 5, 6, etc" And they went home to help him. And that story comes up to this day all the time. So he acted a fool around his friends and it stays with him, whatever. But what if he had acted a fool in private? What if he had gone through a rough patch and didn't talk to many people and spent a few weeks at a mental hospital? Of course people would find out, and even though he or she did something more responsible than 99% of people could do, and takes care of themself, they're still less-than other people.

Lamictal
Geodone
Haldol
Restarill, Saroquel, Cogenta, Lithium, Ativan, TYLENOL, Nictotine gum, prozac, wellbutrin, lexapro, zoloft, depekote.

What if they knew you've taken all of them? What if they knew you were Donnie Darko?

First off exactly mathemagician! I refuse to talk about medications in my blog though just became. I have not used all of those listed or even 75%!.

So I dont want to talk about this either but someone might way to read about it; what did I think of miley cyruses performance at the VMA's. First off I didnt see it on tv since I dont have cable but instead watched it later.

cliffs: im dumb

Honestly maybe its because im a Kansas boy who has never been to california but I didn't get it. So she comes out of a toy bear with her stupid haircut and wagging her tongue and puts on a classless performance that you all have seen. I was never a big fan of Miley but she was pretty, is super dee duper rich,and has a deliciously hot boyfriend; why is she insecure enough to be so raunchy??? Of course maybe its a different thing- thats just the type of person she was all along so if so props and im not judging. Also I guess she just wanted to top lady gaga and took it too far or something. maybe they can show the video to panda bears so they wont go extinct

her career was going south and now she's front page material

This might be true but Ithink she also alienated some people wholook up to her

Was this you Bryce? Did Miley Cyrus alienate you Bryce?

Yes, exactly
but no I was never that big a fan of hers.Also Im five years too old to look up to her When I was little my first cd was this
http://www.amazon.com/Middle-Nowhere...dle+of+nowhere

closely followed by the spice girls and britney spears(who I did look up to)

pancakes > french toast

Hanson...well, I never.

mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

Omg i wanted to just randomly vent. then i was like I have a crappy blog on here I forgot about!

In conclusion, GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR RRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR RRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR RRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR

this is what its like to have a "conversation" with the guys in OOTlc thread.
jmakin wrote his thing, then i quoted and responded and then timon quoted and responded to my post
Im not mad at jmakin, Im mad at el timon. Like how could you respond this way and everyone thinks its just ok?What is el timon thinking when he posts this?

One time a guy I know named craig (who is tall and black) was talking to this other guy I know who is like a squirmy. ok so craig walks into the room and squirmy immeditely says "do you play basketball?" and then craig is like "sometimes" and then squirmy goes "do you like fried chicken?" and craig has a blank face and he says "are you just asking me this became im black?" what squirmy says next was bordeline unbeleivable so im not going to post it.

Craig wasn't mad and he didn't have to respond that way- but he wanted to. Once you respond to the question "how do i look ?" with the answer " The only thing i want to see you wear is an apron since I want you to spend all your time in the kitchen" then like whatever but anything she says after that should be fair game just like craig I couldve said nothing but I wanted to.

Ok so then el timon chimes in and hes all like its not always about you....WTF
How is that a response??? what was I supposed to type:

"No, jmakin I do not beleive the tears of gays are what makes chick fila so delicious. I think it is the quality of the chicken as compared to other fast food joints." so as to not violate whatever is happening in el timons head to make him think Im the bad person in this exchange??


and then predictable no one in the ootlc thread disagreed with him. I wanted to yell at him but I couldnt became it would play into what ever game he is doing. people in the ootlc thread are playing some weird games.

1) You should not post in the OOTlc thread
2) If you post in the OOTlc thread, do not let jmakin rustle you. He is a sad and maladjusted person
3) I do not know of a timon, but you are cooler than him, so do not let him rustle you
4) I think the quality of the chicken as compared to other fast food joints makes chic fila so delicious
x) thanks for updating your blog after 6 months