^^ Wooww..nice comeback :thumbup:

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No grind yesterday as we are in the process of moving everything over to the flat. Got the most important thing sorted first

Super bad session, tilted off way more than I should have. Played a few small MTTs as I couldn't sleep (got no bed yet so on a sofa that's not big enough), busted those in ridiculous fashion and had a massive fish playing me at 1/2 HU CAP. Got a few BI from him before he reloaded and ran like god, winning 11 straight all ins. Decided to play some 2/4 CAP where I lost a flip and some 2/4 100bb where I lost a 1.1k pot AQss < 99 all in on a 553ss flop, bricked everything and 66 < AQs aipf. Was really stupid to play that high and I have since reduced my limits but have ran absolutely ****ing terrible today.

As you can imagine the roll is quite a lot lower than before, but going to get back on the MTT grind (solely) once I get the chance, moving places has interrupted this so much and it's really frustrating. Still got the ~$900 that I've withdrawn in the past week or so to pay for the rent so it's not all doom and gloom, just have to play some lower stakes than I'd planned.

Had an email that I had a £100 bonus in a betting acc so messed about with that for a bit on sports/blackjack. Ended up withdrawing the £100 and having £220 in bets with the profit. Got £100 on Barcelona -2.5 and Bayern Munich -2.5 to return £290 I think. Also got £30 on some over/unders in the Premier League and a £90 ten-fold home favourites in the English lower leagues returning £9k or something. One time! Going to close the account after these bets come in though, don't really want to get back into betting.

Time for an update I guess. Been a pretty mental week in terms of swings, I came 30th in the hot 11 after losing a pot for the CL, I finished 20th in the big 22 after losing 52 < 74 on 752 and the roll was crushed to about $1-1.2k, I had the weight of bills/rent for next month on my mind and I was honestly starting to wonder what the point of anything was. I felt like I would never make any money from MTTs again and I was getting so down that I wanted to just withdraw my roll and be done with it.

I had a good chat with my gf in order to clear any financial worries (she could cover the rent/bills for a couple of months if I went busto) and a good friend of mine that plays poker in which he convinced me that it was only a matter of time before I started turning those nearly moments into FT's/wins, so I decided to just grind some MTTs with a fresh head, try and play my best and see what happens. I also moved some of my action onto FTP as they have smaller fields so less variance.

Anyway, in about 12 tournaments I made 6 FT's which was crazy although I didn't manage to win any. Lost HU despite having a 8-1 CL in one where he had tens and queens back to back before turning a 7 with T7 on a T42 vs my KT. I think I had 2 2nds, 2 3rds a 4th and a 9th turning the $1.2k into $3.8k. It's crazy what a bit of run good does for confidence!

I had a $10 bet limit on my Stars account (didn't really place any bets, just the odd Saturday football accumulator) but found that if you do a lucky 31 bet, it'll let you do 31 x $10 bets so stupidly did a couple of those and some other small stuff. Felt that Leicester were great value away at Swansea, also backed Brentford, Notts Forest, Dover and Cheltenham all at home and all 5 won returning $2.2k or something. Quickly banned sports betting on Stars so that didn't happen again and now have a $5k roll to work with. Happy days.

Edit: Almost forgot to mention that I hit a 200x spin at the 30s but lost 55 vs AQ with a river Q, puke! Got $600 for my troubles which quickly vanished when grinding MTTs/spins/satellites. Next time...

Not even sure if anyone's reading anymore but had a terrible MTT session today, didn't cash a thing in 20 tournaments and also played some EPT satellites and the less said the better. Dropped about 2k in total from that.

Decided to grind some HUSNGs after and the great day continued /sarcasm

That's sick bro..maybe you need some time out of the table..and regain the confident or whatever to come back sharp..

Goodluck

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Cheers man. It's all good, I wanted to have a big Sunday sesh but obviously wasn't expecting it to go quite that badly, lost 6 flips in $100+ MTTs without winning one which was pretty tilting but I felt the HU grind went well EV wise and I was really happy with how I played even if the results weren't great.

Going to try and put in a big grind today if the traffic is there.

If I never see a HUSNG again, it'll be too soon! Stuck to my word and have been grinding for pretty much 13 hours bar a break for food. Unfortunately could only get 1 table for a big part of the session but was playing all fish until near the end when a **** reg decided to 4 table me because he wanted the lobby. He ran ridiculously hot in card dist (hence the EV drop) but I managed to turn it round in the end. Feels so good to make $1k with a $25 average buy in.

GL op!
Degens gonna degen

Haha tell me about it! Thanks.

I am wishing you all the best! I am 27 years old now, when I turned 21 I went to Vegas for what was suppose to be a long weekend trip. I live completely across the country on the east coast. I had worked very hard for the money I had saved up and Vegas got a hold of me QUICK!

When all my friends flew back home, I decided I didn't care about my ticket back I was staying. I hated my job and had nothing to go home to, why not? Bad decision at the time. I ended up getting hooked to house games etc. When I lost money I would always try to chase it back with a higher bet. I ended up losing everything, had nowhere to stay and literally without a dime to my name.

I could of easily picked up the phone and called for help back home. But I put myself in that position and due to pride and ego I didn't. I rode the bus countless nights just to get out of the cold to catch some sleep when sleeping outside wasn't a possibility, slept in the homeless shelter for months. I was literally at rock bottom with an addiction.

Fast forward years down the road I found poker. I am a consistent winner at $1-$2NL live and back in those days if I had a dollar in my pocket I would of threw it on the roulette wheel, or a hand of blackjack, I knew I had an addiction but it was that feeling of knowing everything was on the line and it was make it or break it that brought me that adrenaline rush.

Now losing everything and knowing what that feeling is like, I guess I can consider myself one of the lucky ones. I never got help, I just remember that feeling of sleeping outside, without a penny to my name and I swore to myself I would never get to that point EVER again.

To say I don't play blackjack or house games would be a straight lie. But I have learned from losing it all and having nothing the gamble just isn't worth it. You aren't going to beat the house, the odds are always stacked against you so if you MUST play...Do it the smart way, it's for entertainment purposes but it could end up wrecking your life if you let it.

Please feel free to PM me if you ever need someone or advice because trust me, I of all people know what it's like to of been a degenerate at one point. Do I know all to well..

Wow, thanks for your post. I can relate to a lot of what you said (not the homeless bit fortunately) and at the height of my addiction I would steal almost anything I could get my hands on just to have another go at roulette or whatever. Luckily, I'm more of a binge gambler now which is probably just as dangerous but sees me able to live the majority of my days gamble free and poker definitely suppresses the urge. I do know however how dangerous it is when I take that first bet or first spin of the roulette wheel as it's normally a good few days before I'm able to get it out of my system, generally when broke.

My results yesterday gave me a lot of confidence that I still have a big edge in the games and that there is still good money to be made. I definitely want to transition into a full time MTT pro someday but I just don't have the roll at the moment to be playing what I want. I will definitely PM you sometime, good luck with everything.

Great read, prepare mentally for that incoming DS tho

Thanks mate.

Laugh all you like, you are the owner of one of the worst threads in the history of 2p2. You claim to have withdrawn 24k this year but you're scared to play more than 3 games at the $10 level in a Hu4rollz challenge you issued over a year ago. I'd much rather be me than live a life full of pathetic lies like yours.

For those who haven't seen it, check out his BBV thread.

Late to the party but I just wanna say best of luck in your endeavor and I hope you succeed.

Based on the posts I've read in this thread so far (still on page 2 right now) it seems like you really know what you're doing despite being a compulsive gambler, hope the good progress continues

Never too late to the party! Appreciate the support though. There were some posts deleted early in the thread because of a troll so it may not all make sense (I've never read it back) but I hope you enjoy the swings.

You are exactly right! It's funny in a twisted sense of way, I think poker saved me from a compulsive addiction. You hit the nail on the head, it suppresses and eliminates the urge, like I said I think being a compulsive gambler you have that thought in the back of your head you can beat the house, it's only a matter of time. But in reality the odds are always stacked against you.

In poker there is no house edge (although variance), but the point I am trying to get at since I found poker it's like I found that game I can win long term at and now when I walk across the casino floor I don't have that must bet urge and it's a great feeling.

Again I do play house games but it's under the right conditions and circumstances. I do it for the room and food comp sake since poker doesn't. But the one thing I can tell you for a FACT I don't do it for anymore is the gamble!

Just wanna say best of luck ! Im mostly a lurker but i just finish reading your thread and i hope you succeed!

It's a tough one because I obviously have family members that don't understand the difference between grinding HUSNG's you're rolled for and punting thousands on animals running across a field, but that's understandable. Luckily for me my gf allows me to play poker and realises the positives that come with it as well as the negatives. It's nice to be able to grind comfortably now that I'm not living at home and as a result I feel I play better as I'm not looking over my shoulder constantly.

I think having responsible gaming limits on my account is incredibly important and I'm very happy FTP have recently added those (albeit their limit is capped at $50 for SNGs which is stupid so you either have to limit yourself to the 50s or have 'play all' marked, doesn't help if I want to grind the 100s). Chasing losses is the biggest and most dangerous part for me, I've lost the thrill of gambling after many years but I'm never satisfied unless I'm even or generally unless I'm at the peak for the session. I really struggle with quitting if I was up $500 but now only $300 for example.

I admire the fact that you can do what you do and have control over it and although I feel much more in control these days, I'm not sure if we ever truly have control.

On a side note, I'm desperate to play some more live poker and ironically the club I used to play at every night (15 mins drive from my home) closed down just as I moved within walking distance! I've been looking at PCA/EPT sats but it gets very expensive if you don't bink something early on. The steps on Pokerstars are pretty soft but the higher ones don't run too often unfortunately.

Thanks dude! I want to add more content to the thread other than "this is how today went", but it's hard when I'm grinding HUSNG's with a small roll and nothing exciting is really happening. As mentioned above hopefully I'll play some live MTTs or bigger online tournaments and I can make the thread a bit more exciting.

Once again how do our stories sound so much alike! You said it perfectly. There is a HUGE difference between grinding it out (playing within your bankroll) than laying it all on the line on a horse/dog track, spin of the roulette wheel or blackjack! I am from a conservative southern family and they don't understand the difference. But like you said it's understandable but a HUGE difference.

I felt with how negative my family was it only caused me to play worse. So I started keeping track of my live play over a good amount of hours, showed them and said hey this is what I am doing this is how it works. Explained bankroll, variance and how you are going to have up and down days thus what bankroll is for and how it plays such an integral roll in your success.

Needless to say my father to this day still doesn't support it, thinks its NOTHING but "gambling" a flip of a coin when you and I both know what the true meaning behind gambling is. My mother however is nothing but supportive because she actually listened with an open mind.

I have lived on my own since I was 21 and although to this day my father doesn't support it or even want to hear about it and try to understand. His view on it now at least is you are going to do what you are going to do. Which is perfectly fine by me, we will just leave it at that!

Is that the thread he challenges Clevername HU4rollz? And then types that he didnt even want to do it?

Hey man just read the whole thread n wanted to say it's a great read.
You've had your ups n downs n some big losses for sure, but from your posts it seems you do have your head on straight (unlike some music enthusiasts..)
You're plenty young also mate so there was never gonna be a better time to get your full-on degen needs out. I'm sure you learned a few lessons from your mistakes so all is good.
Keep it up, have fun, but like my friend Kenny says know when to walk away. That's all.

How is OP doing ?