09-11-2015
, 12:16 PM
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, 04:44 AM
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, 07:20 AM
10-01-2015
, 04:12 AM
End of third quarter, just some random stuff…
I’m actually really happy about the more recent short sessions I’ve played. That’s because almost all of them have been during small windows of time that previously I would have just blown off. I’ve been trying to rush to the poker room if I can squeeze in at least a 3 hour session. And that’s good, because those opportunities happen with regularity and do add up.
It felt significant and I wanted to make note of it for future reference. A couple of days prior to this, I had, for me, a relatively big win. At the end of that session though, I did not feel I was playing my best and when I got home, I was only moderately happy despite the amount of financial gain. I am used to this, and have come to expect only a moderate amount of joy from winning. That’s why, when I came home from the session where ‘I made no mistakes’, it really stood out how I felt. I was pumped, I was excited, and it was a lot of fun. (I did win this day, but only a small amount.) For the longest time I’ve found poker to be lacking in terms of a source of positive emotions for me. At best, it’s been moderately fun. Is it possible that I will be able to draw greater satisfaction out of the game in this fashion? I have always tried to have making the best decisions be my goal. So it does make sense to be able to find satisfaction in that. I think the biggest factor in all this has been the mitigation of negative emotions. I’m still succeeding on that front, and I feel it’s making so much else possible.
I put in 190 hours during the third quarter, I’ll need 258 more to reach my goal. It’s going to be tough. As it is, I’ve said no to invitations from family and friends to go play poker instead. In my book, those are –lifeEV choices and won’t be repeated when this challenge is over. The way I feel about it at this moment, is to play as many hours of poker as I can get away with, without totally feeling bad about the time I’m not giving to the important people in my life and just see how many that ends up being. I might change my mind and really go for it, but at this point, I’m not sure that it’s worth it.
I’m actually really happy about the more recent short sessions I’ve played. That’s because almost all of them have been during small windows of time that previously I would have just blown off. I’ve been trying to rush to the poker room if I can squeeze in at least a 3 hour session. And that’s good, because those opportunities happen with regularity and do add up.
It felt significant and I wanted to make note of it for future reference. A couple of days prior to this, I had, for me, a relatively big win. At the end of that session though, I did not feel I was playing my best and when I got home, I was only moderately happy despite the amount of financial gain. I am used to this, and have come to expect only a moderate amount of joy from winning. That’s why, when I came home from the session where ‘I made no mistakes’, it really stood out how I felt. I was pumped, I was excited, and it was a lot of fun. (I did win this day, but only a small amount.) For the longest time I’ve found poker to be lacking in terms of a source of positive emotions for me. At best, it’s been moderately fun. Is it possible that I will be able to draw greater satisfaction out of the game in this fashion? I have always tried to have making the best decisions be my goal. So it does make sense to be able to find satisfaction in that. I think the biggest factor in all this has been the mitigation of negative emotions. I’m still succeeding on that front, and I feel it’s making so much else possible.
I put in 190 hours during the third quarter, I’ll need 258 more to reach my goal. It’s going to be tough. As it is, I’ve said no to invitations from family and friends to go play poker instead. In my book, those are –lifeEV choices and won’t be repeated when this challenge is over. The way I feel about it at this moment, is to play as many hours of poker as I can get away with, without totally feeling bad about the time I’m not giving to the important people in my life and just see how many that ends up being. I might change my mind and really go for it, but at this point, I’m not sure that it’s worth it.