For months, I grinded online with no understanding of bankroll management, doing things like 4 tabling $.25/.50 6 max with $300 in my account. Every now and again, I would sit for a hu sng with 1/3-1/10 my online roll, assuming that was standard. Again and again, I would double my bankroll only to crash down to busto shortly thereafter. I probably lost about $2,000 going through this cycle again and again and again, through deposits ranging from $50 to $200. Eventually, I realized something was going on other than bad luck. Still unsure what was responsible for my lack of success in online play, I found myself gradually gravitating away from 6 max and falling in love with hu sngs. This shift occurred for several reasons. First, I had gotten smashed at 6 max--a negative association had formed that was difficult to overcome psychologically. Second, I realized more and more that my greatest thrill in poker came from analyzing my opponent's starting hand and manipulating the flow of the hand occurring between us the most optimal way possible. Headsup offered this experience far more frequently, and allowed for much more creativity and loose play (I'm ridiculously loose by nature). Third, though I don't like this feature about myself, I've always been super competitive, and headsup simply appealed to the competitive spirit in me.
At first, I got crushed, just as I had been at 6 max. However, I couldn't get enough of hu sng action--every match was exhilarating, and I could sense myself learning rapidly. At some point, something clicked, and over something like a 500 game sample, as you'll see below, I became unstoppable. I remember almost never being wrong about an opponent's hand in big pots during this span--I was in the zone and followed where my sixth sense led me. At one point, I won 21 games in a row. ISuddenly, my graph over the 500 games looked livb-like. Despite all the hu sng success, I continued to play, and lose, at 6 max in NLHE and PLO, preventing me from moving up in hu sng stakes. At some point, I eventually cooled down, and found myself at a breakevenish stretch.
I took a break for a month after being almost broke irl (in anticipation of starting my job in January, at which, to be frank, I am now fortunate to be making a lot of $--I mention this because it is relevant later on, for reasons that will be explained). I returned to the hu sng grind and played below average for a couple hundred games. However, at some point, another revelation came, and I began to get hot again. My graph began spiking upward again at the livb rate over a fairly large sample size. For the first time ever, my online roll grew to 1k--it felt like a big achievement, despite the fact that in live play I have won many pots over that, in addition to several live tournaments. Finally I felt like I had a chance to succeed in online play. During the middle of this span, still not having much of an understanding of bankroll management, I decided I'd take a shot and play the $240 hu turbo Saturday afternoon tournament. I played, and outplayed, my first two opponents, a former FTOPS winner up 300k in mtt earnings and another guy who had 200k (a 110s reg) in earnings--those seemed like ridiculous #s to me at the time, and I was proud of myself. I lost the third match, one round away from the $, but I was proud of the effort and the knowledge that I could hold my own against highly successful regs. Shortly thereafter, I decided I'd go ahead and give the miniftops hu event a go. That day, I felt great, and was really excited about playing. I was nervous because I had played almost exclusively turbos and the tourney was normal paced, but I resolved to give it my best. The tournament went really well, and I ended up finishing 30/4196 for just under $1200, by far my biggest online cash ever. In addition to running hot, I also felt like I outplayed each of my opponents, except for the last, who I had built a 3.5-1 chip lead against us before being caught on a bluff where I had 25% equity after the flop. felt ****ty about losing, but then I felt a huge burst of pride. My account now had 1.8k, which would have seemed unfathomable to me months earlier.
Part two coming up...life graph below