I have not played much the last two days, but it`s enough to get platinum for one last month. Heading home tomorrow night, and really look forward to that.
Yeaterday I watched BitB stream, which was fantastic. If anybody haven`t seen it yet I highly recommand it! The stream was with european, elmerixx and pads. Those guys are so sick, and its fantastic that they put in all this effort and give back to the community like that. I would give up alot to be in a stable like that.

I also watched the first two parts of pads wcoop run from last year. The guy is a genius and comes of so well. Pleasure to watch. I have a dream of making it in the mtt world in the future. I will study mtts for a while, and when my health is back in business I will def go for it. But for now I will stick to the plan of grinding 6max turbo.

Play has been decent the last few days, but have made a few stupid moves at the start or at the end of some sessions. Some of it is consentration problems, and some are just bad reads. But play overall is getting better and better, and I will continue to work on my game and cutting down on mistakes.

BR: 1021+coins

onkltim

[QUOTE=onkltim;51867228]Goals for March:

-No alcohol=Big fail
-Don`t play poker when health is saying no=Mostly done well on this part
-No candy/soda on weekdays=success
-Go out for a walk every day as long as my health allows it=success
-No pokersessions worse than c-game= Failed twice

So March is over. Happy with my progress of my play over the month. Volume was good since I was away from home for 3 weeks. Volume will drop alot this month, since there`s not much time to grind when at home, plus the whole family is going away for easter. During the week away I prob won`t play a single game.

The alcohol part I failed miserably, but I`m not giving up. Since I got home the bet with willybeemen comes into play again. I`m allowed to drink once this month, when I`ll celebrate my birthday. Will be really disappointed in myself if I drink more than this. And def not because of the money lost. Actually I hope to not drink at all this month, but if I do drink that one time, I won`t be too hard on myself.

I have also been walking/training almost every day this month. Def easier away from home, since the fatigue is harder to control at home. Obv will try to continue to walk/excercise, but a bit less then last month. All in all a decent month behind.

Played my first session of the month. Not many games, but play was fine, prob B-. Have struggled with both fatigue and motivation the last week, hope both will turn around soon.

Goals for April:

-No alcohol(max 1 time)
-No sessions worse than c-game
-light excercise 15 times

BR:1198$

onkltim

Played a few short sessions today. Was on my best game early on, but got sticky at the end of sesh 2, and made a few bad calls. Because of those mistakes I would grade my play B- or c+. I also went outside for a walk. Weather was kinda nice today, so it was nice with some fresh air, even though fatigue is pretty bad atm.

BR:1256$

onkltim

Played two more sessions today. First one was short and play was fine. The second one was a long sesh. Had periods where I got really sticky postflop, and I prob should have quit. Was down quite a bit, but managed to crawl back. Not happy with that sesh at all. Would rate my play c-, and thats not good enough.

Have skipped mental prep since I got home, and thats def gonna change. Will add that to monthly goals. GL at the tables everyone!

BR: 1289$

onkltim

Couldn`t sleep last night, so I played another session. Played my A-game for once,which felt good. Was up a quick hundred bucks aswell, and that also helps.

Today I just wrapped up a long session. Started out playing my a-game, but that dropped after a while. Part of it was me trying to outsmart two regs, and that cost me quite a bit. Just gotta stay off the metagame for a while, and for me that will be hard. But if I continue like this I will keep dropping dollars. Another part was lack of consentration which led to random buttonclicking. Volume has been good, but better with quality over quantity. Lesson learned, I hope. Dropped almost everything back in the last sesh. Would grade my play c- if I`m beeing generous.

BR:1300$+21$ in coins

onkltim

Hi!

I have decided to reopen this thread again. I am at a lowpoint in my life right now, and I will try to change for the better. The alcohol abuse has really got out of hand, and this needs to stop right now. Since last summer I think the longest I have stayed sober is two days in a row

I will use this blog as a motivation to change my lifestyle. To stay sober is the most important thing, but I will also set some other goals for myself. I will set goals that are difficult for me, and I will go for 1 week at the time. I will just drop the goals here:

No alcohol next week

Go for a walk/workout 5 times a week

Dont play worse than C game

No candy/soda during weekdays

GL me, I need it

Onkltim

Yesterday is in the books, and Im happy with how the day was. No alcohol,
even though my body did not like that. I was nauseous and sweating like a pig. I didnt go for a walk yesterday, because of how I was feeling. I also played some poker. Started out making some drooler mistakes in the beginning of the first sesh, but the last small sessions were decent, so I would grade my play as c+total

Today Im feeling slightly better, and I have been for a 2 hour hike in the nice weather. Also played a small sesh. Played was decent, nothing more. Pokerwise on my worst breakeven stretch ever, so Im getting a bit frustrated. But nothing I can do other than ride out the variance and hope I will start winning again. Of course I could play better, but thats hard for me because of consentration problems. I will have to deal with the fact that Im never able to play A game over time.

Onkltim

I have been ashamed of myself the last days, so I havent posted in here. I fkd
up and got stupid drunkk both friday and saturday Im really angry at myself now, so lets hope this is what I need to be able to make this. If there are others out there who has been through this or have any good advice re
quitting alcohol, please chime in here.

Poker has been better, and I have finally had a few winning sessions. Play has been fine too, atleast to my standards. I have also bought PT4, and tried it for the first time today. I have grinded for years and years without a HUD, so it
was difficult for me to remember to look at the stats while I was playing. Most of the time I didnt use the HUD at all. I reckon this will get better pretty soon, and that this can get my game better. Maybe I will post a few graphs in here
aswell.

Im doing fine on my other goals this week, so atleast I have done something right. But quitting alcohol is def the most important one, so Im not happywith the total. I have a good feeling for the coming week, so Im not giving
up at all.

Onkltim

Just a quick update before going to bed. On my second day of the detox,
and I have high hopes of actually making it this time. I feel mentally up
for the struggle. I barely slept last night, and my stomach is acting weird,
but I dont care, all I want is to get my alcohol problem under control.

Poker will be on the sideline for a while. Its difficult to play when sleep is bad.
I tried a short session earlier today, but had to quit right away, as I noticed
I couldnt focus at all. Managed to play abc for the 5 games and up 50 bucks
for the day. I was going to play before going to bed, but the games were
really bad. The 6max turbo games has really gone downhill the last year,
and the last two months the games are often flat out bad. What makes it even
worse, is that most of the regs dont table select. I try to be a little selective,
atleast when Im starting my sesh. That makes it harder to get in the games,
and so often its not worth it. I dont know why so few are table selecting.
Many of them are dickswingers that think they are Gods gift to poker,
and I also believe some of them are clueless about being -EV in 5-6 reg
games.

I might quit playing at pokerstars in the future. The rake is so lolbad, and
the chests are tilting the S**T out of me. Maybe partypoker is worth a shot,
or maybe I will quit playing online poker soon. The future will show!

onkltim

Good luck! What does your diet look like?

Thanks mate! My diet is pretty normal I would say. For
dinner its a big variaty. Chicken , pasta, pizza, Taco, fish, salads etc. I def eat enough of vegetables. For breakfast its normal to eat bread with toppings. Same for supper. Sometimes I eat egg and beans, or poridge instead of bread.

Whats not good about my diet is that I eat too much candy , like many times a day often, and also too much soda, so thats why I try to not eat/drink that on weekdays. And obv tons of beer, which really is the biggest problem. But Im trying to improve!

onkltim

Just had one of my worst sessions ever. Lost almost 500 bucks in 40 games.
I certainly didnt play great poker. Had two hours sleep this night, and little sleep the night before, so my focus wasnt the best. I still chose to play,
because whenI started my session, the games were good for once. I know
Im plus ev in these games, even buttonclicking without focus. The games got worse after an hour, but its to stop when your down. Today was just setup after setup, so I was a bit shocked when I was only down 60 bucks in ev today.
Guess the runbad continues after all...

This detox thing is hard. Im still motivated, but hope some of the symptoms
will disappear soon. Lack of sleep is the hardest part. Im still sweating more
than normal during the day, but in the night its crazy. Im soaking wet, then
freezing, soaking wet again etc, and this makes it impossible to sleep. Think
I will contact my doctor to get some imovane, and see if that will help. Doubt
it will, but it dont hurt to try.

onkltim