Was running mega bad. Fortunately my opponents was doing a lot of mistakes. Today I am very very very happy with dealing with such a run. I was great at cutting losses and I even didn’t threw anything. Still I am a bit crushed with today’s session.
I think I’ll change gym to box. I really want to get in fight to make this whole frustration go away, that’s why I think I’ll change sport. It’s kind of funny that some guys will feel my cooler on their head
I want to get bigger etc. but I need to make this frustration go away in a first place. Still I am 90kg so it’s not that small.
Today at 2AM was talking with one chick. She was running away because she was scared…
Still we had a talk. I am afraid I need to learn few things over and over again… There is one chick and I shouldn’t meet with her… Last time my heart was bleeding when I needed to cut her off. She cancel our “date” for second time in a row and I won’t tolerate that BS. Still today she send me sms and she told me that she’s very into me. I told her I am into her too but I don’t like those plays. Long story short tomorrow she’s coming at my place to learn English…
I am afraid I’ll feel pain again and she’l l screw up something once again. Maybe I am stupid and lie to myself that when we both said each other we are into each other something different happen and she doesn’t screw it up. Anyway I am ready to feel pain once again if I need to, even though I am afraid of it I think it’s worth risk…