This is just something that bothers me, maybe someone out there can shed some light:
I had a distant, substance-abusey father (he is dead).
I am gay, so I basically fit right into Freud's hand. I can see a lot of that is BS and sufficiently debunked at this point, but I still harbor some weird feelings about this. I'm guessing this is just me being crazy (but that **** runs in the family, yadig?)
The second part is my attraction to men who are usually much older. I feel like I just insta get labeled with Daddy issues and people think I'm just messed up / looking for father figure. I can pretty much always remember my attraction leaning to the same type of man, but I'm mildly dating someone for the first time, and it is getting more serious. I feel like I must figure out things before I can love and all that bull****, otherwise I'm just pathetically messy and blech.