I have not updated my blog for long time for 2 reasons. First one is that I am not sure if anyone is reading this, I dont have some desire to write and dont have any benefit from it. On serbian poker forum I used to write blog regularly because i had pleasure writing about my progress through stakes, my shots on higher limits, my thoughts about poker because I started from NL4 and through years i climb on higher levels, get to know the game, both sides of it: playing on tables and the other one - off tables side, life with poker, dealing with swings, then after that coaching, having students... Lately, for quite some time, I've been playing the same level, because I do not work enough and definitely do not play enough to go higher. This leads me to second reason for not writing in my blog recently - there is nothing new about what I would write about. Of course, I am not happy because everyone used to dream about playing high stakes, and now it seems unrealistic because the road to the top is now harder than ever. Although dissatisfaction is not sufficient due to the fact that I will almost certainly not play 2k + but because of the fact that I lost the wish to try. Maybe that is natural, Im playing poker for a long time, when i look back it can be said that I make enough money to live from poker since February 2012. So I can call myself a professional with 5.5 years of work experience.
So I am hangover, sitting here in apartment thats in chaos and Im sure that I need to change something. Not sure what or how, but the logical step would be to get more organized and become more serious. For the last 3 months, I was 2 times seaside with friends, and we know how it looks like when you are on vacation with your friends. In fact, it's becoming more and more frequent everyday, you end up with a kind of beachfront beach, evening in a pub, coffee shop, a concert ... tomorrow reset and repeat. I have nothing against this time, sometimes it needs to be used, rest from work and everyday life, and after that it must also sea. Basicly we were drinking everyday, during day at some bars on beach, later in pub, some club, or wherever. Tomorrow reset and repeat. I like this lifestyle and sometimes u need to live like that, u need some time for yourself, to party and chill, after all we go to vacation because of that. But the problem is that "vacation" is happening in Kragujevac also (city where I live) for last 3 months. Almost everyday - during day there is some barbecue or whatever, during night clubs, kafana, pubs... Im not sure when i became so extrovert. Because of this lifestyle I spend a lot of money, and in addition I spent 15k euros more on some stuff. I paid some life insurance (although i am not a fan of it, I think if you are not an idiot, you can use that money smarter and earn more, but I put some money that was just staying in bank and i never used it and had no idea where to invest so w/e), bought some bitcoins and ethereums and invested 6k in some business with friend. So its time to make some fkn money.
As I said, during summer I was extremely poorly productive, which is realistic to expect when u see how many hands i played:
Less than 60k hands in 3 months, and I play zoom tables. Im still doing okish at zoom 200 but Im sure it would be better to work on my game. I do not remember when was the last time i watched some RIO video, recently friend asked me to do some analysis of high stakes hands and that is what i used to do regularly so it is time to start again. I also want to play more this month so I can get back into "poker state of mind". So i wont be playing anything higher than NL400 until novembar. I used to work on my game for days, was a bit obsessed. Nowdays I watch premier league football, read a lot about players and teams because of fantasy that i play in some small bets, and I am not working on poker which is my main job.Where did that obsession get lost?
In February I set myself few goals and I basicly ignored those. I started doing well and then forgot about most of the things I wanted to hold. Thats why I will set monthly goals and write those here in blog, maybe it will make me do more, I will probably feel some kind of community pressure or whatever. I am going to Vienna to watch football match between Austria and Serbia because I have to buy tickets for my friend cause I lost some bet. But after that I want to play and work more, so by the end of the year I will not travel anywere and will party less in order to grind more.
For every goal that I do I will give 1k rsd (around 8-9e) to charity, while for every goal i do not reach I am gonna give 5k rsd.
1) 40 k hands of zoom 200
2) 5k hands of reg tables 200/400
3) analysis of my game - 15 sessions
4) analysis of high stakes hands - 3 sessions
5) watch 3 videos from RIO - I have some old videos, but now I am not subscribed anymore. Is it still worth for nl200 player? Can someone recommend good instructors to watch?
6) Read two books not related to poker
7) Meditation - 10 sessions
8) do 10 trainings
9) Dont drink 20 days - would choose bigger number, but my birthday is coming soon and as mentioned - will be in Vienna 4-5 days, also some student parties are starting