Well let's just get this report over with, I scheduled it for Sunday but at the end of Sunday night i was too depressed to deal with it. Let me just put it this way, I'm obviously choosing the right area of my game that needs the most work!
The day I started the challenge stars lobby was frozen so right off the bat I had some bad luck, I handled it like a pro though and did the only natural responsible thing; I got ****faced. I was so hungover on the 3rd I put in one session and my brain was still pounding, I was making mistakes all over the place and timing out left and right. I figured I'd just chill and prepare for Saturday.
Saturday went well, I not only ran well but was running high in adj EV too, so i was feeling like a boss. Unfortunately, I started getting bored and my anxiety levels got too high, I went out to the pub with some friends and drank once again. It was a pretty awesome night, although I was too high on life at last call I ordered a pitcher that no one seemed to want, I was hoping to buy a couple of friends a few beers but I couldn't finish it myself, I was already pretty hammered. It was a sore sight, massive alcohol abuse, I was guilty. Personally it's so hard for me to stay in both Friday and Saturday night, there's just a buzz during those nights. It's brutal because usually the games are softest but the social environments those nights are the best too, so it's like you can either choose to soulcrush yourself by locking urself inside and play the role of scrouge when all your friends are calling u, trying to pull you out OR u can go out and waste some money, waste one of the best nights of the week for grinding and usually (for me at least) 50% of the next day recovering. The benefits are there though, fun, blow off some steam, maintain sanity ect ect. It's an on going battle I've been facing for years now. I kept hearing that motivational speech echo in my head over and over though, if you haven't heard I recommend you check it out. The football one here, it's slow but powerful.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lsSC2vx7zFQ
# of sngs this month so far = 464
Avg Sng/day = 93
Avg Sng/day needed at start of challenge = 345
Avg Sng/day needed now = 397
If this were grade 8, my report card would say F, 27% LOL
This is about the only positive thing I can report on here,
running well.
Last edited by Pokernubz; 02-06-2012 at 10:08 PM.