I know exactly how you feel. I was a 1k-5knl reg pre-black friday. I went on a major downsing right before black friday, and was left with like 25k after that plus ftp/ub robbing everyone, plus some real life ****. I lost all of that 25k playing 10/25 live because i couldnt accept that it was over and that was the money i had left and no more. So i borrowed 3k from my brother, went to canada and started over at 100nl, and things have worked out since.

It seems like you know that u just have to accept that whatever money you have is now your roll, and stop living in the past. Id recomend setting small goals, like when i get to X amount ill be able to play X stake, and i want to be there by X date. That helped my mindset a lot. Im sure being a former hsnl player, youll have a sick winrate, and be able to climb back quicker than you think.

Realize what you do is not who you are.

idk who told you that, but what you do is exactly who you are...

Those words weren’t meant to be interpreted the way you did.

lol

Move (back) up to where they respect your raises

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wOlTdkYXuzE

dogishead

Impulse buy something stupid and let it collect dust.

Most poker players do not have 500K, nor do they have your skills OP. You are better off than most players.

I think you should evaluate the entire way you think about the world. How about appreciating the fact that you were ever even able to have a bank roll of that size? I don't think you will ever get it back if you can't appreciate some of the simple things you are clearly taking for granted in your daily life.

What I'm really getting at is that it's easy to think of such a loss as devastating and life ruining when we forget that we use fresh water to flush our toilets. Water that is high enough quality to drink....
So many around the world do not have near the luxurious lifestyles as even a low stakes grinder. So if you think you've suffered some sort of loss think again. Opportunity is all around you, you just need to listen to the world and move forward. Things happen for a reason.

Read 'The Alchemist' and 'Outliers' in that order.
Two fabulous books that might really help you find your energy again and help you harmonize with the world around you.

Good Luck

We are where we are today... work with what you've got.

Ask Jared

Kidding.

I'm not a shrink, but I can offer that when I've dwelled on losses, it's usually because there were other areas of my life that I wasn't feeling happy about, be they relationships, finances, employment, whatever. I'd throw a pity party about the money, but it wasn't really about the money...it was largely because I'd use my poker winnings as a psychological bandaid to compensate for other aspects of my life I was too cowardly to face head-on. e.g. "Yeah, I'm stuck in a crappy relationship, but who cares: I made $15K this week!"...take away that $15K and all I'm left with is a crappy relationship...so almost as an ego defense mechanism, I'd lament the lost $15K so I didn't have to face the fact that I was too cowardly to address the real problems in my life.

I don't know you, OP, but look at the other things you do or do not have going for you...if you were in an awesome relationship, with loving friends and family, feeling adequately challenged by your employment, and in a state of spiritual fulfillment, I doubt you'd be grieving the loss of a piggy bank, even a substantial one. p.s. if you can tell me how to get all of those things, i'd appreciate it.

great advice guys. OP, GL I'm sure you'll get there