Before to put my thoughts into this sort of "paper", Im torn between 2 things my teacher said to me a long time ago, "results means, promising yourself you will never give up" and "Give yourself a chance to change" Now the second one comes into play and there is no point kidding myself, last week was a disaster and prolly didnt have a winning day at 25nl and sort of had to step back and think over again, "clean up the neglect". Today when I log in I saw in another thread a few guys giving constructive criticism which i think was absolutely valuable and explains the situation im currently in. I will put his post in my words, cuz it fits pretty well.
He Said, - Lets put this into perspective. I played 1 year super seriously doing it like its my job, but this is the time after this bad week, where poker put me onto my knees. It is frankly delusion and stupid if i stick with poker. The evidence is plain to see that mby Im not good enough. I put the effort I could and it didnt work out for me. That's no big deal, some people are not suited to certain things." Like i said i just changed the words to my current situation and its so true that it even hurts me to admit it. Seeing it from my current perspective, It hurts me now to see how naive I was in half of the 2016 and the mistakes and the bad approach I had back then which I would say lead me to my current situation.
Some cliffs: Im still not sure if this is it, but damn it was a good ride. I will end it up with some graphs i have currently which are from late 2016 up untill now, if anyone has opinions / questions you are welcomed as always.
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For now bye guys, thanks for everyone who commented gave me feedback, unfortunately or fortunately if we had any drama in the thread
. Cya guys soon or not <3 <3 <3