Hello folks,

I am 26 yrs old guy, who is currently at the lowest point of his life.I failed so many times through the last 3-4 yrs that i am sick of it.I cant take anymore of this ****.However, i am not here to complain about my miserable life.**** that, nobody cares.Here is just a short intro about my ex-me:

I used to be a professional online poker player from the age of 19 till the age of 23.I saved some money(40k in the bank).Quit poker for good.Invested most of my money in a few things i had in mind for a long time.Lost all of my money.Borrowed some more.Lost them too.I was kicked out of college a few months before my graduation.**** that, the system is broken, i dont need it.Started drinking... like a lot.Enjoyed every single drop of alcohol in my blood.Had some troubles with the law.Have a court case planned in the near future, nothing serious though(i think ).Started my own online business an year ago.Of course i failed again, so i had to shut it down.I disappointed my family way too much.From the 18yr old kid who is making a living by himself in a different city, i turned into the 26yr old loser who is asking for money so he can eat.Overall, I failed on so many different occasions, but these are the ones that matter the most.

In fact, POKER might be the only thing i never really managed to fail.I quit as a winner.I dont remember why i stopped playing, i guess i had bigger plans for my future.Nice plans, TIGER.You rocked it.

So lets talk business now.I plan to grind some Spin&Go's in the future.I enjoy the format a lot so i decided i'd give it a try.I already played like 500 $7s and managed to achieve 7.5% roi.I think i have an edge over the regulars at these levels, so i believe by the end of March i will be climbing the ladder to the $15s.I used to play all kind of SNGs(6max, Hus, Hypers) when i was playing professionally at way higher stakes, however the game has changed a lot and i dont really have the confidence to play bigger limits at the moment.

I have a simple goal for March: 3,750 spins at $7 stakes.

Will be posting weekly graphs if you want to follow my progress.Also i will be sharing with you some thoughts not only about poker, but about my life in general.I hope you will enjoy the read, althought i dont really care about you.Lol.This thread is all about me, i mean i feel kind of better when i put my thoughts on paper.

You can call me Failure or Loser for now, hopefully by the end of the year i will be switching my name to Success.

Bye for now.
Sincerely, your regular hater.

You are still very young. Plenty of time to get back on the right track as long as you learnt some lessons. Nothing is lost yet

But.. Why grinding spinngos?
Its beyond me how someone could choose such a high varience, very high slot-machine gamble element game to grind it for a living?

GL anyway!

Hello there,
thanks for the comment, i really appreciate it.

Overall, I chosed to grind Spin&Gos, because back in the days in my poker peak my favourite game was always Hyper Hus.I was pretty much crushing the $100s hypers on stars and made decent profit at them.Spins are similar, i mean the structure is fast and the gamble element is also exciting.

Today i was busy with playing some tennis, then football so i havent played a lot.Made 41 spins and here are the results.




Could anybody tell me how to see ChipEv graph in HEM2.I couldnt find it, i know these are the stats that matter.

Thanks
Sincerely, your regular hater.

Hello there,

last three days i spent with friends travelling around the country, so i couldnt play.However here is the small sample of $7 spins for the month of March.



I just now realized how good i was actually running.
I will start putting more volume from tomorrow, because my goal for the month is far away: 3,750 spins.

I do realize i am running extremly good and i am pretty sure i am not playing my A game, so will try to improve that in the future.It seems that i lost my old-school poker routine, where i was playing 10hrs/daily every single day and it wasnt really big deal for me.

Hello there,
here is another update from my Spin&Go Challenge.
It appeares that 3,750 spins for the month is mission impossible for me.I just cant stay focused to grind 4 tables, which is weird, because back in the days i was playing 4-6 hyper tables without having any problem.I cant play my A game at 4 tables-spins and i am missing a lot of valueable information.So at the moment i am playing only 2 tables at once, which mean automatically that i will decrease my goal from 3,750 to 2,500 spins.

Here is how the month is going till now:


I can definetly confess i spewed some spins.Also, sometimes i am not giving my best when i got 2x multipliers and i am taking some lose decisions.Definetly need to fix that.

Also i have so many hands to analyse but i am not finding time to do it.I cant say there are lots of good regulars at the 7s, but still looking for leaks would never hurt.After 1,200 spins at the 7s in the last like 20 days i am pretty sure i found some really profitable adjustments i implemented in my game-style.I really think i will destroy the limit soon.Hope to make 4 figures profit by the end of the month.Anything above 8% roi is acceptable.

For tomorrow(sunday) i am planning to mix spins with some low buy-in tourneys.
Lets do this.

Hey OP

Best of luck to you

Hey OP, you are my twin brother. I've failed so many ****ing times too and I'm planning to make a comeback on poker. Gl with your journey! Hope you make it!

Thank you mate.

Hey mate, thank you for the kind words.Wish you all the luck in your future poker adventure too.

Here is my monthly graph till now from the $7 spins:


As you can see i am running good, playing some okay poker.Putting more volume is the only thing i am missing.Hope to motivate myself and put some extra hours of playing.However, i managed to analyse most of the interesting hands i marked through the last 20 days.Also tried to look more closely to the game-styles of a few regs i am meeting more often in the 7s.

I cannot find the chipEv per tournament stat nowhere in HEM2.Could any of you help me with that.

Outside of the poker world i am not doing much.I am planning to go out tomorrow night and also have plans for saturday.The rest of the week i will probably spend playing poker and chilling at home, watching sport or something like that.

I am planning to renew my fitness membership in the nearest gym.Back in the days when i was playing poker for living i was literally gym addicted.I was eating healthy/properly.Playing different sports: football, tennis, etc regularly.Visiting the gym at least 4-5 times a week.Overall i was in pretty good shape and i was feeling wonderfull.Of course that reflected to my poker game.So i should definetly be more active.

Thats it for now.
Good Luck

Hey guys,
I am really annoyed by my tracking software(HM2).I am experiencing the same problem as this guy here --> http://forums.holdemmanager.com/gene...incorrect.html .However i just noticed about it yesterday so i cant really check my last 1200 spins and correct them.
Does any of you know how to fix my issue.I asked HM support about the problem, but they just copy-pasted me the same answer they gave to the guy from their forum thread 2yrs ago...

I am really triggered ...

Hello folks,
here is another update from my Spin&Go Challenge.
My $7spin results from the beginning of the month':



My roi% dropped to 7.1 which is understandable given the fact i started to run bad enough so my ev and profit lines finally met.You can see it on the graph.From the beginning of the month i had 4 times x25multiplier($175) but i lost all of them which was really dissapointing.I feel like i am trying to shine in these ones and i am making some -EV moves.Also i am spending some money in tournaments where i am pretty sure i am losing(for now).I need to play at least 1,100 more spins till the end of March so i can reach my goal.It would not be that hard i believe.

Outside of the poker world i am still a big mess.I am not a happy person overall and i need to focus on that.After all the only thing that matters is if i am enjoying the journey.What would make me a happy person?What is my ultimate dream that is achiavable and would make me find a purpose in my miserable life once again?Well i am giving a lot of thoughts on that matter lately.Is it money?Is it love?Am I chasing the american dream?I am 26 yrs old and i feel super exhausted from life already.Why?I am young, i have the capacity to fulfily whatever i want to.I just need to motivate myself and work hard.The truth is i d experienced a major trauma half an year ago, that is still hunting me.I feel like i need to change my location, just to test the waters outside of my comfort zone.I need to run away from all the problems that are surrounding me at my current place.Also i really love to travel.I really like exploring new places.So you dont have to be good at math to connect 2+2.I need to plan a journey to some other country in the near future, where i can spend a few months.I am pretty sure that would make me enjoy my life once again.However, i need to save some money first.The poker dream would definetly make me a happy person.Why am i wasting my time on meaningless things, when i can just put more ****ing hours in learning the game, playing the game, developing in every single aspect of poker?Do I want to become poker pro once again?Hell yeah!Lets do this!

I really hope you bink the max multiplier!

Thank you, man.I really appreciate your kind words.

This track is pretty sick -> https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jAsYXUJRGOs .And the lyrics are literally describing how i feel.

Hello guys,

here is my graph from the beginning of the month:


I have played 2039 total spins.Unfortunatelly my roi dropped to 5%.I will try to improve my performance for the end of the month.Hopefully i will increase the roi to at least 7%.

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I don't know anything about spins but those look like some nice results

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If you want to see chip EV you can go on your tournaments and click the little bar chart thing above the hands (next to the hand chart thing) which you can the next use to show a graph of chip EV or BB/100 EV. Not too sure how to explain it and can't send a photo since I'm on my phone right now.

Hello guys,
the month is pretty much over for me.Here are the results from the 7s spins:



So, the good news is that i reached my goal: to play at least 2,500 spins for the month.The bad news is that i am pretty much disappointed from everything else.My roi is close to 4%, my intention was to reach at least 7%.I spewed far too many spins through the month and that is pretty much the reason why i couldnt reach my roi target.

I wanted to play in the 15s during April, but i am pretty sure i am not ready for that, yet.So next month i will continue to play at the 7s.

I had like 6,7 times x25 multiplier through the month and lost all of them.I figured that losing big multipliers is afecting my game a lot, so i have to change some things in my routine for the next month.

So $750 winnings from spins + $300 from rakeback = $1050 profit for the month.Now the minus in my plan is that i need to somehow make a living with my poker profits.My monthly rent is around $200.I need at least $300 for food and at least $200 for additional expenses.And that is only if i am being really parsimonious.So I am withdrawing $700, hopefully they will be enough for April, but i doubt it.

Next month will be extremely important for my poker future.If i cant reach my goals for the month, i will most likely end my poker journey for the near future.Besides playing poker, i will be developing a new web project that i started to work on a few months ago, but never really finished.By the end of April hopefully i will finish it and eventually run it.So i will pretty much have no free time through April.I feel like if i want to fix my life i need to sacrifice all the meaningless, but fun things in my daily routine.Every night i will make a plan for the next day.I will use google calendar for that purpose.

However, here are my goals for April:

1) Play at least 3,000 $7 spins.
2) Make at least 7% roi from them.
3) Finish my web project so i can run it from the next month.
4) Be involved in a physical activities(fitness, football, tennis, jogging) at least 20 out of the 30 days.

I had a few dates with a really nice and pretty girl in March, but i feel like i need to stop seeing her, at least for now.I need to fix my life first and she is too much of a distraction.Not to mention what a mess i am.I dont want to reveal her all the ****ty things i ve done in the past.Also, my court case is planned for April, so i am nervous about it too.It is not a big deal, i mean its not like there is chance for me to end up in jail, but still i dont want to ruin my record with some ****ty charges.

Thank you for reading.

Glgl dude!

can you share this story?

Good luck in your challenge. Shouldn't need saying, but when your budget is this tight taking trips around the country with friends shouldn't be on your to-do list.

run it up!

Hello there,

well its a boring story actually.I was 22 or 23 - young and stupid ;/.I was making sick money from poker at that time(4yrs ago) and i was pretty much living the dream, doing what i want, when i want and with whoever i wanted.Needless to say it, but university was definetly not in my priority list.Every semester i was supposed to visit some mandatory classes and at the end of the semester to get authentication/signature from the professor.So since i was skipping like 90% of all the uni sessions where i was supposed to participate, it was really hard for me to collect all the signatures so i can pass the semester.I was already caught once trying to fake a signature, which was actually usual practice among my peers.So i had one penalty already.So at the end of my last semester they arranged meeting between me and the university board, so we can figure out how to handle the situation properly.I had no troubles with their exams, but they kept insisting that i missed most of my lessons/sessions/excercises.I tried to explained them that i have no trouble learning the uni-material at home by myself and pass the exam, so there was no point for me to waste my time at their university sessions.However, their final decision was that i broke their university policy for second time, and they were forced to ban me forever.After i heard their decision, i pertty much rage told them that their system is not working properly and all of their school policies are nonsense and so on...

Overall it was my fault for getting banned from university.I couldnt care less back in the days, since i was averaging like 4-5k EUR per month, but now i am regreting... a lot.

Hello there,
sorry for not posting lately.

The reason is that i pretty much stopped following my spin&go goal, where i was supposed to play at least 3k spins through the month of April.Half of the month already passed and i have just 700 spins.It is not because i am not spending enough time playing poker, but because i am playing a lot of MTTs lately.I just find them more interesting at the moment.I dont really have a significant win from them these last few weeks, just two final tables and some minor cashes, but still mtts are exciting me more, so i am playing them more.However i need to make an order in my playing schedule, because Spins should definetly be my priority.

So here is what i come up with.I will be making two or three sessions through the day.At the morning and at the afternoon i will be playing spins and only spins.Then, when the night comes, when there are actually fun tournament to play, i will be investing 20% of my spins profit into mtts.If there is no profit, then i will continue grinding spins in the evening too.So i will pretty much reward myself with playing mtts, when i profit from the spins.I hope that will motivate me to do better in the spins.

Also i will not be jumping in every single mtt my eyes stop on.I will be chosing to play only the tourneys i think there is value in.

So that is from me for now.Its afternoon now, so i will be making a big spin&go session.Hopefully i will profit enough so i can play some good sunday mtts.

Thank you