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Originally Posted by Unguarded
Elo, real talk... not trying to troll you. But I highly recommend just keeping the money instead of attempting a comeback. If possible, have the money mailed or wired to you. If you have to go get it in person, I think it would be a good idea to have La Peste or someone else who has your back pick you up at the airport, take you to the cage, and drop you back off at the airport when you are done. 10k is serious money when you are broke. It's a quality used car, half of a college education, a year's rent, etc.
The fact of the matter is that you somehow repeatedly went busto at Commerce and on Bovada in some very soft games despite being very well off on Black Friday. Imo, that is all you really need to know. It is overwhelming evidence that you are a losing player. If you do insist on coming back, please bust your ass addressing the holes in your game... tilt, bankroll management, ego management, non-existent study habits, playing when exhausted, taking better care of your health, etc.
There's a reason you are so well liked and considered the GOAT LHE poster. It's because your awesomeness transcends poker in so many different ways. Your poker career is only a very tiny part of who you are. Your writing skills, sense of humor, heart, kindness, intelligence, and insight make you the Elo the community loves so much. You could never play another hand of poker and you would still be a legend in the LHE world. Why not just be you and let go of the degen tilt monkey angle? You don't need the crutch.
I suppose now is the time at which the degen makes excuses for losing his money. Excuses such as: "I did fine BB/100-wise but lost my ass in big games", "I lived in a very expensive apartment by myself, which drained my roll", "Uncle Sam took like 150k from me", "I don't live within driving distance of many good games, so transportation and lodging costs are significant", "I didn't 'repeatedly' went busto, I only went busto once", etc. etc.
These excuses seem valid to me, but it's highly possible that I'm not looking at it objectively. I don't know. The leaks in my game that you mention are certainly valid, though, there's no doubt. All of them, with the possible exception of ego. I never thought I was anything too great, I just liked to play with the best players. Is that ego, or merely an irrationally competitive spirit? Regardless, I agree with your larger point.
I really miss the romantic aspect of poker. Chess is a superior game, but it's very, I don't know, concrete. I like the idea of throwing myself into the bear-infested woods armed with nothing but a knife. The bears can even be equipped with HUDs or what-have-you, it's all good. I am ready to fight, to scratch, to claw, to stab, to bite. In chess, it's just like, "oh, I'm rated 2100 and you are 2500, ok, I'm going to lose 98.723% of the time". Poker is much more mysterious. I'm emotionally invested in that more so than I am the desire to get rich again. I'm not sure if you QUANTS can understand
A serious issue here is the lack of palatable alternatives. I hated school on my first go-around, and I would likely snap tilt-quit a high percentage of the time.
I think I'd rather be a non-broke non-legend than a broke legend. Jean-Robert Bellande is a fun guy and the world is better off with people like him in it, but I'd much rather be someone like Sauce123 or whoever the stud du jour is in 2016.
They're sending me a check. It should be here within a few days. I agree that it's a good thing I don't have to go to LA to pick it up.
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Originally Posted by boc4life
What Unguarded said is mostly true and good advice. The days of the lovable degenerate tilt monkey who still emerges victorious in the end are over.
If you do get back into poker with this money Elo, please take it seriously and hold yourself accountable for your decisions. Don't just blast the money off and wind up broke a week later.
Indeed, the bolded concerns me greatly. Perhaps I can hold steady until harrahspoker.com or whatever opens up and all the live-fish deposit.
If I could stick to a legitimate bankroll management scheme, I think I'll be fine. Of course, that's something I have NEVER been able to achieve ... but hope springs eternal!
Last edited by STFUDonnie; 04-29-2016 at 02:06 PM.