old post - OP - nice nice nice - i saw the post several times but did not read it as it was too long - now i did, and somehow, yeah. it is good to suck at poker, if you know why, bad if you do not know why....
i now made real big money
in over 2 years...some 3k i guess only...spent thousands of hours, making a ridiculous amount in terms of hourly rate.
but still - THIS is THE game - it is so extremely difficult in different areas, making it interesting to me..so i stick to it without dreams to win some decent amounts anymore. i just play and try my best, hopefully i will be able some day to make enough money to pay my depths with it
..but, the long run is longer, even longer than you and me are thinking....looooooooooooong, but on the other hand one never knows to find a short cut just around the corner