Quite impressive. Looking forward to follow.

Nice work. Looks like you're coming along pretty well with coaching !

GL man, greetings from Cracow

Awesome job, longer sessions seem to suit you. Keep it up.

@ViktorLuis

I am glad you'll follow

@spideysteve

Kind of

@Allatar

Damn Cracov. Beatifull place with beatifull women

@MrAbbertini

Yeah and I like them more. It's better to play only twice a day.




I am after meal and I need to wait hour or two to go to the gym. I have some free time but not enought for session at poker. That's why I decied to write today post ealier and do some mindset exercise. Prepare my warm up routine etc.

Today after session review I decided that I am warm up and I can't lose this opportunity so I sat down to play some poker:





It seems yesterday HM didn't add my last session. I had few collers. Guy with 62o in 4bet pot beat my pocket kings. Guy hit a Gutshot on the Turn and then I push my set. And two or three different sick actions it all happened in ten minutes. It was too much for me and I stoped thinking rationally. I just turned off session and go away from this. Now I am in great shape of mind and can't wait to go the gym and play again but it was smart that I gave up on playing even though I tried to play again 400 min session long. So close, yet so far.

Today I spoted great commercial. I don't always watch commercials but when I do they are f.cking awsome:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4C5SgA9d9gQ

why do you play Micros if you are a millionaire

btw you say millionaire you are talking about $ right?

I have a break from poker for next 48h when I'll deal with everything and I'll fix everything I'll let you know why I have this break. Tomorrow I'll put some photos how my work place changed in last few days.

This is how it was for few first days:

This is how it was for few days when I was fixing everything:


And now I can work here:

Damn it's 48 h without poker and I don't know what to do with myself. I was at gym. I cleaned up house. I prepared PC to grinding. Was riding was hanging out with chicks and friends, did a lot of mindset exercise almost all done from our Mindset group study. Seriously when something take your whole day you don't know what to do when you have so much free time. I need to make 24h 1longer break than I thought and it's going to be hardcore boring for me I need those emotions from grinding.

Mind sharing what mindset exercises do you do?

@lestro

I'll write you everything tomorrow morning cuz I am dying from exhaust.



I had ban on poker because I had monkey tilt. I lost control. I was playing like a ****ing monkey and spew 300$ in 20 min. I am telling about it only because today I have sexy day Gordon told me I need to make a 72h break but he decided that I can try after 48h if I want and it was a great idea. I mega f.cking tierd after this session. Tomorrow I'll write why I had this monkey tilt.

Super stupid spewy monkey tilt graph:


Today's sexy graph:

@lestro

This week:
5 Mental Hands History,
Creating warm up routine,
Tilt Profile update,
Tilt awareness,
Spotting most common/important tilt and working on it,
Self evaluation routine,
Fresh start Form

Last is exercise from Mental Coach that my friend had when he was working with him. Everything else is from The Mental Game of Poker by Jared Tendler. I'll also work on accumulated emotions because I have some problems with that but I'll write latter on about it.

I have accumulated emotions. That was only matter of time when it will shows up. I never ever had a monkey tilt. I had two options. I can pretend that nothing happen and I have great mindset or I can accept that it happen and change few things to evade this. Problem with those accumulated emotion is that I am kind of happy. I don't feel stressed or something but I still take too much stuff personally and it has impact on my tilt. It's hard to spot that when you are happy. To pretend hand like those:


Hero (SB): $77.63 (155.3 bb)
BB: $41.98 (84 bb)

Preflop: Hero is SB with 7 7
Hero raises to $1, BB raises to $3, Hero calls $2

Flop: ($6) T 2 T (2 players)
BB bets $6, Hero calls $6

Turn: ($18) Q (2 players)
BB bets $18, Hero calls $18

River: ($54) 8 (2 players)
BB bets $14.98, Hero calls $14.98

[/hand_history][/converted_hand]




Hero (BB): $35.65 (71.3 bb)
SB: $82.46 (164.9 bb)

Preflop: Hero is BB with 9 9
SB raises to $1, Hero calls $0.50

Flop: ($2) Q A Q (2 players)
Hero checks, SB bets $1.50, Hero calls $1.50

Turn: ($5) J (2 players)
Hero checks, SB checks

River: ($5) 8 (2 players)
Hero checks, SB bets $79.96 and is all-in, Hero calls $33.15 and is all-in

[/hand_history][/converted_hand]


I'll work out four times a week. Good thing is that in our Mindset group we start working on our body as well so we'll probably have some competition with it. It won't be so easy to get rid of them but now I am aware of them and I prepared myself for them.

I'm in.

I am doing back ups and do format. I need 64bit Windows to use fully potential from my PC. Today I should done everything.

I did format and now my laptop has 64 bit OS. It works well. It's weird for me that everything work so well and fast I must get to used to it. I am improving fighting with accumulated emotions that's why today after work out I did warm and cold shower three times. It was very painfull (I think it will be painfull for first month or two) but it should help calm down my body and mind. It supposed to relax whole body and improve regeneration.

I am so happy that I work out at the gym otheriwse I would be very very fat. Today after hard core work out I ate whole bread, two cottage chesse and almost whole jar of nutella like chocolate that my father gave me yesterday. It was huge meal and to be honest I would eat even more if I would have something else to eat....

Last two days I was playing bad. Not spazzy or something it was just bad. I am reawatching HU mastermind becuase this is what will help me most to play solid poker. I do hero calls sometimes. I leveling, do fancy play and do other BS what is wrong. I need again learn how to do it in Gordon way.

Graph:

Nice work! Got a monthly update?

@spideysteve

Yes and no. I've been playing NL50 for only 11 days. I'll put whole graph after 30 days or so. I don't want to put those NL4 hands where I was trying different things. I start 14.04.2013 so I'll put month graph 14.05.2013 or close to this date.

WP on all levels!

@KP24

Thanks



It's funny how our mindset group works. We use Gordon idea with paying cash for not doing something. I love money and I don't like to lose money, that's why it works twice as good for me. Yesterday after session I was mega tierd and last thing I wanted to do was those stupid mindset exercise but still losing cash was to painfull for me. It was funny becuase I was swearing for ten minutes how dumb I was to do those commitments but still I did those exercise and went sleep.

I know I should inspire myself and do everything with huge smile. Realitty is that I swear out loud for ten minutes and then do those things. For me it really doesn't matter how I do those things the most important thing is that I do them. I know it's kind of funny that we use something that primitive to force ourselves to do more but it works, pain is our greates motivator.

Almost last thing what Franek want to do when he wake up is going for a 5km walk. I said almost because last thing he want to do is paying me 100$ for not doing that... He's phone is tracked by GPS and I know exaclty where he had this walk and how long it took. I had the same comitment with gym. I must go 4 times a week. I like gym but it was always hard for me to go 4 times a week. Nothing change except that if I don't do that I'll pay him 100$. I am also tracked and he can check how much time I spent at the gym and where I was.

Big brother for poker

@ThinkItThrough

Kind of





Definetely two worst days in my whole life when it comes to running bad. I want to crush something. Good thing is that those mental exercsie teach me how to deal with it. I was mega angry but still playing my game. Maybe in next few months I'll learn how to no get pissed about those things.

Next losing day. I am not even angry or something. I'll have my free day tomorrow and we'll see does it change on monday. It stops impact me I am kind of emotionless. It usually works that way when I have too much emotions in a short peroid of time I stop feeling anything nor anger nor happines nothing. I think my brain just did a break. I had many times like that and I kind of like that state. I am very calm.

Sunday was my free day. I was thinking about my game and I think I spotted few things I can improve. I couldn’t check it because today I can’t play poker nor use HM. I waste most of my day playing on Warcraft. I think I wanted to feel that I am crushing everyone after those loses at poker. I haven’t play in Warcraft for a looooong time but I am still much better than average person. I find out that poker changed the way I think in my whole life. I don’t improve only my poker thinking process, I improve the way I think in real life as well. Even in computer game I think in different way, I was adapting all the time. Opponent was changing his strategy so do I. I lost skill because I didn’t practice it for so long but I think I am better than I used to be because I just adapt better. I try to adapt all the time, like in Heads up. I am very glad that I changed Short Handed to Heads up. It put more pressure on me, it’s much harder to me it’s harder to don’t do spazzes to stay calm and to play relaxed but it’s definitely worth it. Even if it’s hard now I think it will get harder but if it’s the price I need to pay, that’s fine, I am ready for it. I’ll learn how to deal with more and more ****.

Today I am thinking too much about everything and that’s why I decided to write something. It should help clear my mind. Those free days are good because I can think about poker in different way than usual. I find more problems that I wasn’t aware of. I think I rest while I work because after this free day I am more tiered than usual. I want to go to sleep because I know tomorrow I’ll wake up and do my job then it’ll be easier to rest. I am so ****ing tiered doing nothing it is only one day but I am exhausted.

I have great gym. Most of members are huge. One third of them have tattoo and / or scars. I was thinking why I don’t see too many small / fat guys there but now I think I know now. It’s simple. When skinny guy join a gym when almost everyone lift 3-4x time as much as him, nearly everyone have more than 10cm in biceps than he is, he’ll feel mega bad with himself and he’ll quit easier. It’s funny that after two years at gym I feel mega small and weak, still I love it. At old gym big guys were lifting 150-180 and average was 90-100 kg on deadlift I was lifting 120kg and it was great for me, I was above average and I felt great. Now average guy here lift 120-150kg and those big lift 200kg+.

Nobody hides than he’s on steroids. They are making fun about themselves about steroids in front of everyone. I’ve heard that one guy was stupid because he should use metanabol and not winstrol. I’ve heard about steroid on my old gym (coaches thought I was taking them and I don’t want to tell them) but never in front of everyone. I am glad they take them, I am glad most of guys have 40cm+ in biceps there. Because even if I don’t want to take steroids I’ll work my ass of there. I prefer to be worst from best than best from the worst. Anyway when I am worst at something my ego hurt and I work harder. I know that I won’t be as huge as them without steroids but I don’t care I can use my ego to gain some nice muscle and improve my appearance.