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Originally Posted by TRUSTtheDRAWCESS
The **** winds are blowin bobandy
The liquor is calling the shots now, Randers.
Anyway I said I will update once a month but decided to do a little update...
Months is going so and so.. Started it off at nl5z played 10 minutes of 50z, played 3 minutes of 100z, don't really know why, I guess I had a bad morning understood fast that I'm doing thing that I told myself I'm not going to do and luckily it ended up like 90€ or so, it was in the beginning of the month.. have not played r3tard ever since...
Ran like garbage, moved up to 10z, ran like absolute garbage but played pretty decently and then as you know in zoom games, boom +15bi in 2 days, something like +10bi in the evening and +5bi in the morning I guess I added the flipout luckbox tourney to the winnings (22$ or so) so basically yes, 150€ in 2 days, its more than 15bi, maybe in dollars like 18...
Took a day off to wait for the evening when I'm happy and shot 25z, did feel that 25z was alot nittier than 10z and more folds, alot more folds and less spewy spots... 10z seems like just come play solid and put the hours in and you can't lose if you don't tilt, 25z feels the limit where I really have to think more and stay focused... Played super good ran awfully in some key spots, because shotting with 5bi is so so luck dependant, feels like with the LB RB and other promos I am able to beat it... started the session at around 440€ ended something like 345€ and decided I won't go tits up til I fall to 300 because re grinding this 130€ can take 2 days or 3 weeks or who the hell knows...
Took another day off and started back in 10z, ran randomly, cant hold my hands, cant bink in run it twice or losing 90-10 when running it twice ( i do run it twice when my gut tells me to do, usually I always ask for run it twice when im flipping or behind and usually never agree to run it twice when I'm favourite, except vs fishes, I know they want to run it twice, ok lets go then)
Now sitting at something like 345€ so yeah, 80€ to go until new shot.
Anyway tried to do something I USUALLY dont do: study with solvers, watch videos and think through the spots in the videos where alot better players talk about their thought process, luckily, happily or whatever most the spots would have played out the same for me, because before I quitted in the september or october I tried to study alot. Coming to a conclusion if let's say all the regs are quite equally skilled then the mental game will be a winner, ive seen them regs crack under pressure, spew alot, some slightly loose calls and nitty folds etc, in the long run over millions of hands this is where the edge comes IF everyone is solid, which is also not true that everyone is solid imo... variance plays such a big part anyway so under 300k hand sample I don't even consider a sample... I used to think that 30-50k hands is a enough big sample... yeah maybe in 2003....
What did I learned when I marked 8-9 hands and analyzed them?
I made 1-2 mistakes postflop AND the other 6-7 spots would never ever happened if I had played my preflop ranges right, from all the liquor and weed obviously my part of the brain that can remember stuff doesn't work really well anymore, even though basically for months in the summer I had "studied" the preflop charts but still calling too loose OOP or 3betting a bit loose. whatever. anyway my conclusion is I have to either start learning and memorizing the charts one by one, just a bit everyday or play them opened on the other screen... well you cant have like opened 20+ charts and clicking between them takes time and is suspicious for your gameplay too, even more in GG where they ban you for every slightest mistake, so probably should do like CO vs UTG 3bet, SB vs Co 3bp, and BTn vs SB 3bp, just 3 charts a day or so... but then I felt like in the end I still have to remember them and I will go the legit way, I will start to slowly re learning them and obv marking and hoping that I can use a solver not to just see that every mistake would not have happened if it wasn't for preflop....
My laptop is pretty weak and I can only solve 3bet pots or there is no ram, and lately the computer has gotten even weaker and I cant get the solves if the solve needs like 5gb ram.. sad but what can I do, I don't have the money to buy a decent laptop and I wouldnt cashout my roll too, probably from 50z++ I have to do it no other way around...
I am pretty happy with my mental game, my ability to mark hands and really analyze them not just have 200 marked hands and never check them, and I'm happy to see when watching bluffthespot youtube or similar that my thought process is close to MMAsherdog when reviewing those hands, if its 10z, 50z or 500z, so pretty happy about it... just the progress is so slow and I can't wait til i play some limit where I can cashout finally something...
What the future will bring? I don't really know... I just keep going with my own pace, will check that I won't burn out and that I constantly atleast try to study, even when its 1-2 hands analyzed over like 2-3 days, consistency and not tilting is the key to win the money in poker in 2021 when everybody is pretty solid imo. I hope the games won't die or atleast not to the limits I plan to reach (slight winner in 100-200z would be a dream, 500z+ would be really what I want but I try to stay realistic with my goals.)
If anyone has good tips how to improve my game with computer what can solve only up to 4-5gb RAM solves, let me know.
Currently up around ~150€ this month, but everything can happen, Will make update how it really went on the last day of the february or first day of march. Hopefully I can reach 25z fast, because it would take alot of time to grind it to the 50z shot, which I aim at 1500€ BR (my games are in dollars), almost like 50-60bi needed for it or even more...
Hard with GG is that I don't have HH and I don't HUD the vpip numbers really don't tell anything, I have to memorize the regs name and their AVG vpip to have any use of it, some days some guys all I see is 16vpip the other day they are 28vpip... but al i know is that they are regs no other info, when I see a really good exploit or misplay I try to make notes but let's be honest Ive done like 4 notes in 100k hands...
Hopefully I don't burn out and I can reach 25z before summer with healthy BR like 750-1000€
EDIT: forgot to mention that the anxiety and mental mood swings and fear are coming back a little bit, I didnt have it in 5z or 10z at all, but in 25z I'm feeling bad when I lose even like 4bi(100$) because it is big money for drunk trailer park supervisor also I feel sad the next morning and depressed after losing, not wanting to get out of bed and go to gym etc. Feeling like "What If I fail again? What If one day i just spew it in 200z or 500z and all my hard worked months are cleared in a second, or even worse what if I never beat 25z/50z/100z/200z? will i keep playing in 10z pool for ever and just take it as a little few hundred bonus every month? I know I can't take it, I know I wan't to get to the limit where I can invest 1k$ a month from my winnings or have a vacation or buy ***** balenciagas or whatever... what if I never learn how to study properly or what if the games are so reg infested that no one will wil, what if they regulate poker even more, what if what if (insert 100 bad scenarios)... this is the thoughts I did not have when I did not play... but what I did not have when I did not play too? hope... grinding it up is basically the only way out of monetary misery for me, not maybe for you or them but for me I see poker the only hope to live a good life someday in the future... but what if...."
Last edited by Lim Jahey; 02-25-2021 at 11:23 AM.