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**** you got me, then I fold sets again

Live timbeys were interesting. We were with 6 & absolutely had a great time overall. Played a 450 psko bounty on thursday, ran up absolute heaps early on to grab an early chiplead and a big bounty (160k'ish bb1k). Unfortunately, I used all the rungood there. As it was a turbo (20m levels) stacks quickly got close to each other, and I eventually busted in 17th (20 paid) after TT < a6s & k4o for a decent sized bounty and close to chiplead. Oh well, was still a decent start of the week and we cashed for 1k'ish including bounties.

On friday I played the main event, but the seatdraw was absolutely ridicilous. As I mentioned, we were with 6 and 4 of us were at the same table (15+ tables). Pretty sure those chances are pretty ****ing slim. Aside from that, table was pretty tough with a few other decent players. Ended the day with 100k'ish going in bb2.4k though. Day 2 table seemed much better, immediately dropped down to 80'ish, ran it back up to 120k but then got AA<88 for 250k pfai in bb3k which was quite painful with like 45 left. Did play another 500 side event, where I didn't manage to win any pot despite the table being absolutely amazing.

3 of my friends actually went deep in main event, one finished 18th something after qq<kk for chiplead and the two other guys got 5th & 6th which is whatever.

Drove home yesterday to play an online session, which resulted in a beautiful 4 fig loss again. Really didn't win any important pot all day long.

*Very honest post now*

I'd like to talk a bit more about how I've been feeling lately, as I would describe as accumulation tilt. It's just the accumulation of all the different beatings I'm taking after each other, that is really getting to me. Yesterday I was just ranting about super irrelevant showdowns like losing aa pfai in warmup, or get my ak cracked in 109bb on ace high board vs aj for piles etc. I mean, all of those are super standard, but it's just the accumulation of all those showdowns and basically the past 3 year that is really putting me over the edge sometimes. Also the fact that my make up was once again down to 5k ,and is now almost back up to 20 for the 3rd time in a row is annoying the **** out of me. Not playing full time obviously hurts the chances of getting out of make up faster, however being in make-up for over 10k+games now and running around 6 figs under EV is just messing with my head at this time.

It's just seems so pointless to whine about this, but then it doesn't. It's hard to explain and honestly I don't even know what I expect people to say to me. Will it make me feel better when people tell/confirm me how unlucky I am? No, probably not. It has just become like a very intense internal fight I have with myself at this point now, and no one really can help me with it either. The only thing I can really do is keep my head up high and keep trying to improve, and make correct decisions but to me it just seems like time is running out, since poker is pbb not gonna be around this much longer in my life, and I still have a 6 fig deficit in EV which seems very unlikely to be filled. People keep telling me it well turn around, yet it hasn't for over 3 years now, and I think I start questioning it myself now since I know time is running out. So yeah, every time I lose a high equity spot, it just fuels that feeling and adds to that accumulation tilt I guess. I guess I sort of have the feeling that I'm just wasting my time for over 3 years now, while I'm probably missing out on many other things I could have done in the meanwhile, however then there's the rationale that I think that I'm still very good/pbb at the top of my game now, and I just can't quit at this point either. It's almost like a trap, where my mind is telling me 'you can't quit now since you've become so good and are still improving' yet results are not showing it. I don't know it's just a very ****ed up situation, but for example after finishing my exams, I played 8 online sessions in two weeks, played a couple times live too, and spend 20+ hours in the lab. At this point, I'm picking poker over school, it's a choice I make and that's fine. However, even though losing over 8 online sessions is standard as ****, it just adds to the pile of accumulation I already amassed in the past 3 years, plus the feeling of guilt because I spent 2 weeks going all-in on poker, while I actually should/could have done so much work on my master thesis, which btw, I still have to begin writing now. It's just one example, where I'd like to show you how my mind is currently operating now. This post has almost become an explanation for the guys I speak to on a regular basis, who are most likely very annoyed sometimes by my rants while I'm sure they have their own struggles as well.

While some might think this post is super silly, it really helps me reflecting my own decisions and the way I'd like to head further in life. As of today, I'm going pretty much all-in on school. I have only 45 more days to complete a master thesis I still have to start writing, and in the meanwhile have to study for two other exams as well, so going all-in on poker does seem very destructive to me now, and doing two things half-ass is just plain stupid.

Good read, bud. Of course I don't have anything all that useful to add, except that I'm rooting really hard for you to just run pure and blast out of MU with a Sunday major win but that's not exactly gonna help much. Fwiw I don't think anyone is annoyed with you, at least in the circle of people I know of. I mean everyone rants about beats once in a while and I don't think I know anyone personally who has ran as bad as you did so it's more than understandable.

Not sure what I want to type but in any case best of luck with the master thesis and as I said, really rooting for you to get a huge score as you are way, way overdue

Honestly try to go on your own. Not realizing your EV is bad enough, knowing that each time it happens you also get buried in more and more MU is even worse. I'm a very firm believer than unless you're just starting out or are getting some absolute world class coaching, there is no benefit at all to being staked. Think of it this way, if you go on your own you can maintain the same EV by halving your ABI and playing in softer games.

Another thing that can help is try to reduce the difference between your lowest buying and your highest buyin, because if you have huge discrepancy between the two then it just adds an entire new level of volatility to your game. Also try to mix in some very low variance games 18mans, 9mans, 6mans. First they're great practice for end game spots and second small frequent wins will make you feel much better about your game.

Honestly the "hope to bink a 100000000 field tournament and make it" is a very poor strat and almost everyone that goes that route will fail. Obv just because you've been way under EV for so long doesn't mean anything. It could flip tomorrow or it could keep going all your life.

I think most Mtt grinders go through the phase asking themselves are they ever going to win again when losses keep compounding and run bad persists for long periods of time, the people who win consistently are not always the best players but more so have a rock solid mental game/game select really well. If you're winning over decent samples just reassure yourself a win is on it's way and all you have to do is keep showing up to play also probably smart to cut down on bigger fields.

This isn't something you can just do when in makeup. If you want to leave a staking agreement in makeup then you have to pay it all (or an agreed buyout %) back out of pocket.

The problem with the argument of "I'm a very firm believer than unless you're just starting out or are getting some absolute world class coaching, there is no benefit at all to being staked." is that someone just starting out in poker is very likely not going to get a staking deal where someone else has 100% of the risk outside of <$2 games, maybe. Getting world class coaching is something I can't disagree with though.

There's plenty of other reasons people get staked though. I would say most people are staked because they are not financially suited to handle the swings in the games they play in. Others are effectively broke and cannot afford to play poker, so being staked is their only option. If staking/backing was somehow banned from online poker, we would see the competition become much easier.

Yo

Just Fkn bink sth already jeez.

K bye

I feel you bro. We all ***** about beats when we're down. No worries, hope it won't take too long to get out of the hole.

I fully support your plan to go all-in on school stuff right now and deal with poker after. Study and work your ass off and chill/party here and there by going out with friends. It's summer for christ sake, enjoy and goolak!!!

Keep the head up m8. I found it so hard when in Uni to have my head fully in poker when swamped with school work. Basically, when grinding I would always feel guilty about neglecting my studies/skipping class or putting myself in a position to struggle. With this guilt hanging over my head it hurt my poker game/development quite a bit.

The same trend presented itself when I was doing school work instead of grinding. Felt guilty for not putting in the time/effort/focused grinds that needed to happen to get me to the top.

Maybe I'm weird but I think it makes a lot of sense to just pick one thing and make sure it is done completely and thoroughly and then shift your focus to the other task. Seems like if you bust your ass in school for a few weeks and get it done you will have a big monkey off your back and lots of free time to give your full undivided attention to the pokerz. Best of luck with whatever you choose and things usually have a funny way of working themselves out when you least expect

thx for all the support but

PokerStars - 8000/16000 Ante 1600 NL - Holdem - 8 players
Hand converted by PokerTracker 4

UTG+1: 629,900 (VPIP: 20.13, PFR: 14.93, 3Bet Preflop: 8.54, Hands: 618)
MP: 1,656,813 (VPIP: 40.63, PFR: 26.56, 3Bet Preflop: 15.63, Hands: 64)
MP+1: 355,504 (VPIP: 24.71, PFR: 16.39, 3Bet Preflop: 8.41, Hands: 511)
CO: 205,848 (VPIP: 18.39, PFR: 6.17, 3Bet Preflop: 0.00, Hands: 88)
BTN: 359,952 (VPIP: 18.18, PFR: 13.64, 3Bet Preflop: 0.00, Hands: 22)
Hero (SB): 438,330
BB: 1,204,698 (VPIP: 15.94, PFR: 11.68, 3Bet Preflop: 0.00, Hands: 138)
UTG: 485,627 (VPIP: 18.65, PFR: 16.43, 3Bet Preflop: 4.64, Hands: 371)

8 players post ante of 1,600, Hero posts SB 8,000, BB posts BB 16,000

Pre Flop: (pot: 36,800) Hero has T 8

fold, fold, MP raises to 48,000, MP+1 calls 48,000, fold, fold, fold, fold

Flop: (132,800, 2 players) T J 4
MP bets 80,000, MP+1 calls 80,000

Turn: (292,800, 2 players) 8
MP bets 128,000, MP+1 raises to 225,904 and is all-in, MP calls 97,904

River: (744,608, 2 players) 3

MP shows 7 4 (One Pair, Fours)
(Pre 34%, Flop 10%, Turn 14%)
MP+1 shows J T (Two Pair, Jacks and Tens)
(Pre 66%, Flop 90%, Turn 86%)
MP+1 wins 744,608

imagine this whale

PokerStars - 10000/20000 Ante 2000 NL - Holdem - 6 players
Hand converted by PokerTracker 4

MP: 574,057 (VPIP: 20.63, PFR: 15.28, 3Bet Preflop: 9.02, Hands: 637)
CO: 733,013 (VPIP: 39.76, PFR: 26.51, 3Bet Preflop: 12.50, Hands: 83)
BTN: 1,081,999 (VPIP: 24.95, PFR: 15.98, 3Bet Preflop: 8.02, Hands: 530)
SB: 341,552 (VPIP: 12.20, PFR: 9.76, 3Bet Preflop: 5.26, Hands: 41)
Hero (BB): 839,426
UTG: 1,328,998 (VPIP: 15.92, PFR: 12.18, 3Bet Preflop: 0.00, Hands: 157)

6 players post ante of 2,000, SB posts SB 10,000, Hero posts BB 20,000

Pre Flop: (pot: 42,000) Hero has J T

fold, fold, CO raises to 60,000, fold, fold, Hero calls 40,000

Flop: (142,000, 2 players) 2 6 8
Hero checks, CO bets 80,000, Hero raises to 207,500, CO raises to 671,013 and is all-in, Hero calls 463,513

Turn: (1,484,026, 2 players) A

River: (1,484,026, 2 players) 8

Hero shows J T (One Pair, Eights)
(Pre 20%, Flop 38%, Turn 20%)
CO shows K K (Two Pair, Kings and Eights)
(Pre 80%, Flop 62%, Turn 80%)
CO wins 1,484,026

somehow has kigns there and not 75o, which was for 2/18

PokerStars - 10000/20000 Ante 2000 NL - Holdem - 9 players
Hand converted by PokerTracker 4

MP: 530,057 (VPIP: 20.41, PFR: 15.14, 3Bet Preflop: 8.98, Hands: 644)
MP+1: 1,124,400 (VPIP: 41.11, PFR: 28.89, 3Bet Preflop: 12.20, Hands: 90)
MP+2: 1,248,799 (VPIP: 25.00, PFR: 15.76, 3Bet Preflop: 7.88, Hands: 537)
CO: 816,259 (VPIP: 21.49, PFR: 16.23, 3Bet Preflop: 10.07, Hands: 690)
BTN: 309,552 (VPIP: 14.58, PFR: 10.42, 3Bet Preflop: 4.55, Hands: 48)
Hero (SB): 443,652
BB: 1,242,585 (VPIP: 16.46, PFR: 12.88, 3Bet Preflop: 1.41, Hands: 164)
UTG: 447,267 (VPIP: 20.67, PFR: 13.10, 3Bet Preflop: 2.94, Hands: 151)
UTG+1: 442,256

9 players post ante of 2,000, Hero posts SB 10,000, BB posts BB 20,000

Pre Flop: (pot: 48,000) Hero has A K

fold, fold, fold, fold, MP+2 raises to 42,000, fold, fold, Hero raises to 441,652 and is all-in, fold, MP+2 calls 399,652

Flop: (921,304, 2 players) Q 6 K

Turn: (921,304, 2 players) 4

River: (921,304, 2 players) 3

Hero shows A K (One Pair, Kings)
(Pre 46%, Flop 7%, Turn 0%)
MP+2 shows Q Q (Three of a Kind, Queens)
(Pre 54%, Flop 93%, Turn 100%)
MP+2 wins 921,304

then this one for 3/18

one guess which timbey?



and now i don't want anyone questioning my runbad anymore gtfo

Gotta win dem flips

bump

LG is playing day 2 of a 1k highroller event in Belgium today, in before ship

In before loses massive flip for the chip leader in the final 15

Jokes : Hope u ship

In before hand histories like they were written by pads

Vamuuu

just wonder
do we need to c/r call off 40bb that deep in MTT vs whale that is not folding any pair??

CC flop in the second hand imo, 40bbs eff. Think with the edge you can avoid this high variance spot.
As the runbad goes, the best advice I could give you and that has helped me a lot, is try to get a decent job(when you major) with good future projection which can provide a solid base for your finances and that lets you play on your own whenever you want without the stress you need to bink. That way I think you´ll start enjoying the game a lot more and results will come eventually, but now with time on your side. Think playing mtts 100% profesionally when you have a good major, seems like -ev in the long term.

This is what u get with the poor gameselection..

Glglglglgglg

Thanks guys. Unfortunately ran pretty poor at day 2, had not a single raise & take for over 3 hours and eventually parked my last 12bb with aqs into ak.

Yas. There was one key hand I'd like to tell you about:

Open AcJo utg 6.5k (130k), MP 15k (fairly tight dude so far) & SB (weird french badger who didn't like folding) coldcalled. We peel (could have 4b/f too) and they both have us covered by a mile (200k+)

Flop is T82ccd gets checked around
Turn is 9o SB ch, I bet 29k into 50'ish, MP folds, SB calls
River is 5o SB ch, and given that SB didn't like folding I decided to give this one up and bluff KQ & KJ. Would have piled club rivers and would def have piled river vs MP, or vs a lot of other dudes but this guy was most likely not folding any overpair or even toppair. Unfortunately the badger tables AKo and tells me he would've called a shove bc he put me on aj lul

I mean, I just showed a HH where the whale is bombing flop and b/c turn with bottom pair and a turned gutshot so he literally could have had anything, and it's almost like a gii for value. Ofcourse not super delighted still, but postflop it's only 34bbs and he cbet flop for 4bbs already. Even vs his gii range I'm likely flipping or ahead, and then he has a lot of b/fs pbb too.

Ok buddy and who are you?

<3

After I busted highroller went for dinner, and regged 550 main 1a. Never got above starting stack and busted. Returned towards the evening next night for 1b, and once again fired 2 bullets and never got above starting despite AMAZING tables. So frustrating. Really tables where if you manage to hit a few flops/pick up a few hands you end up with heaps but since people weren't folding, bluffing was out of the question. One beautiful hand to show you the level of play: I open 1500 utg from 50k, 5 calls, bb rips 40k everyone folds he shows 65o lul

Anyway, wasn't too dissapointed bc I still have a lot of work to finish my thesis. Currently I'm at 17k written words, and I'm aiming for like 22-24k and deadline is within 10 days now. It has been crazy busy every since, but managed to find time for a short holiday at the end of july, and visited that_anon_pgc in budapest which was great. budapest really is an amazing city and would def recommend.

Currently my full focus is on finishing thesis, then have one tough exam, and another one which I hopefully can reschedule since it's an oral exam. Also just recently heard that my presentation and examination of thesis has moved up towards the week of 21th of august as well. So crazy busy times and not much poker until then. Still trying to figure out what I want to do with my life next. As I mentioned, don't really want to give up poker yet, but the thought of going pro with a pile of make up is not very attractive either.

exactly you showed hand that guy is not folding any pair/draw

so imo when you are c/r (with plan to call off) with JTs flush draw + overcards with 0 fold eq and that deep vs that kind of villain it looks kinda bad/spewy to me with those reads
the thing imo is that we have so much eq + impied and we can like x/r value bet T/J vs this guy, his 4beting AI range on flop probably got us crushed (way behind) also we can x/jam a lot of turn that kind improve our eq and he might fold some better hands then ours like 7/9/Q and he can also just check behind some turns and we realize our eq and valuebet biggish and get max value with min variance

Ok, a lot to catch up on. For the larger part of a month I devoted all my time to writing my master thesis. When I handed it in, I knew it was no masterpiece but felt it was def good enough to pass. Apparently the judges didn't agree, and I failed. At first this was a pretty big slap in the face as I didn't really see it coming. I think it was a mixture of a couple of things which caused it.

First, the communication with my promotor was **** terrible. It always took her 3-4-5 days to reply to my e-mails, sometimes even longer and we only had one brief communication which was over the phone while I was on holiday after I sent her a first draft of what I already had written. Overall, she was quite positive and she gave me a few tips which I tried to implement. Afterwards, I sent her another piece and never got anything back so I was like ok gtfo. Then during my defense she basically told me that I didn't make enough use of her expertise, and that it didn't live up to her standards, yet she was the one who apparently was not interested and couldn't bother messaging me back with some feedback. Secondly, I was told that my thesis didn't have a lot of spectular new insights, however both my promotor and commissioner are ****ing experts on the topic I wrote my thesis on. It's both their job, and they have like inf published articles in journals etc so I didn't think that was really fair either. It kind of felt like you would study poker for 3 months non-stop and then OTB_redbaron or Oborra have to judge and tell you: "Yeah I sort of agree, but hey not many new insights there" I also got one comment about the literature review I did where I was told I should have focussed on different parts, YET my promotor explicitly told me over the phone that I researched the right literature.

Finally, I was told that my research was based on too many assumptions/opinions but the topic imho really was no exact science and I felt like it was appropriate to do so. I mean the topic is super arbitrary/subjective to begin with. It's not like math where 2+2 = 4. My research was mostly based on already published documents, so there sometimes was not enough concluding evidence on the topics, so then I stated for example "bc A was B & C, we can with reasonable certainty conclude that A was X and Z" So yeah, those three things mainly ****ed me over. Esp the part where the judges are ****ing experts on the topic, and I felt like they couldn't separate their own expertise from one of a student who studied the topic for a few months and has no interested in researching it further stings a little. Really felt like I was quite unlucky in that regard, and might have passed with different judges etc... Perhaps this sounds a little salty but whatever. So yeah, need to contact my promotor again somewhere this month and then we'll sit together and see how we can rework the thesis to hand in a modified version in january. Also had two other exams. One was a multiple choice, which is always a bit of gamble. The other one was a verbal exam, which went well yday so at least passed something this summer.

Anyway, leaving for Italy tomorrow to blow of some steam and think about what I'm gonna do next. Really have no idea, esp not since I didn't anticipate not passing my thesis. Coming back on tuesday, and then we will go hardcore on the online grind for 2 weeks. Last week I'm going back to dublin for my yearly 6max series trip with a few friends. 6 max is just so much more fun live, so looking forward to that again as well. Hopefully don't brick everything like I did last year though

GL to all the heroes during WCOOP

lol_school

gl during wcoop my friend