So I spent an amazing night with an incredibly beautiful girl who cheated on her bf with me ... I actually met her bf and smoked a blunt with him but she told him I was gay. She's like exactly like me only a girl. She's bi, kinky and slutty, we both get off on each other fooling around with other people, like the same music, she's an incredibly talented photographer ...
So she's been with this guy for like 5 months and they were planning on getting married but as I understand it, he was yelling his x's name in his sleep asking if they were gonna have sex, and he still talks to her and I guess she talks **** about the girl I'm talking about.
She's ****ing drug running for some mexican drug dealer.
anyway so now I'm all ****ed up about this god damn girl now. I wanna be with her but she's still with that guy I smoked a blunt with who is actually an ok guy but chronically depressed and suicidal and ****, and idk if it could work with her or not, partly because she has kids.
sigh
I feel like true ****ing happiness is impossible for me