Anyways, In a few days/weeks, it's going to be my 10 year anniversary of me graduating from college. What sparked this thought was that a friend of mine shared a photo album that I took 9 years ago for friends that graduated from college that I attended on Facebook. It just brought back a flood of memories; all the good times that I had with them. However, it brought back memories of all of the goals and dreams that I had for myself at that time and in the 10 years since I haven't accomplished any of them. I thought by now that I'd be working as a accounting manager or something along those lines, be married, and have a house and maybe a kid or two.

Recently, I've been seeing the successes of my friends on Facebook; being promoted and almost making 6 figure salaries, getting married and having kids, stuff like that and here I am almost 10 years later, barely making $10,000/yr more when I first started working after college, working at an entry level job still, having recently moved out of my parents, still not married; not even in a relationship or even dating anyone. I just started to feel really depressed. I thought I was a smart and talented individual, but I guess years of failures and setbacks and not reaching my goals has taken a toll on me. It's a big bad world out there with lots of talented and smart individuals. I start to wonder if this is it, this is what my life is. I guess I shouldn't be thinking this way and be thankful of what I have and what I've accomplished, but it feels as if I've had bad luck, or I made a really bad choice or decision and it's been costing me ever since. I start to sound like a bitter athlete who got unlucky and should've been a superstar at the pros.

I don't begrudge my friends or my co-workers for being where they are, they're very talented and smart people, but I again wonder where did it all go wrong for me? I think back to the stupid choices and decisions that I've made, or something I should've done but didn't. Maybe it's time I do something drastic to try and shake things up. I guess that was part of the reason I wanted to try teaching, to try something new, unfortunately that didn't work for me. At the same time, I'm not really sure what I want out of life anymore. I'm not really sure how to get out of this funk either. I guess just writing this all down will help me come to a solution. Maybe some of you older posters (I'm 31) can impart some wisdom on me, but if you have any advice in general, I'll consider it.