Re: DELDAR182
 

Very interesting- you certainly don`t have much of an ego... the phrase "It`s just a grind" is the one that strikes out at me-the fact u don`t have a higher limit to move up to is the reason for this sentence, and no doubt tells us a lot about ur attitude towards poker- exactly what I don`t know, but obviously there are less things to motivate you to play now.

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i seriously doubt American college is any better than Australian universities in terms of having a great time. i have been to two unis here and have had an absolute ball, honestly if you just want to have a great time go to university, it really is a great way to spend 3+ years.

honestly it is a little worrying that you think it is like high school, and you made no new friends, for me, clearly you will get the most enjoyment from life from the great relationships you make. btw, i would seriously never tell anyone you are a millionaire at uni.

i loved uni so much i have gone back again for 3 more years after being there already for 4, and to all those that think that it sucks to be working some dead end job to get money to live at uni, really, really miss the whole point. i have played poker for a while, and it has made me money, at least enough to live but i have also worked to pay for life, and working in a bar or something is great, you meet heaps of people, party and girls are everywhere.

thinking that uni life is hard or sucks is just ridiculous, i think hs players are clearly talented, but it's not the greatest thing in the world, and the fact that so many think that just ordinary life sucks are just missing the point completely. it is this case that eventually ends in you feeling that emptiness that you feel now, and i can guarantee anyone that went to uni and has given it a good go, even if they never use their degree will tell you it was one of the greatest periods in their life. the course you take is really unimportant, but you are going to have to make an effort to meet people.

so my final advice is head back to uni and immerse yourself in it, travel in the 3 months we get off over christmas and meet as many people as possible, because in the end, it's the people that matter.

Re: DELDAR182
 

Deldar,

You wouldn't remember me but we played 10/20 a few nights in a row at crown when some tournys were on a while back, someone pointed out "that Deldar guy who has won infinite online".

I remember about 2-3 years ago i had been living in Melbourne for 6 months - 1 year and went through a bit of a downswing, the money wasn't the issue, i didn't have to cut back on anything i liked to do but i remember sitting in my apartment with this feeling like my world was collapsing and wtf was i doing in Melbourne anyway. I had a chat to Jay (Seabeast) and all he basically said was "When you make poker, or anything for that matter, your entire life and that one thing goes bad of course its going to feel like everything sucks". I thought about it for a while but had no idea what i was going to do so i had other things going on, upto that point i was happy playing lots of poker so didn't really know what else to do.

Eventually i met some other friends and figured out a pretty good way to find things to get into. Your 20 at the moment, take a look around at all the dudes in the world who are 30-40 and just pick all the things you want to do be able to do/have going etc at that point in your life. Look at dudes who seem to have there life together and going well and pick all the things they have that you want to do and start working toward it.

Look a dude like PA and you might think "yep, i want to in shape, loaded, and live in a place like Monaco, but i dont want to be married with a kid at that stage". Well, i shape means starting going to the gym/eating certain ways etc, loaded you seem to have sorted but if not you have poker there.

Just keep doing this. You might want to go live have lived in 5-10 different countries by the time your 40 and of all the people in the world 20 something poker players with no wife/kids/serious girl are able to do it.

You'll eventually start adding things here and there and soon enough you've got all this stuff going on. The examples ive used are things that i want to do/have done etc when I'm 35-40 but everyone has there own. Just figure out what yours are and go with it.

Re: DELDAR182
 

you could also just find a new intellectual pursuit, it doesn't seem like your personality fits well with being idle.

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Deldar it ****s me to think that you and I were playing poker pro, the stupid ass $50 buyin on a 0.5/0.1 game...around 2 years ago together.

I actually didnt know you were that guy until i saw a pic of you. I was shocked to learn that the super succesful Deldar is the veyr same skinny, jewish geek i used to play $50 games with at crown.

Im super jealous of your success. In the same time i went from 0.5/0.1 to nl1k, you went to like nl100k or something. It sickens me. And i hate you. So much.

Having said that, you're not the first person to question the viability of poker. You're not the first succesful, or highly succesful player to question it either. Poker is full of varience, poker is full of bull****, but at the end of the day, would u rather sit in an office and grding accounting paperwork for 1/100th the salary?

Take a break from online poker. Play some live poker. Relax, have a drink, kick back. You have money, you have skill, your on a downswing, you can afford it...**** it. Your young and loaded...take a break. Come paly 5/10 at crown, i heard u dont give a **** and donate like a mother ****er! I could use the money.

Re: DELDAR182
 

downswing is a bit exaggerating according to his PTR, he seems to be on a break-even stretch :).

Re: DELDAR182
 

FTP buddy

Re: DELDAR182
 

do you play chess? i'm sure you'd love it.

Re: DELDAR182
 

Yeah, you're right. You probably have a better perspective of whether or not hes in a downswing than he does. Why don't you go back to nuthugging isildur some more.

Re: DELDAR182
 

How do you possibly expect anyone to take you seriously? Jeez man, just don't post next time...

Been meaning to visit South America, will probably fit that in this year- ty for advice as well :)
I will start playing deeper when my skillz increase... only willing to play 10/20 deep, 25/50 lose money too fast :)
I kind of feel like this could be an issue too. Will shifting your skills to a different field and excelling in it really give you a new high?
I'm not sure myself.
Thats true, about making money again. That's why I think now is a good time to start seriously thinking about things.

Re: DELDAR182
 

get into tournaments

Re: DELDAR182
 

i don't really buy this

what's a normal life and how is poker interfering?

Re: DELDAR182
 

Super talented/naturally gifted poker player but also spoilt rich kid and Jewish to boot, who cant take losing. There is a god!

Jokes aside mate, stop playin for a bit, relax, chill, dont think about poker for like a month or 2 , go for a run every morning, read some books that realy appeal to your interest *not poker related obv* and have a clear mind before u make big life decisions.

Look at it this way, you're young and very wealthy and have a **** load of options. Alot of people work all their life for ****all, or ever yr for a 7 day holiday in magaluf, be grateful for what you have, don't get hung up on a game when you're as successful as you are , and don't aspire to be the best at poker as long as ivey is alive.

Re: DELDAR182
 

http://www.texasholdem-poker.com/forum/

THP is the forum I went to when I first started looking for pokers help online, so some of the early posts are quite comical :)

Glad I stuck to it, looks like I may have been a bit wavery at the start.

Later I just used it to post lol hands and stuff

*** HOLE CARDS ***
Dealt to H [Ah 3h]
: folds
V: raises $100 to $150
H: raises $350 to $500
: folds
: folds
: folds
: folds
V: calls $350
*** FLOP *** [9h Js Jh]
V: bets $350
H: raises $500 to $850
V: raises $500 to $1350
H: raises $500 to $1850
V: raises $500 to $2350
H: raises $2150 to $4500 and is all-in
V: folds
Uncalled bet ($2150) returned to H
H collected $5772 from pot

Here's one that caught my eye, games were good fun back then. (was always careful not to reveal my name when I was starting out, I don't know why)

haha, I remember this. That was back in the Sweet.Kr days. God I miss that guy.
This is actually a pretty cool idea, and sounds rewarding and stimulating- I have had an interest in cooking since I was super young. I definitely have been planning to further this when I return home or settle down somewhere for a span of a few months.
Heh yeah true- I didn't necessarily mean travelling in the busto-est of fashions.

Re: DELDAR182
 

I would suggest reading Nietzsche

Re: DELDAR182
 

do not read anything by him imo.

Re: DELDAR182
 

This is personal to myself. Right now I'd say I'm in grind mode, my focus in life is 100% poker. Between the amount of hours I am trying to put in and the swings that I go through it is hard for me to have enough will power or energy to be really interested in anything else. My daily routine is; wakeup, eat, poker, workout, eat, relax, sleep. There really isn't time or the willing for there to be anything else in my life right now, so it is horribly imbalanced. Every day I try more to add different things, however I am genuinely concerned with trying to dedicate myself 100% to poker so that I can start to get out of it. It might not be the best way to approach things but its working for me and I don't have another plan, so for the time being thats what it is and hopefully in time it will become more balanced and professional poker will be phased out and I can just be plainly recreational.

Anyway the word normal should be substituted for balance, and it is entirely specific to myself as my life is horribly imbalanced.


The vibe I get from you, based solely on how much you play online is that you are far more balanced in your life so you do lead what I would consider a "normal" life.

Re: DELDAR182
 

go to thailand imo

Re: DELDAR182
 

Mentalities like this help explain the predicament that OP is in and why he's depressed/unfulfilled. The money would have a lot more value if people had a life to go along with it. Get hobbies. Get in the weight room. Make friends. etc.

Re: DELDAR182
 

If you want a new game to learn, I'd go with bridge. It's much harder/more complicated with poker, and you'll never be good enough to the point where you'll want to quit because you've conquered it.

Re: DELDAR182
 

Reading this, I thought to myself,

"Yeah. When I can go pro, life will be sweet! Wait. I wouldn't realise it then. Maybe my life is sweet now? *HEAD ASPLODE*"

I'll leave out every detail to avoid risk of getting OT, but at the very least, this thread has helped one person get a better perspective for themselves.

Re: DELDAR182
 

oh god anything but this

Re: DELDAR182
 

omfg acesVSmuck i have never lol'ed so hard at a gif before in my life, wp sir.

Re: DELDAR182
 

why? Cliffs on him please. I know he was a philosopher, but what? was he shamed and his theories proven wrong or something?

Re: DELDAR182
 

lol, yeah this is one of the hands i remember and was just like WTF???

yeah i used to post there b4 coming to 2+2. i remember thinking you were god as all athe other posters were like 1/2 grinders and you were crushing 25/50 haha. i figured it must be you as i remember that miaow(you) was an aussie scrabble master that played high stakes. how many australians play high stakes poker and crush scrabble? 1 haha