Moving on to April
End of the month, finished a bit on a downswing. But at the end of the day, made +/- 10k or so for the month and am continually improving. I'm constantly running GTO calculations and some of the outputs are very surprising to me. I'm actually over-barreling in spots and under-barreling in others because of a poor understanding that is improving every day.
I ran KK into AA in the Party 109 with 18 left, lost 99 to A8o with 11 left in the 888 Quarterback, and came close again to two solid scores. Looking over the month overall and it's just losing a lot of 30/70's, losing a lot of 80/20's, and losing a lot of 20/80's with QQ+. Tough cookies. More importantly, I made two pretty big errors within the parameters of my poker ability (I could have known better). But at the end of the day it's very hard to play perfect poker for 10 hours straight especially against tough players.
Also I had some tilt yesterday. I was very emotionally invested in the outcome of the Thrill and the end came quite suddenly. I lost a 10bb pot on button for a bounty, lost a 20+bb pot on button for a bounty, then got ITM and lost a 13bb pot jamming AJo UTG and losing to AA. It all happened within an orbit or so. After that I had the Quarterback and the Party 109 still left to focus on, but mentally they weren't the "main attractions" or something stupid so I kept loading $60+ sng's to fill 6 tables.
On honest reflection, I think one of my mistakes was due to "winner's tilt." I had been really just locked in and crushing my tables in the Party 500, Thrill, and Quarterback (close to chipleading all 3 at one point). And I took a pretty thin/bad spot versus a tough regular that crashed me down. It wasn't a terrible punt or anything but it was definitely a mistake. And probably due to some part to feeling aroused from the circumstances.
At 888, a regular got moved over for the last two tables. If I wasn't tired and a little deflated over the Thrill and a little more locked in, I would have Scope/Googled everyone at the table to make sure. This guy was showing 16/12 over 97 hands with a 2% 3bet. I just assumed it was a nitfish. And I made a really bad raise/fold against him with 11 left. Turns out this guy is one of the best guys out there and is crushing 888 at a 225 ABI.
Every edge matters. You can't sit there and beat yourself up over every little thing, especially when people are playing like hot doo-doo in every FT replay I open up. But every edge counts and I'll try to bring it harder in April. Old habits die hard but I really need to stop loading meaningless games when I'm deep in stuff, even if I think I can be focused fully. It's not like I was 12 tabling or anything, I was playing well below and had the tables dragged out. But 888's time bank sucks and I could have Scoped the table if I had been thinking better. I'll try to never make that mistake again, especially when I'm getting more tired near the end of the day.
Also on a side note, I do hope this blog doesn't come across as too melancholy or anything. It's going to be hard to sound super enthused or excited when I keep bubbling 10k 1st's, but my mind frame is actually pretty positive and I am enjoying life. I just try to have it capture my honest mentality. I feel like it's 2012 again. Just hungry to break out and stake my claim to this MTT game.
I'm hoping to balance my posting ranges and have a bunch of sunny stuff in the future along with some personal content
But as of now I'm just shacked up at my command station grinding hard.