Originally Posted by ACEvivKING
Ive been smoking weed every day since I was 17. Im now 27. Pot is also half of my income. Ive tried to quit a bunch of times. But when Im sober it feels like I have servere ADD or something. I cant concentrate on anything. When I smoke I feel "normal" and everything is more interesting. Its mot like I can just not buy anymore. When I wake up I can smell the weed through my safe. Everyone I know smokes. Everyone I know comes to me for weed. I feel like my only chance to quit is to stop selling and get a whole new group of friends. This seems daunting and a little extreme. Any real pot heads ITT that have quit successfully? Im not talking smoking once a day. Any advice would be great. Im sober as Im writing this so sorry if its all over the place.
My experience of going clean from weed was that after a very brief period of time, I'd say like 7 days, I had no craving for it at all, and started to feel really good. Kind of sharper and cleaner. I even won a Karate tournament that was kind of a big deal for me, and I hadn't smoked in a week as I recall.
So then, the fact that I WASN'T smoking weed started to boost my self-esteem, like, I feel good because I'm getting these impurities out of my system and "getting back to myself." Of course I was getting really extreme into yoga at the same time in the ashram, so, that is a different scenario. But I definitely felt good that I wasn't smoking it. It wasn't like "do it" or "don't do it" but just more that I felt like it was clearing out of my system, and so I was building up my purity with time, so that felt good. I know it supposedly takes like 6 months to clear THC from fat and nerve cells or whatever.
I will say that over the course of that first year, and maybe 2nd year or even longer, hard to say exactly, but there were times when I was more tired or irritable... especially like irritable sometimes. It's like my mind was recalibrating to reality, while simultaneously my cognition was altering by not being run through this weed/THC filter any more. If that makes any sense.
Since then, I haven't felt like smoking it. My ex GF smoked all the time, I would just leave the room, she smokes, then I **** her. Or I get out of the car, she smoked, we go to the movies. or whatever. I got heavily involved in computer programming and became a total code monkey, as well as some other things, and so now I wouldn't smoke because I feel like it would **** up my multi-dimensional thinking abilities or whatever, my high level logic or whatever. I've sometimes wondered if smoking would inspire me or shake out the cobwebs and give me some awesome insight, but looking back, in my teens it ultimately did no such thing, I was just watching TV and tripping out, or boning some white cotton panties for two hours thinking I was rocketing to mars or whatever.
Minus the weed, everything is the same, but I just have a better handle on everything, and I don't have these weird solipsisms or "ugggghhhhhh" like heavy head rushes or whatever where I'm just going "woooweeeee." For me, everything is better without weed, and although I think it is a fine drug and should be legal, I'm just at a place where I for sure wouldn't do it, because it wouldn't help me and seems to have a very complex distorting effect of some kind. Even if I was 90 I really doubt I'd do it, even if I was dying, ugggh, that just seems like a very scary and not fun trip. Be all high and look in the mirror and say "****, I am 90" or whatever, then watch teletubbies and go "whoa, dude."
But yeah... I don't know if that helps at all, and sorry it was kinda rambling. I haven't smoked in 20+ years, and it doesn't even cross my mind. I will have a few drinks now and then.
I do have a bit of interest in "nootropic" nutrients, for instance I like lecithin and choline/inositol. I've tried the more concentrated phosphatidlycholine, and the alpha GPC, which both I thought were good mental stamina boosters. I've heard about others, for instance Piracetem, which sound beneficial, however I am very, very cautious about taking anything which could affect my neural receptors or enzymes, or alter the neuro-chemical balance of my system or whatever. As long as I know it will just was clean and is natural, then I am ok with it; there are some new nutrients being concentrated, but I'm always slow to try new things. I would never do adderall or ritalin or that stuff; like there is always a cost I think, the energy isn't in the powder it is in you. I see some players in vegas and their pupils are so dilated, I mean, fine, go for it, but you are ****ing around with your brain. I wouldn't do it.