What's up guise. It's been a really rough week. I've worked very hard on my mental game the past year, including meditating 10-15 minutes a day,
every day. That being said, I still have my occasional slip-ups. This week, however, I seemed to just fallen off the rocker. I spewed at a rate I haven't seen in over 6 months. It culminated at one point last night, where I spewed 100bb full stacks in back to back spots (within 3 hands). Full spews guise - I might as well have lit the $800 on fire or at least blown it at a ****ing strip club and had some fun memories with friends to show for it.
It's the strangest thing because it seemed so sudden but overtook me with great force. I can lose to coolers and I can lose to runbad and it sucks but I get over it; it's out of my control. But nothing depresses me more than money lost where I knew better - where I knew not to click call or not to click bet but I did anyway. I tried to look deep within me and identify some causes and came up with several leaks that I have been aware of but not doing enough to fix. I'll list one example of a prominent one - I try to bluff whales too much, contrary to the classic proverb of not overbluffing fish. These
****ing incredible idiots fun players
just aren't thinking clearly enough about the game, ranges, or probability at the level needed for some of my bluffs to get through as often as they do vs reggies.
In the search for fixing tilt and bad calls, one of the best pieces of advice came from a friend of mine who is currently a resident in psychiatry. He identified that the main component in all of my bad decisions were that they were snap "click-back" decisions. As those of you who have read up on mental game know, initial reactions are often reptilian "fight or flight" in the amygdala region of our brain and these snap reactions are primitive and not logical and reasoned. All of these bad decisions were trapped in that initial primitive phase. I
always make better decisions when I take my time to think through the pieces of the puzzle. Anyway, I consciously decided to make that effort for every big decision in tonight's session and it went much better. It hurts that after so much work in this area I still have the occasional slip through, but it's something I always have to keep front of mind. If I'm facing a big bet or decision, take a deep breath, gather thoughts and analyze. No snap decisions when it comes to big decisions. Think straight. Think clear. Think
slowly.
Poker for a living isn't easy and it's riddled with trials, learning, and humbling moments. I think you have to do your best and catch yourself when you feel like you're not. These moments suck and they remind me how of long a road I have ahead of me, but they also serve to make me better going forward.
GL today, let's get it
Last edited by Lilu7; 05-07-2017 at 01:12 PM.