I chronicled my rather colorful past in a previous thread. I used to play fulltime but never went anywhere due to my lifestyle habits that turned into addictions. As a result of that, I found myself in various kinds of trouble - financially, legally, and physically. I want this thread to be a daily (as often as possible) journal. I will concentrate on poker primarily, but include fitness and my overall mental health.
Short Poker Bio:
I started playing earlier this year after depositing $500 onto a site. I was working fulltime as a chef but managed to get hands in during my off hours. In April, I tore my ACL and had surgery, which gave me the opportunity to try playing fulltime again. I never went back to my job. I'll include a shot of my stats since part of June. Its missing exactly 3.6k in profits because of problems I've had with my site's hand histories. I want to hold myself accountable, so I will include my daily progress via a screenshot of my HEM stats for the day. I don't have monetary goals for the year but may include them down the road.
Poker Goals:
A)
Be accountable and focused while playing. I have the tendency to go into autopilot and just play a bunch of hands. During these times I don't play my A game and am cruising mentally. I am not thinking things through, I'm dicking around browsing, I'm skyping, I'm watching youtube videos - I'm not playing like I should be. I believe this is a side effect of a major personality defect of mine, which is the tendency to not focus completely on the task at hand and to let my mind wander. I have read and subsequently really gotten into the "The Power of Now" type-thinking (and self-improvement through its implementation), and I want to stay present while playing.
B)
I want to take more time with decisions. When I go into autopilot mode I fast click and don't think decisions through.
C)
Eliminate Tilt. I go on monkey tilt when things aren't going well. It always goes hand in hand when I'm not on my A mental game. I am by nature an impulsive person with anger that comes out strongly. I want to completely eliminate this from how I act.
Fitness Goals:
By the end of August, I want to be in great shape. I am already in good shape, but I want to lose around 5% bodyfat (currently 12%) and increase muscle size, definition, and symmetry. I want to chronicle my daily workout routine and do a quick synopsis of how well I eat each day.
Tools I Want to Implement
A)
Session Review and marking hands: I want to include a few hands/day in the thread.
B)
Implement a No Distraction Rule. Constantly reminding myself that I'm lucky enough to have this as my job, and to constantly keep in mind that the effort I put into this is the determining factor for success.
C)
Player note more often. I used to be always playernoting, and it showed in my winrate. I have slacked off, and want to start doing it constantly once again.
Daily General Wellness:
A)
Meditation: 10 minutes each morning, to increase as I get better at it.
B)
Yoga: Start with 1 session a week.
C)
Therapy: I talk to a therapist once a week, for one hour.
D)
Lifting: I work out every day. I focus on 1 or 2 body parts per day, and use a superset system I've found to the most efficient way to attain my goals.
E)
This Thread: I have what's been diagnosed as generalized anxiety disorder (which I've dealt with since I was a kid) and mild PTSD due to the extreme stress I placed on my brain during the "bad years". I have been able to make great strides with these things due to the work I've put into getting better. I want to continue to do this. However, IMO the life of an online poker player, if not done correctly, can be the least conducive environment for treating and eventually eliminating the symptoms of these issues. I strongly believe that I can overcome my issues through strict adherence to an all-encompassing wellness plan that I have slowly been implementing into my life over the last 2 years. I also STRONGLY believe (contrary to what many would think) that as a motivated person, one can make life as an online poker player the perfect enviroment to incorporate a wellness plan and prove how discipline and planning can truly improve one's overall quality of life, and in turn directly improve one's poker performance.
In closing, I am excited to do this thread as a tool to help motivate myself. I think that it will help me greatly in that it will make me more responsible, and by putting my results and goals on paper I will be forced to hold myself accountable for how I play and live my life on a daily basis.
Any feedback/support will be fully appreciated, and I will answer any questions. Thanks!
Last edited by clydetheglide; 07-20-2014 at 01:04 PM.